Venting Does anyone else feel like an ogre next to pretty women

[_Gollum_]

*Unintelligible stream of consciousness vent incoming, do not take too seriously*

It's so painful for me to go outside these days because there are just so many perfect women everywhere, perfect faces, perfect curvy skinny bodies, perfect hair perfect clothing perfect everything and I bet they're university educated and intelligent and interesting and kind and empathetic too. And this is IN REAL LIFE, so no editing, no filters, this is just their real selves. I went to a philosophical discussion group a few weeks ago and I was sitting beside one of these perfect women and I just felt like a monster next to her. She was so feminine and beautiful and thoughtful and there I was sitting there like a fat manly lump, no waist no hips no breasts and an ugly face to top it all off. We were probably roughly the same height (5'3) but I felt gigantic.

I feel so trapped, I genuinely hate myself for my appearance. Now apparently I have hip dips too, which is a first for me. I'm 24 but my body looks 40. Every time I try to wear pretty clothes I just end up feeling worse about myself because it's like putting lipstick on a pig. It's safer to just not make an effort in the first place, just wear baggy clothes that hide me as much as possible. I'd be so embarrassed if someone actually saw my body, I look pregnant 24/7 and no I'm not exaggerating. I'm so tired of this I'm so tired of living in this body that's always out to get me, that always wants to hurt me, that doesn't care about my best interests. I'm tired of living in a body that I don't feel good in and that makes me ashamed.

Let me know if you can relate

 

[SchizoGymnast]

*Unintelligible stream of consciousness vent incoming, do not take too seriously*

It's so painful for me to go outside these days because there are just so many perfect women everywhere, perfect faces, perfect curvy skinny bodies, perfect hair perfect clothing perfect everything and I bet they're university educated and intelligent and interesting and kind and empathetic too. And this is IN REAL LIFE, so no editing, no filters, this is just their real selves. I went to a philosophical discussion group a few weeks ago and I was sitting beside one of these perfect women and I just felt like a monster next to her. She was so feminine and beautiful and thoughtful and there I was sitting there like a fat manly lump, no waist no hips no breasts and an ugly face to top it all off. We were probably roughly the same height (5'3) but I felt gigantic.

I feel so trapped, I genuinely hate myself for my appearance. Now apparently I have hip dips too, which is a first for me. I'm 24 but my body looks 40. Every time I try to wear pretty clothes I just end up feeling worse about myself because it's like putting lipstick on a pig. It's safer to just not make an effort in the first place, just wear baggy clothes that hide me as much as possible. I'd be so embarrassed if someone actually saw my body, I look pregnant 24/7 and no I'm not exaggerating. I'm so tired of this I'm so tired of living in this body that's always out to get me, that always wants to hurt me, that doesn't care about my best interests. I'm tired of living in a body that I don't feel good in and that makes me ashamed.

Let me know if you can relate

Honestly? Yes. Years of antipsychotic use has caused me to out on some serious pounds and my migraines make sticking to an exercise routine impossible. I just feel like life is kicking me in the head.

 

[amerie]

You are describing what's called being mogged and yes I feel that way often but for me personally I could be pretty but it's just laziness bc I'm big as hell. I have a mom bod at 19 bc 14 year old me thought it would be cute to eat hot Cheetos for breakfast all throughout Highschool.

Makeup and styling, and having a nice body goes a long way. Lara Raj (my pfp from KATSEYE) isn't conventionally attractive but is still considered one of the most attractive Tamil celebrities currently.

Also if you lock in and save like a few thousand dollars you can go to Southeast Asia and get lipo for a cheap price. I know it will take a while and it's really hard but if you're super insecure it's sooo worth it.

 

[ma0]

Not so much my appearance, but definitely considering my lifestyle. I can't imagine anyone would want to get in a 10ft radius of me, considering what I do all day. It sucks but this is what I chose.

So yeah, I can relate pretty heavily with the feeling.

 

[Cosmophobic]

Yes there are beautiful creatures everywhere and I do feel a pang of jealousy when I see them, being the hideous chud that I am. I try not to make assumptions about their inner beauty though. Statistically speaking a good chunk of them will be people that you wouldn't want to be around if you got to know them.

 

[FoxSauce]

Well yeah..my choices in clothes and way of thinking I guess.

 

[skraplott]

you're definitely not alone in feeling like that. i'm overly self critical and my ed probably doesn't help either, because i look at others and all i can think about is how i don't meassure up. i keep telling myself most people are more worried about themselves than the random stranger they just saw, that helps a little atleast.

 

[YarXn]

I'm a dude, so I just know I am an ogre in general. Honestly though? This is the least of my problems. I'd rather women stay away so I don't accidentally inflict my burdens on them.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I've always felt inferior to other women. I much prefer just not leaving the house now. (I work from home.) It was a lot lot worse when I was younger though. At least being middle aged, there's slightly less expectation for a woman to look as good. But yeah, I'm overweight, usually on the scruffy side and not at all feminine. The upside is I'm not even interested in trying to attract someone now.

 

[psp3000]

No not really, since I have always somewhat had the idea/belief that what is and is not considered feminine or masculine to be a scam

so in that regard I would feel out of place when in spaces with other women regardless of appearances but I do not feel envious or jealous of them just very curious about their personal reasons for caring and putting in all the effort

and wondering from which perspective they are viewing themselves and making all of these changes

also I am curious as to how this changes with age (if I were still the ages of 13 to 18 or I would answer yes to the question in the title) , sexuality, religion, and culture

 

[kitkat9234]

Yes. I'm now morbidly obese teeth rotting hair breaking off or falling out. I used to be so attractive. These meds have ruined me. I hate going out in public. It's mortifying.