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IDontKnowEverything

IDontKnowEverything

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Mar 2, 2025
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Feeling a tinge inspired at the point 5:30 of my all nighter so here we go.
I reccomend looking into it eventually. I doubt I managed to shine a proper light upon it, hey, I'm just a person on the internet, but also if in need to add something on that 'stuff to do' list, then this may actually interest you to a point.

First time I found out about existentialism was through Albert Camus and the first book of his that I've ever read was "The Stranger".

So how I would explain existentialism and it's 19-20 century movement is that first things first, there is actually no point in life.
It revolve around the idea that you were simply thrown into this planet without any actual real purpose.

I used to have many many many thoughts about this.
One of them was that if there really was no point, then if things are convenient enough, free will really could be real.
That out of the way, I'll just cite the first thought that I've had upon reading about it.
"So, this is implying that since no grand designs exist, we are the ones who are to make out of life whatever we want to make it?"
Freedom is the permission to mess up and to do things right all alike, freedom is to follow a path you wish to follow as long as you are capable of doing so - or doing the exact opposite, that too is a very important part of actual freedom.

If you really think about it, many people live for very different things.
Some made changing this world for the better their purpose while others made their families their main purpose.
Some prefer to make acheiving their goals a purpose, retirement money, physical health, or whatever else they care to achieve really.
To survive, to pass in peace, all to any of it really.

"You have to imagine Sisyphus a happy man." A crucial quote for humans living in this society.

So the point I just tried to somewhat picture is how the purposes of these people were chosen by their own selves.
Personally the idea of true freedom means a lot to me. Freedom to live how I want, freedom to die how I want, somehow I seek to have at least just a bit of both luxuries.

Here's how wikipedia defined the result of existentialism.
Existentialism is a family of philosophical views and inquiry that explore the human individual's struggle to lead an authentic life despite the apparent absurdity or incomprehensibility of existence. In examining meaning, purpose, and value, existentialist thought often includes concepts such as existential crises, angst, courage, and freedom.

I'm back to the same old now but putting in just a little bit into learning this genuinely managed to distract and absorb me for a small while back when I first encountered it.
My world often feels even more absurd than worlds portrayed in actual absurdism, and I am not a strong nor corageous person.

Existentialism revolves around absurdism plenty. In a nutshell, life in a world that makes close to no sense at all.
The movement allowed a very big amount of creativity as truly many things could be created with this premise being the root or the base of many works.
It can be vengeance, it can be adventure, not sure if this counts but the Kafka scenario of a man one very regular day just waking up to finding out he's been sentenced to yk and then the book just accepts the absurd scenario and rolls with it. Same thing for Metamorphosis. Regular worker who supports his mom dad and sister wakes up to being a Beetle.
It really can be so many things.
I still personally really apreciate "The Stranger" lots. No supernatural events. The book frankly fully relies on the fact that it's from the MCs perspective but agree or disagree with him as a person, one thing that is true is that the world he is living in as himself really to him is an absurd one.

Reading about characters that also live in such unfitting worlds, some more obviously 'deranging' than others, you just with time get this little thought in your head that these characters are all simply very brave, sometimes in different ways.
Because they choose to continue living and existing in such places. Because they still get up in the morning and go on about their stories.
It's truly miserable, but also it's actually reading about it that made me go beyond conceptually understanding to actually realising a little better just how brave of an act living even is.
That may or may not be slightly positive, but also it is something a bit soothing, at least for me.

If you made it this far, I hope that this was an alright read for you. Hugs.
 
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Apokryphiel

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Mar 23, 2025
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There was a time existentialism was my meaning for life, the reason I ultimately wouldn't kill myself. If it makes no inherent difference to anything at all, then why do it? Why take your own life when you can just wait this pitiful existence out instead?

Instead you'd live like you're always dying, to the fullest. And that's the truth for all of us. We are only getting closer to our deaths, but do we show it in the way we live? We don't. We spend most of our lives slaves to ourselves, it's a pity most will never escape. I feel once you've accepted death you can truly find freedom, that your time here is finite and has never once meant anything - it never will. You have never really had any shackles outside of the ones you've created for yourself in your own mind.

And while I still believe that's a beautiful way to live, I've now come to think that suicide is the ultimate testament to that way of life, the final act of your freedom.

"I live my life with the sole purpose of creating a story I can look back on with a smile."

I want to live a life warranting suicide. I've never wanted to die the way I've been. I don't want to die suffering like everyone else. I want to find my own meaning in this life.

And so before my death comes, I will live every day like it's my last.

I'm creating my own philosophy that explores this thought to its fullest extent. I'll make a thread for it here one day.
"You have to imagine Sisyphus a happy man." A crucial quote for humans living in this society.
Couldn't help but smile reading this line. It really is a reflection of what we are.
 
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IDontKnowEverything

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Mar 2, 2025
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That was so fu-king beautiful.
The only thing better than how you wrote this was what you wrote.
I tried replying to multiple parts but it feels like by not deleting what I wrote I would be taking away so much more than I would be adding.
But truly, I'm not joking at all, you truly just expressed something very very beautiful.
 
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Thanks! I love what you wrote as well. :heart:
 
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