Story dreams of sn

[nosurpries]

i'm not sure what this really means, i'm not one to really believe that dreams have underlying meaning. but last night i had a vivd dream, not about me taking sn, but instructing someone else on how to do it.

i didn't recognize the person, but we were in a house (i also didn't recognize) and i saw them with a bag of sn and they wanted me to tell them what they needed to do. so i told them, i told them how much sn in how much water and that they needed meto and antiacid and ibuprofen and they needed to fast. but they insisted they were ready to take the drink so i told them to test the sn, i vividly remember cutting my hand and testing the sn in my dream. i watched them take the drink and i remember hiding the remaining bag of sn (i think so i could use it later?). i urged them to write a note before they fell unconcious so there was no sign of foul play when i contacted emergency services.

i remember leaving the house witht he intention to return hours later to contact emergency services and to later retrive the remaining sn for my own ctb. i don't know why i would dream this, my suicide date isn't for months and i don't even have sn yet. also, i don't believe i would ever do this, to help someone (i don't even know) so intimately like that... i'm just not sure.

what does this mean for my subconcious? fuck if i know. very strange. like i was almost reenacting my own ctb plan in my head in this weird way. anyone else have dreams of playing out their suicide? or helping someone else like this?

 

[keitaro]

that's an interesting dream. dreams can be mysterious. i would assume your mind is just trying to process it or whatever. but who knows.

 

[Julgran]

i'm not sure what this really means, i'm not one to really believe that dreams have underlying meaning. but last night i had a vivd dream, not about me taking sn, but instructing someone else on how to do it.

i didn't recognize the person, but we were in a house (i also didn't recognize) and i saw them with a bag of sn and they wanted me to tell them what they needed to do. so i told them, i told them how much sn in how much water and that they needed meto and antiacid and ibuprofen and they needed to fast. but they insisted they were ready to take the drink so i told them to test the sn, i vividly remember cutting my hand and testing the sn in my dream. i watched them take the drink and i remember hiding the remaining bag of sn (i think so i could use it later?). i urged them to write a note before they fell unconcious so there was no sign of foul play when i contacted emergency services.

i remember leaving the house witht he intention to return hours later to contact emergency services and to later retrive the remaining sn for my own ctb. i don't know why i would dream this, my suicide date isn't for months and i don't even have sn yet. also, i don't believe i would ever do this, to help someone (i don't even know) so intimately like that... i'm just not sure.

what does this mean for my subconcious? fuck if i know. very strange. like i was almost reenacting my own ctb plan in my head in this weird way. anyone else have dreams of playing out their suicide? or helping someone else like this?

Having contemplated suicide, your brain has probably gone through a lot of thinking, acceptance and similar, so perhaps it's just trying to adapt itself to a reality that might include suicide, as a precaution. Just imagine going from a "normal", "healthy" brain into a suicidal one, which has no positive feelings left.

I wouldn't be able to tell, since I have never had such dreams myself.

 

[8evergo]

I think that this is your wish to have SN and you prefer to take it alone and you have a broad knowledge of how to deal with it.

That's how I judged it. I'm not a dream interpretation. I can also be wrong

 

[FuneralCry]

I can vaguely remember dreaming about planning ctb which is because it is on my mind all the time when I am awake. It is hard to say what the meaning of the dream could be, sometimes I think that dreams do not really mean much, but I guess that if someone plans to ctb with SN and they are thinking about it a lot then it could make sense that they would have a dream relating to it. Dreams really can be odd.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Dreams really fascinate me. I'm not terribly knowledgeable about them but I wanted to know what a reoccurring dream of mine might mean- I frequently dream I am in my childhood home and people are trying to break in (it's really scary). When I looked it up- it said all the people we dream about aren't actually other people but are aspects of ourselves.

So maybe- in your dream- you're not actually trying to help someone else ctb but yourself... I reckon we all have different aspects to our character. Maybe this is your clear headed, organised self trying to advise another aspect of you. Maybe it's all baloney- I don't know- just thought I'd throw my two penneth in.

I don't think I've ever dreamt about ctb, although I went through a phase where I seemed to die a different death each night. Not nice, peaceful deaths either. Dreams are so bizarre aren't they?

 

[Judy Garland]

Your spirit was visiting another spirit who didn't want to do this alone, so you made an agreement in Heaven (Home), but you cannot remember any of this. You know this person well when you aren't here.

Dreams really fascinate me. I'm not terribly knowledgeable about them but I wanted to know what a reoccurring dream of mine might mean- I frequently dream I am in my childhood home and people are trying to break in (it's really scary). When I looked it up- it said all the people we dream about aren't actually other people but are aspects of ourselves.

So maybe- in your dream- you're not actually trying to help someone else ctb but yourself... I reckon we all have different aspects to our character. Maybe this is your clear headed, organised self trying to advise another aspect of you. Maybe it's all baloney- I don't know- just thought I'd throw my two penneth in.

I don't think I've ever dreamt about ctb, although I went through a phase where I seemed to die a different death each night. Not nice, peaceful deaths either. Dreams are so bizarre aren't they?

I've had awful dreams where I die. I've died a few times in my dream. One was getting bit by a hoard of zombies and I FELT THE WHOLE THING. My neck, I felt it being ripped open. And before I woke up I heard the words, "That's what we wanted to do to you!" or "That's what we did to you". Car accidents where I go through the windshield and feel every bit. I had those dreams a few years ago. My latest dream was being pushed (I don't know by who or what) back into this dark abyss. I was back first and I woke up startled in bed but it felt like that I had landed on my bed. I'm hoping that stuff doesn't happen when I'm passing out from SN.