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ddn.ctb

ddn.ctb

Waiting to step off in front of an audience
Sep 9, 2023
236
Mine is ddn.ctb

ddn. Means drop dead now. It's the words I intend to tell myself as I step off my stool to hang.

Then I just catch the bus and I'm free
 
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SVEN

Enlightened
Apr 3, 2023
1,852
It's just mine.
 
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SN drinker

Member
Aug 13, 2023
37
it's what I wanna become at the end of 2023
 
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bigwomanbigwoman123

bigwomanbigwoman123

Member
Sep 9, 2023
31
im a woman and im big
 
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TheMetalhead

Experienced
Aug 18, 2023
206
It's what I am.
 
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vault

vault

Member
Aug 24, 2023
28
Vault is the name of the character i made up to represent me. he is my favorite of my characters.
 
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not_telling

not_telling

Scared
Sep 9, 2023
89
Ha. Not telling ya. For real tho, it said not to use your common online nickname, so I did just that, decided not to tell my nickname.
 
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Last_Leap

420's friend
Sep 8, 2023
50
mine is the last leap before i ctb
 
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Wehmut

Wehmut

it's not fair...
Apr 13, 2023
53
Mine is Wehmut. It is a german word to describe a sad longing for something that's gone. It is similar to "Melancholie" (english = melancholy). It is also the name of a dsbm band.
 
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snowlance

snowlance

Ticking Time Bomb
Sep 8, 2023
208
One of my closest friends had a name called "dustlance". I usually go but Snowy or Yuki but snowlance kinda reminds me of that time when life was simpler.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
7,266
Mine could be taken in the "firearm" context as meaning I have a gun I'm planning on using to CTB, and it's "locked*n*loaded" - ready to go. And I do have a gun, actually multiple guns, but they're not my chosen method *unless push came to shove and I had no other option before me and absolutely needed to go in an instant.

The other context, the correct one, is that my resolve is set on what I need to do. It's a fairly common term and I figured I'd just borrow it because it's sort of gitchy.
 
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Seered Doom

Seered Doom

A nihilist going through an unrelinquished Hell
Sep 9, 2023
911
Seered Doom is a double meaning name. I live double meanings btw. It's based on the Homestuck god tier Seer of Doom. Seers are the ones who see and Doom is rather self explanatory. I see my own and society's destruction and well doom
 
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skeletontree

skeletontree

翼が欲しい...
Aug 6, 2023
17
It took me quite a bit to find a fitting nickname to use here on SaSu, but in the end, I thought it'd be nice to use one that reflects my big love for sad-type music, because music is one of the only things that will follow me right until the very end, and that has been there, accompanying me right from the start. "Skeleton Tree" is the title of a very melancholic/depressing music album (and also song) from Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds.
 
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ddn.ctb

ddn.ctb

Waiting to step off in front of an audience
Sep 9, 2023
236
I use music as well. It capture my emotion at that very moment.
 
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Lulzacruel

Lulzacruel

Specialist
Jun 13, 2023
336
it is a portmanteau of 'lulz' and 'tantacruel'

basically saying that tantacruel gives lulz because his actions and opinions are so stupid that it gives laughs

and yes, i am old enough to remember when people still used 'lulz', iiiii wanted to think of a username quick, okay?
 
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viljalauss

viljalauss

he/they 22
Aug 22, 2023
187
it means joyless / purposeless in old norse. found it from grógaldr (which i found from heilung's traust, a song dear to me); the rest of the stanza it's in translates to '..if you have to travel and wander, joyless on your way: the bolts of urð will on every side be your guards on the road you go' (according to voluspa.org). all that to say i want to feel assured by something greater than me that whichever way i choose to go will be fine.
 
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7213882898

7213882898

"uh" - N
Sep 9, 2023
39
it just sounded cool
 
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StyxFerryStowaway

StyxFerryStowaway

Member
Sep 9, 2023
9
It's a joke at my own expense. I'm broke as hell, so when I finally do die, I won't be able to pay Charon to ferry me across the River Styx. So I'll have to stowaway.
 
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annointed_towers

annointed_towers

Cursed by God
Dec 9, 2022
315
It's my name translated from Latin and Spanish
 
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mindless_imp

mindless_imp

lost but not found
Sep 9, 2023
24
Mine is ddn.ctb

ddn. Means drop dead now. It's the words I intend to tell myself as I step off my stool to hang.

Then I just catch the bus and I'm free
mine is similar to my users online. Imp is something I usually have in all my usernames. Chose mindless cause that's what I am and it's close to my name ig ?
 
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Some_Girl

Member
Sep 9, 2023
6
My name is "Some_Girl" because I feel invisible and just like any other person existing in the world.
 
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firepunch

firepunch

Member
Aug 24, 2023
26
Mine is from a manga series by Tatsuki Fujimoto (also known for Chainsaw Man)

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It's deeply related to suicide in my opinion.
It's the most mindfucking piece of fiction I ever read but it has such a brilliant meaning.

Basically, we are all playing a role.

We are lying to ourselves, and that's what keeps us alive.
We don't exist for a bigger meaning.
Not for the sake of a god, the sake of love, for happiness or the sake of humanity...

Those reasons prevent us to think life is actually meaningless and absurd.

No, we are just dictated by desires. And those are replaceable, shallow and once satisfied they ask for more.
Your first love isn't the person you will marry and die with.

You could argue that a couple like this existed but then if you imagine a life where they didn't meet, they would have live and fall in love with someone else.
You could think it's an exemple out of nowhere but it's actually related to Fire Punch while being extremely simplified.

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I could go for hours explaining how deep Fire Punch is but it would be boring and you wouldn't even understand how it is related to a story about a fist on fire !

If you happen to read a short synopsis I'm definitely sure you'll be interested ;)
 
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front of me

front of me

Experienced
Aug 3, 2023
289
front of me I mean death is front of me and doesn't alwed me to pass
 
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RainLover

RainLover

Just another one
Aug 9, 2023
53
I love rain in general
 
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Judah

Judah

Nobody remembers me
Oct 1, 2020
1,594
It is the name of the character I use to represent myself. She is invincible, indomitable, intelligent and free, she is everything she would like to be
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BurgundySnap

BurgundySnap

Sick of being sick
Jul 19, 2023
76
Hello, my name comes from a snap. A snap is a word for a fastener, and I think it is symbolism for keeping everything together, neat, and organised, like my typing style betraying how I am actually feeling at any moment.
Burgundy is how I have heard people describe bruises and skin after medical injections, and I feel that, through the years, whatever snap I have is bruising and becoming burgundy.
 
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ddn.ctb

ddn.ctb

Waiting to step off in front of an audience
Sep 9, 2023
236
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Whatshouldmynamebe

Member
May 2, 2020
78
what should my name be - encompasses my uncertainty and lack of faith in my abilities/thoughts and actions.
 
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MDMA

MDMA

Tired
Jun 9, 2023
19
I love MDMA
 
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