
s1llyg1rl
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- Jul 4, 2024
- 9
on the 1st at like 9am i tried to kms by cutting and i didnt even get a chance to die coz my mum found me almost immediately (coz i started crying really loudly for some reason idk i didnt think id cry) and called an ambulance straight away.
i didnt really do it TO kill myself, but more for clarity. i thought of it like "if i die, then ive succeeded and i can finally be with god. if i live, then that's god telling me that its not my time yet."
i went to hospital and they bandaged me up and had me talk to a few different doctors about why i did it and things. they also obv told my mum to lock up all the sharp things in the house.
after a lot of waiting and a lot more lying, they let me go and the whole experience was really underwhelming. daily life is the same usual, except that my mum cares about me a little more.
the paramedics that picked me up were really funny and sweet and pretty. they gave me a teddy bear ><
i didnt really do it TO kill myself, but more for clarity. i thought of it like "if i die, then ive succeeded and i can finally be with god. if i live, then that's god telling me that its not my time yet."
i went to hospital and they bandaged me up and had me talk to a few different doctors about why i did it and things. they also obv told my mum to lock up all the sharp things in the house.
after a lot of waiting and a lot more lying, they let me go and the whole experience was really underwhelming. daily life is the same usual, except that my mum cares about me a little more.
the paramedics that picked me up were really funny and sweet and pretty. they gave me a teddy bear ><