Felt happy yesterday

[Septim]

Went for a walk with a friend yesterday who has been very supportive of me over the past few months when I've been suicidal. We got talking about how we both felt about things and I felt happy for the first time in as long as I can remember. I never thought I'd feel happy again but I was wrong. I don't know how this changes things for me but I don't think I want to die anymore.

I know I will most likely have days where I feel horrible again and maybe I'll want to die again but I think this has highlighted that there is a way out for me that involves living.

 

[pole]

hey, hope your doing well.

thats definitely great to hear. you will have days here and there that just arent the best but days like yesterday that make you happy will definitely be able to outweigh those bad days you endure during your recovery journey.

it seems that this friend is a really good support system of yours. thats amazing to hear and it honestly is hard to find a solid support system; a person that genuinly wants to be there for you and someone you can trust wholeheartedly. it just makes you feel understood and less alone and it'll hopefully continue to be something that really helps you.

wish you the best in continuing to fight and i hope you find peace and happiness in life.

take care.

 

[Grav]

Very good to hear that you're able to be happy. Hard to find friends that are there when things suck.

 

[timf]

An encouraging word from a friend can make all the difference. It can be a treasured memory to carry you through darker days.

 

[Septim]

Thanks folks. I've got a picture from the day to keep and remind me how I felt and hopefully it will get me through it I forget and lose hope.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

This is great to hear. Don't underestimate the significance of a moment like this; even if it was brief, you were happy. You did something and actually felt good about it. This shows that you are capable of being happy and that you are capable of doing things to make it happen. I hope this is a good starting point for you.