
Acopia
Specialist
- Sep 21, 2020
- 356
So, I've posted about this before.
Seeing as MH services have decided I'm not sick enough for help, I've started smoking a bit of weed now and then.
So far, the effects have been really good! Suicidal and self harm thoughts have been minimal.
But, I've just got another batch (my bf gets it for me from a friend of his because he doesn't want me going to randomers or getting sucked back in with the people who I used to know in my 'bad' life). But this batch is shit, there's no buzz whatsoever! I like getting stoned and belly-laughing to random comedies, it makes me feel normal. He won't go buy me any more weed though until I finish the stuff I've got, so I'm stuc
With this new batch, I don't even get the tiniest buzz. I'm fairly new to the world of weed but I don't think it's anything I'm doing wrong seeing as I got so high from the last lot.
Now the self harm impulses are coming back and I'm trying so hard to suppress them, but it's tough!
I'm just feeling sorry for myself because my one crutch (although illegal) has been taken from me.
I need hugs
and motivation to keep pushing through.
-Acopia
Seeing as MH services have decided I'm not sick enough for help, I've started smoking a bit of weed now and then.
So far, the effects have been really good! Suicidal and self harm thoughts have been minimal.
But, I've just got another batch (my bf gets it for me from a friend of his because he doesn't want me going to randomers or getting sucked back in with the people who I used to know in my 'bad' life). But this batch is shit, there's no buzz whatsoever! I like getting stoned and belly-laughing to random comedies, it makes me feel normal. He won't go buy me any more weed though until I finish the stuff I've got, so I'm stuc
With this new batch, I don't even get the tiniest buzz. I'm fairly new to the world of weed but I don't think it's anything I'm doing wrong seeing as I got so high from the last lot.
Now the self harm impulses are coming back and I'm trying so hard to suppress them, but it's tough!
I'm just feeling sorry for myself because my one crutch (although illegal) has been taken from me.
I need hugs
-Acopia