Does anyone want to CTB because they feel worthless to everyone?

[Razor's Edge]

I am wondering if there are any other people that want to CTB due to Everyone in your life making you feel worthless.

Everyone I have ever loved and trusted has either betrayed me or just made me realize how worthless I really am.

So...here I am...as you can see...On the razor's edge literally.

 

[ScornedStoic]

I relate to every word you said.

I've never been good enough for anyone, and the one person who made me feel human that I trusted betrayed me.

I have no one and am unwanted. I feel your pain.

 

[Razor's Edge]

I relate to every word you said.

I've never been good enough for anyone, and the one person who made me feel human that I trusted betrayed me.

I have no one and am unwanted. I feel your pain.

I hate to say that I'm glad to not feel alone in so much of a painful situation.
Feeling completely alone is the worst feeling in the world...especially when you know you could never add up anyway.

If you are interested, I wrote a thread about betrayal.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/has-anyone-wanted-to-ctb-due-to-your-mother.29793/

 

[ScornedStoic]

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I hate to say that I'm glad to not feel alone in so much of a painful situation.
Feeling completely alone is the worst feeling in the world...especially when you know you could never add up anyway.

If you are interested, I wrote a thread about betrayal.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/has-anyone-wanted-to-ctb-due-to-your-mother.29793/

No one I've ever known has been without a relationship for the entirety of their lives into their twenties.

 

[HighwayToHell]

Opposite. Everyone else feels worthless to me. (Aside from one.)

I was a wonderful child till they decided to stamp me out. I wanted to change the world for the better.

Buuuuuut life has taught me that people are pigs and if there's one thing pigs love, it's rolling around in their own shit.

So they can keep this shithole. I'll move on somewhere else.

 

[TAW122]

Not because I feel worthless, but because I'm tired of this world, tired of people not understanding and questsioning, probing, gaslighting, guilt-tripping, and even sometimes threatening forced treatment of 'mental illness' when I'm perfectly rational. People just don't want to understand or acknowledge it and instead treat me like some leper or someone who needs to be 'saved.' I cannot change how other people think, react, or what they do, but I can change how long I wish to stay alive and that's what I intend to do.

 

[Chalken]

While nobody in my life betrayed me, I feel worthless regardless. I feel like a burden to everyone and interacting with them makes me realize how pathetic I am.

 

[ComingClose]

I feel your pain @Razor's Edge , I have a huge family (hubby, 7 adult kids,17 grandkids, 4 siblings) and over the last few years they've managed, between them, to make me feel worthless and completely alone. The pain of not having contact with all but one of my kids unless they need something...and a husband who constantly lies to me and yet remains in my life simply to fill the physical void...it's so hard to keep up the smiling face every day. Weird thing is, I want everyone to believe that I'm ok, that life's sweet even whilst I'm so miserable because (and yes, even I laugh at this) I don't want anyone to know just how low they've pushed me.

 

[Grandexit]

Some of us have literally only one person or less who would notice if we died. So it's a toss- up.

 

[Razor's Edge]

Opposite. Everyone else feels worthless to me. (Aside from one.)

I was a wonderful child till they decided to stamp me out. I wanted to change the world for the better.

Buuuuuut life has taught me that people are pigs and if there's one thing pigs love, it's rolling around in their own shit.

So they can keep this shithole. I'll move on somewhere else.

Well,, now I have to agree there!

There is only one special person in my life that matters to me anymore and that is my fiance'.

I used to be a real people person.
I tried to find the good in everyone...which got me stepped on with cleats and pushed face first in the mud. .many times..