NSFW Does anyone find Porn too depressing to watch?

[Kalista]

related to my recent ex. we were sexually active and would talk about porn at times. it just furthers my loneliness and depression seeing the actors have sex while i no longer have anyone. the scenes would remind me of our positions whether it was purely carnal or us making love. it hurts too much to see most of the time that i'd just lose the mood and end up crying a bit.
before that failed relationship, i actually watched porn far less and didn't care too much about it. being in that relationship made me comfortable watching it again.

 

[Dusk till dawn]

I'm not a mindless sex addict and i never was to begin with, however like humans i have sexual desire programmed within me, from time to time i do the deed, and i feel ashamed due to the way i was indoctrinated, although i grew up, i still feel shameful doing it, the second reason i feel shameful for doing it is not having strong self-control, i won't be having sex tho, i don't have any intentions to procreate, i have enough self control to not be a mindless sex addict

I'm also aromantic and slightly asexual so i don't even have any interests in stuff like dating or marriage, sex and dating is just not my thing

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

Yes, because I'm a child sex trafficking victim.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

I find porn to be a mental hurdle. I'm at the awkward age where I feel like I shouldn't look at the young ones so anything with "teen" in it is out, and the "milfs" all look like retired industry workers

It's the same problem I have with dating apps. I checked one out and then I looked at all the people and was like "I have literally nothing in common with them" and then all the women my age are like "I'm looking for the one I can spend the rest of my life with" no pressure.

Im sorry, this made me laugh...

 

[ImOptingOut]

Watching porn while you're suffering in deep state of depression and loneliness feels like watching people eat delicious looking food while you're starving.

 

[thealteredmind]

Pretty much like the title says. I might watch more if I didn't find it so incredibly depressing for personal reasons. I won't elaborate. But I was just curious if anyone watches less, or watches more somehow, while being chronically depressed and suicidal.
Knowing Male or Female would helpful if you don't mind sharing. Thanks.

Hey girrrrl you wanna watch with me?? hehehe *breathes heavily and cums awkwardly without stimulation* oh shit no again.

Well, In my case... I just watch the same amount and the same content I always did. 4 times per week, for 20min to 1hour.
softcore, just women stripping. that's enough for me.

I do it when I'm bored or when I need time to move fast.

do I enjoy it? well... yeah but I feel a bit ashamed doing it because I know it would be more interesting and healthy to be with another human being.

but it's what I have at my disposal... so...

Watching porn while you're suffering in deep state of depression and loneliness feels like watching people eat delicious looking food while you're starving.

yeah also this

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Porn was never real big for me. Of course, as a guy, I've watched it before, usually girl-on-girl. Idk. I never could really understand the appeal of watching a couple of strangers engaged in sex. Honestly, "most" of the female porn stars are butt ugly. Not all, but most. I guess I've always been attracted to a more "wholesome" kind of gal, not necessarily a prude, but not loose and slutty, either. I mean you gotta have some respect for yourself, don't you? Maybe I'm just old-fashioned. It really doesn't matter anymore, anyway.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Hey girrrrl you wanna watch with me?? hehehe *breathes heavily and cums awkwardly without stimulation* oh shit no again.

Well, In my case... I just watch the same amount and the same content I always did. 4 times per week, for 20min to 1hour.
softcore, just women stripping. that's enough for me.

I do it when I'm bored or when I need time to move fast.

do I enjoy it? well... yeah but I feel a bit ashamed doing it because I know it would be more interesting and healthy to be with another human being.

but it's what I have at my disposal... so...

yeah also this

Go fuck a blow-up doll.
Don't ruin my thread and delete that shit.

Porn was never real big for me. Of course, as a guy, I've watched it before, usually girl-on-girl. Idk. I never could really understand the appeal of watching a couple of strangers engaged in sex. Honestly, "most" of the female porn stars are butt ugly. Not all, but most. I guess I've always been attracted to a more "wholesome" kind of gal, not necessarily a prude, but not loose and slutty, either. I mean you gotta have some respect for yourself, don't you? Maybe I'm just old-fashioned. It really doesn't matter anymore, anyway.

Well deteriorating or death with morals matters. Last dude I was with didn't have any, I later learned, and he ruined my experience so I think it counts.

 

[ImTelling]

Male. Shut down a Twitter account I used for porn for a while. It makes you feel disgusting. It's far too late for me to go cold turkey on it but if I did have a plan in motion I would.

 

[thealteredmind]

Go fuck a blow-up doll.
Don't ruin my thread and delete that shit.

yyyyeeeah you really have a couple issues there, I can see.

 

[lifeisgay]

porn is gay

 

[DoubleUp8]

That's probably still a good thing right? Yeah the days of Ron Jeremy are over. I don't think anyone wants to see that to be honest. There is what is now called "vintage" porn which is more like 90s. You should take a chance with that lady if you liked her. I live near a lot of older men and they're still rather randy Don't know if you use the more popular sites.

Definitely Ready I'm guessing definitely from the uk?

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

yyyyeeeah you really have a couple issues there, I can see.

Yyyyyeeeeah I don't have the humor of a child... sorry.
Except, I'm not.

 

[Saturn_]

yyyyeeeah you really have a couple issues there, I can see.

I don't see how she has issues for being weirded out by that? That's just a nasty, uncomfortable joke to make towards a woman or just anyone who doesn't really know you for that matter.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Definitely Ready I'm guessing definitely from the uk?

Lol not in the slightest... I did have a crush on Austin Powers as a child though.
What makes you think that?

porn is gay

Actually there's a porn star I like who started out doing gay porn so yeah, there's definitely gay porn. It was so awkward watching that. It was awful

Male. Shut down a Twitter account I used for porn for a while. It makes you feel disgusting. It's far too late for me to go cold turkey on it but if I did have a plan in motion I would.

Maybe I'm totally not with it, but how do you user a Twitter account for porn?

 

[thealteredmind]

Yyyyyeeeeah I don't have the humor of a child... sorry.
Except, I'm not.

good for you

 

[DoubleUp8]

Lol not in the slightest... I did have a crush on Austin Powers as a child though.
What makes you think that?

Actually there's a porn star I like who started out doing gay porn so yeah, there's definitely gay porn. It was so awkward watching that. It was awful

Maybe I'm totally not with it, but how do you user a Twitter account for porn?

That explains it. You used the word "randy" to mean horny which is common in the uk but nowhere else. But Austin powers explains that cuz he uses it often in those films. And about taking a chance on the "lady" who came on to me: she was young and very attractive but turned out was trans. But I was flattered and shocked that anyone would be attracted to this 70 years old crippled gimp with hardly any hair or teeth left.
Let me ask another question: I find myself liking some people i interact with on this platform and feeling bad that they may ctb. Does that happen to you or anyone else on here? Cuz it's happening with u. I'm thinking she seems really cool. I hope she doesn't really ctb and get sad and even a few tears. But that's me. I can tolerate greater physical pain than anyone else on the planet maybe but emotionally I am made out of glass.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

That explains it. You used the word "randy" to mean horny which is common in the uk but nowhere else. But Austin powers explains that cuz he uses it often in those films. And about taking a chance on the "lady" who came on to me: she was young and very attractive but turned out was trans. But I was flattered and shocked that anyone would be attracted to this 70 years old crippled gimp with hardly any hair or teeth left.
Let me ask another question: I find myself liking some people i interact with on this platform and feeling bad that they may ctb. Does that happen to you or anyone else on here? Cuz it's happening with u. I'm thinking she seems really cool. I hope she doesn't really ctb and get sad and even a few tears. But that's me. I can tolerate greater physical pain than anyone else on the planet maybe but emotionally I am made out of glass.

Oh yes, he was my love at like age 7? and he definitely does... Probably inappropriate for a child, but I was mature for my age. I actually used that for your benefit though as it felt a little more appropriate :/ Not to be ageist. I thought the "lady" was probably at least 45-58yrs so that's too bad...

Yeah I've definitely felt that with some people here. Maybe even just a post I've read, I'll still see light, especially since I'm out of light. I 100% get that. I've had some tears when I read a final goodbye message that I missed. It's heartbreaking. I'm sorry you see that in me tbh, because I ran out of life a long time ago. I've been on borrowed time. It's for the best. Don't waste what heart you have left on me. Save for it for something special and worthwhile.

While I'm blessed to never have had any real physical pain that's lasted, I'd still saw on my foot anytime to take certain things back, or to get rid of the emotional pain.
Btw, I bet you haven't seen the movie "Saw." Well, a terminal man teaches him a lesson to be appreciate and locks in away where he will die unless he literally saws off his chained ankle with an actual saw. Hence my analogy to rid my past or pain by substituting physical pain. The guy who sawed off his foot was Cary Elwes if you know him. He's actually English too ;)

Also, before I realized your previous comment was the one who asked if I was from the UK, by your username and inflection, I thought you were probably no older than 25 IF that.

 

[cowboypants]

Pretty much like the title says. I might watch more if I didn't find it so incredibly depressing for personal reasons. I won't elaborate. But I was just curious if anyone watches less, or watches more somehow, while being chronically depressed and suicidal.
Knowing Male or Female would helpful if you don't mind sharing. Thanks.

Male. Ever since I found reddit I don't watch much mainstream porn. I think the appeal of it stopped long back when I was in school.

I moved to content made by redditors or individuals which I think is both better for me mentally and content wise :p

 

[DoubleUp8]

Oh yes, he was my love at like age 7? and he definitely does... Probably inappropriate for a child, but I was mature for my age. I actually used that for your benefit though as it felt a little more appropriate :/ Not to be ageist. I thought the "lady" was probably at least 45-58yrs so that's too bad...

Yeah I've definitely felt that with some people here. Maybe even just a post I've read, I'll still see light, especially since I'm out of light. I 100% get that. I've had some tears when I read a final goodbye message that I missed. It's heartbreaking. I'm sorry you see that in me tbh, because I ran out of life a long time ago. I've been on borrowed time. It's for the best. Don't waste what heart you have left on me. Save for it for something special and worthwhile.

While I'm blessed to never have had any real physical pain that's lasted, I'd still saw on my foot anytime to take certain things back, or to get rid of the emotional pain.
Btw, I bet you haven't seen the movie "Saw." Well, a terminal man teaches him a lesson to be appreciate and locks in away where he will die unless he literally saws off his chained ankle with an actual saw. Hence my analogy to rid my past or pain by substituting physical pain. The guy who sawed off his foot was Cary Elwes if you know him. He's actually English too ;)

Also, before I realized your previous comment was the one who asked if I was from the UK, by your username and inflection, I thought you were probably no older than 25 IF that.

I'm 70. I am familiar with Elwes. I think he played Robin Hood in a film if I am thinking of the right guy. And I get it. Would take physical pain over emotional stuff every time. So 7 when Austin powers 1st film would make you around 40?

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Male. Ever since I found reddit I don't watch much mainstream porn. I think the appeal of it stopped long back when I was in school.

I moved to content made by redditors or individuals which I think is both better for me mentally and content wise :p

I'm not familiar lol. Can pm me a link if you want

I'm 70. I am familiar with Elwes. I think he played Robin Hood in a film if I am thinking of the right guy. And I get it. Would take physical pain over emotional stuff every time. So 7 when Austin powers 1st film would make you around 40?

Yeah he did... except it was a comedy by Mel Brooks and it was called Robin Hood: Men in Tights and I loved him in that too Most know him for the Princess Bride, but I thought that was a bore. He did a movie called Mowgli that was like the Jungle Book boy grown up without the talking animals. It was lovely.
...40?? Ugh... *feigns fainting*
I'll have you know I'll be 33 in a week so I'm STILL 32; just like you are 69... I've found rounding up when you speak of your age just takes that year away from you. So Powers came out in '97. So 6 or 7 yrs lol. Like I said, I was "mature" lol. Did you have a crush at that age?

 

[King Mutt Not Tut]

Pretty much like the title says. I might watch more if I didn't find it so incredibly depressing for personal reasons. I won't elaborate. But I was just curious if anyone watches less, or watches more somehow, while being chronically depressed and suicidal.
Knowing Male or Female would helpful if you don't mind sharing. Thanks.

kinda because their showing something we cant have i prefer to talk to foids on video chat sites ( like omegle and chatingly) and ask to see their tits vs talking to women irl because that wont go well because im sub 5

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

Pretty much like the title says. I might watch more if I didn't find it so incredibly depressing for personal reasons. I won't elaborate. But I was just curious if anyone watches less, or watches more somehow, while being chronically depressed and suicidal.
Knowing Male or Female would helpful if you don't mind sharing. Thanks.

Yes im a male. A quick self gratification just for me to feel more empty. If i could to back and change something it would be finding out what porn was.

 

[sugarb]

Pretty much like the title says. I might watch more if I didn't find it so incredibly depressing for personal reasons. I won't elaborate. But I was just curious if anyone watches less, or watches more somehow, while being chronically depressed and suicidal.
Knowing Male or Female would helpful if you don't mind sharing. Thanks.

Male. I have a weird relationship with porn due to mild trauma, restrictions, etc.

I've watched maybe 5 minutes of actual porn cumulatively; my main things are written erotica and drawings (I usually go for more minimalist ones for whatever reason).

My libido is generally much lower when I'm depressed but I've occasionally done the deed regardless out of need (whether out of desperation for pleasure chemicals or addiction, I don't know).

 

[pyx]

pornographic content to me is just manufactured intimacy. emphasis on the physical act has ruined my brain and reduced my overall libido. now they are just shapes to me

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Male. I have a weird relationship with porn due to mild trauma, restrictions, etc.

I've watched maybe 5 minutes of actual porn cumulatively; my main things are written erotica and drawings (I usually go for more minimalist ones for whatever reason).

My libido is generally much lower when I'm depressed but I've occasionally done the deed regardless out of need (whether out of desperation for pleasure chemicals or addiction, I don't know).

Addiction? But you said you were lower needwise on the scale.

 

[qw3rty259]

There are a lot of deranged shit. Seems violent and sort of animalistic without any consideration of woman's pleasure. Sometimes you basically see how painful it is for her, if I see some triggering stuff like that it really stresses me out and I put off my sesh... Also professional porn is fake as fuck. As you become older you understand that the real pleasure is in the emotional connection or maybe it's just me idk. Aside from that, I ban some categories if I'm looking for something... In short, it's hard to find something that is healthy and worthy of your time. I don't watch it often and to watch it is kinda pathetic

 

[sugarb]

Addiction? But you said you were lower needwise on the scale.

Dunno. Guess you could say low level addiction? Like I said, it's either momentary desperation to feel good or something more like an addiction, not sure

 

[karel1987]

Male I watch a lot of porn but mostly softcore. I just used at as anti depressant. But it now backfires because I watch it a lot

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Dunno. Guess you could say low level addiction? Like I said, it's either momentary desperation to feel good or something more like an addiction, not sure

Black and white thinking