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Jordi

Jordi

Member
Apr 5, 2025
5
Hello! I'm new to the group and I'd like to introduce myself. I'm a 56-year-old man who suffers from depression, generalized anxiety, and OCD. I want to share my (bad) experience with SN with all of you. I don't speak English, but I've been following you for years translating the forum.

I've tried CTB with maximum purity SN twice, following the protocol in this forum, and both times I've failed.

Two years ago on my first attempt, I was found unconscious after more than 12 hours of having ingested twice the recommended SN amount (almost 100g)
Several days later I woke up in the ICU full of wires and tubes.
I was in a coma for 2 weeks and two weeks on the internal medicine ward, then I went to the psychiatric area. I was left with sequelae. I lost my voice because when I was intubated in the emergency room they damaged my vocal cords.
Little by little I have been recovering them, but I still cannot speak out loud. The doctors told me that my brain was deprived of oxygen due to several cardiac arrests and that in this scenario the consequences are unpredictable. In my case they affected my psychiatric disorder, it has made it worse. More anxiety, more depression, and OCD. I have a lot of headaches that I didn't have before. My heart was also affected, and I have arrhythmias that I didn't have before.

This year I had a second attempt. I bought SN from another seller. I followed protocol and woke up in the hospital in the ICU a few days later. Then they transferred me to the ward and this time I refused to go to the psychiatric center. This time I felt the side effects of methylene blue, which is the antidote to SN. For a few days I was urinating blue and seeing shapes and colors that do not exist when I close my eyes or be in a dark place.
I send a big hug to all of you and think about it well if you want to use SN, it is not an infallible method and can leave you with sequelae that worsens your life.
 
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DivineSpark

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Feb 9, 2025
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Yup, very few methods are risk free.
 
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divinemistress36

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Jan 1, 2024
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How were you alive after 12 hours after taking 100 g? People die off much less and this is a brand new account..
 
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Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
105
this scared me a lot
 
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lastch

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Oct 2, 2024
92
Planning to use SN within the next few days and this is very worrying. I know nothing is 100% but this is very scary. I can think of nothing worse than waking up after an attempt to life altering conditions to make life harder.
 
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Amarajoy

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Sep 12, 2024
300
Have admin verified this? I honestly doubt this account. Did you even test the sn? People are dying at doses as low as 1 gram. I highly doubt someone would survive 100 grams.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,703
I don't want to be insensitive, but first post and saying you survived 100 grams of SN after 12 hours, this sounds awfully fishy to me.
 
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frommolecules2stars

Born, survive, reproduce, die.
Dec 23, 2024
129
I feel like the only way you could have survived taking 100g of SN is by puking it all up. But being saved after 12 hours? And the fact you said you were new to the group, but have been following the forum for years.

Seriously, what is up with the SN fearmongering lately?
 
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areyousafe??

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
422
I have started being wary of posts and I am skeptical of this one, no offence intended if this is a true account of your experiences.

The fact that you lost your voice when you were intubated in ICU may not be an effect of SN as the same thing happened to me when I have overdosed in the past and woke up with ICU with wires all around me.
 
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Jordi

Jordi

Member
Apr 5, 2025
5
How were you alive after 12 hours after taking 100 g? People die off much less and this is a brand new account..
I wrote a farewell email to my friends. The next day, when they received the message and saw that I did not answer the calls, several friends called the police and found me
Planning to use SN within the next few days and this is very worrying. I know nothing is 100% but this is very scary. I can think of nothing worse than waking up after an attempt to life altering conditions to make life harder.
I swear you my experience it's 100% true
 
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frommolecules2stars

Born, survive, reproduce, die.
Dec 23, 2024
129
I wrote a farewell email to my friends. The next day, when they received the message and saw that I did not answer the calls, several friends called the police and found me

I swear you my experience it's 100% true
That doesn't matter. You should have been dead within 40 mins.
 
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Jordi

Jordi

Member
Apr 5, 2025
5
I have started being wary of posts and I am skeptical of this one, no offence intended if this is a true account of your experiences.

The fact that you lost your voice when you were intubated in ICU may not be an effect of SN as the same thing happened to me when I have overdosed in the past and woke up with ICU with wires all around me.
The loss of my voice was due to damage caused by intubating me in the emergency room, not by the SN
 
Dante_

Dante_

Global Mod
Feb 27, 2025
91
For as much as i understand the potential fear this may instill in users regarding SN, it w.ould be best to approach this with a healthy balance of skepticism and caution regarding any conclusions that may be drawn from this thread.

Edit: Please and i dont think i need to say this but please refrain from direct accusations
 
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onlyformyself

Member
Mar 18, 2025
66
I wrote a farewell email to my friends. The next day, when they received the message and saw that I did not answer the calls, several friends called the police and found me

I swear you my experience it's 100% true
Whats the purity and brand of sn
 
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divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,312
Even the doctors didn't understand it, they told me that I shouldn't be here. They even called my elderly parents to say goodbye to me

99%, buyed directly to a two chemicals laboratories
Was it sodium Nitrate?
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
139
The pro-lifers are scaring us with all this stuff. I find this story and the controls absurd. The point is to scare us. DRACARYS🔥. I don't believe anything anymore.
 
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Dante_

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Feb 27, 2025
91
they told me that I shouldn't be here. They even called my elderly parents to say goodbye to me
Did the doctors provide a medical explanation as to how you survived? Anything else that could prove helpful since I'm quite intrigued yet confused as to how you did survive an amount that would cause rapid methemoglobinemia enough to cause a fatal outcome within way less than 12 hrs.? Mortality is significantly higher in ctb cases due to greater quantities taken, of which you exceeded that threshold.
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
139
You can believe it, and I'm sorry if it's true. But with so many things and everything that's happening, you honestly can't trust it anymore.
 
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username12345

Student
Aug 18, 2024
100
Hello! I'm new to the group and I'd like to introduce myself. I'm a 56-year-old man who suffers from depression, generalized anxiety, and OCD. I want to share my (bad) experience with SN with all of you. I don't speak English, but I've been following you for years translating the forum.

I've tried CTB with maximum purity SN twice, following the protocol in this forum, and both times I've failed.

Two years ago on my first attempt, I was found unconscious after more than 12 hours of having ingested twice the recommended SN amount (almost 100g)
Several days later I woke up in the ICU full of wires and tubes.
I was in a coma for 2 weeks and two weeks on the internal medicine ward, then I went to the psychiatric area. I was left with sequelae. I lost my voice because when I was intubated in the emergency room they damaged my vocal cords.
Little by little I have been recovering them, but I still cannot speak out loud. The doctors told me that my brain was deprived of oxygen due to several cardiac arrests and that in this scenario the consequences are unpredictable. In my case they affected my psychiatric disorder, it has made it worse. More anxiety, more depression, and OCD. I have a lot of headaches that I didn't have before. My heart was also affected, and I have arrhythmias that I didn't have before.

This year I had a second attempt. I bought SN from another seller. I followed protocol and woke up in the hospital in the ICU a few days later. Then they transferred me to the ward and this time I refused to go to the psychiatric center. This time I felt the side effects of methylene blue, which is the antidote to SN. For a few days I was urinating blue and seeing shapes and colors that do not exist when I close my eyes or be in a dark place.
I send a big hug to all of you and think about it well if you want to use SN, it is not an infallible method and can leave you with sequelae that worsens your life.
I believe it. It probably depends on your body size and age for how much it affects you. Also underlying illnesses or conditions.
 
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Zoro1029

Member
Mar 15, 2025
64
Even the doctors didn't understand it, they told me that I shouldn't be here. They even called my elderly parents to say goodbye to me

99%, buyed directly to a two chemicals laboratories
Which country are these labratories located in? Its pretty much impossible for ones in the west for legit labratories to sell to non business owners. One is near i possible two just seems ridiculous. There is a reason why people have to use alternate sources like DMC

Seems like a classic fear mongering post from a new user. 100mg is also way beyond what is recommended even for SN. I think you would vomit that out instantly.

One of the positives of SN is the lack of long lasting side effects in event of failure. Nothing is 100% ofc

As mentioned above loss of voice couldve been due to intubation if your story is indeed legit.
 
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Dante_

Global Mod
Feb 27, 2025
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You can believe it, and I'm sorry if it's true. But with so many things and everything that's happening, you honestly can't trust it anymore.
just hold on and give @Jordi a chance to respond first.
 
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noheart

Member
Mar 14, 2024
32
They think we are stupid. New accounts posting constantly to fearmonger. Not falling for it.
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
139
just hold on and give @Jordi a chance to respond first.
Yes, I agree. Let's see what he says, but these things scare us more and more with everything that's happening.
 
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betternever2havbeen

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,016
100g is more like 3-4x the recommended amount of SN (depending on weight) isn't the amount supposed to be 25g? And OPs experiences don't match other SN attempts with days long unconsciousness, although I suppose you could put it down to the amount taken or underlying health issues. Either way, most people don't take almost 100g.
I've tried CTB with maximum purity SN twice, following the protocol in this forum, and both times I've failed.
You clearly did NOT follow protocol the first time. I'm sceptical you could even drink that much as people struggle with a much smaller amount.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,177
One of the positives of SN is the lack of long lasting side effects in event of failure. Nothing is 100% ofc

Whle mny ppl survve attmpts w/o furthr impct thre r mst certnly aftr-effcts tht cld happn & hve happnd t/ sme ppl

Nothng = cmpletly rsk free - = jst tht in th/ balnce of rsks SN = oftn favrd abve othr methds
 
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Jordi

Jordi

Member
Apr 5, 2025
5
The pro-lifers are scaring us with all this stuff. I find this story and the controls absurd. The point is to scare us. DRACARYS🔥. I don't believe anything anymore.
I'm not pro life.,.. I hate muy f**king life. I'm rela
They think we are stupid. New accounts posting constantly to fearmonger. Not falling for it.
I'm not a "fearmonger" I can demostrate you what I'm saying is true I have medical reports if you want to see them. I don't wanna spread fear. Only I'm relating my experience and I didn't and I didn't expect to get this response from the community
 
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Zoro1029

Member
Mar 15, 2025
64
Whle mny ppl survve attmpts w/o furthr impct thre r mst certnly aftr-effcts tht cld happn & hve happnd t/ sme ppl

Nothng = cmpletly rsk free - = jst tht in th/ balnce of rsks SN = oftn favrd abve othr methds
Ofc. I had to add in the nothing is 100% as I didnt have it initially. This is the most important decision of peoples lives and you want it to be as close to 100% as possible.

Nothing is without risk but I do trust the common consensus and actual news reports of deaths that this is a fairly effective way to CTB. There is a reason why legislation and companies have limited it use. Its because it has been proven effective
 
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swankysoup

Student
Feb 12, 2024
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Even the doctors didn't understand it, they told me that I shouldn't be here. They even called my elderly parents to say goodbye to me

99%, buyed directly to a two chemicals laboratories
Why did they sell it to you, it's regulated?
 
Daenerys Targaryen

Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
139
I'm not pro life.,.. I hate muy f**king life. I'm rela

I'm not a "fearmonger" I can demostrate you what I'm saying is true I have medical reports if you want to see them. I don't wanna spread fear. Only I'm relating my experience and I didn't and I didn't expect to get this response from the community
I'm so sorry. I believe you and everything, but with what's happened lately, there's a lot of mistrust. I'm sorry for everything that's happened to you, but these things just generate more fear in the forum even if they're true. I'm so sorry for you ❤️‍🩹🫶
 
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