Discussion For weed smokers - Random thoughts when High

[SmilingNoMore]

Sometimes I see things differently, more vividly or clearly when high. Sometimes the un-realness gets worse. Sometimes I find myself clever (or not). Sometimes I write about my thoughts, which can be very much out there. Most times I get the munchies. If, like me, you happen to be alone when high, feel free to share a thought or two with a pothead. Peace.


And yes, this was my first thought while apartment hunting last week.

My week: Monday I went into a stage of paranoia when high and at some point, believed I may be dying. It was very REAL and there was a specific moment, when I didn't want to die. It had me thinking that maybe there is hope somehow.
Yesterday when high, I again didn't see the point of this existence, feeling already dead inside and not wanting to even pretend to function anymore. I ended up being mellow and miserable with munchies and nothing munchable left.
Tonight, I'm chilled, daydreaming about ordering SN. Munched on some durian for the first time in a long time and remembered why it's called the king of fruits. At the rate I'm munching things, I may get fat soon.

Any tips on foods to have around for the munchies? Random thought, what if SN could be smoked? Wouldn't that be easier and a lot more fun? Imagine being high and having a last salty joint. Sending you all chilled vibes.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Just realised, I've been severely suicidal/depressed/anxious for six months now. I take my hat off to everyone who's been living with these feelings, even if only for a day. Tired. Perspective courtesy of THC.

Moments of enlightenment

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Panic attacks on weed and thc always makes me rethink my life.

 

[PrettyWhiteFlower]

I just started using weed a few months ago. It's been really helping distract me when I get suicidal thoughts but I had some bad stuff the other day and the taste made me vomit and now I'm worried it's gonna happen again so I've been avoiding it. But the thoughts are really bad atm

As for munchies I had an absolutely huge bag of peanut puffs, basically cheetos but peanut butter powder instead of cheese. They were so good but I can't find them anywhere now

I've only ever smoked alone so I don't know how I'd be if I was with people but I end up doing a whole therapy session in my head and then think how much better it would be if I could actually say all the stuff to an actual therapist.

 

[PrismHon]

Without weed no doubt in my mind I would've ctb many years before. The external world fades away. Unfortunately now it's the effects that are fading! Was gonna happen eventually, and it was a good love affair while it lasted!

 

[merryberry]

Somehow weed hasn't had an effect on me. Maybe I inhaled wrong with the bong or edibles may work better, but I'll try again. My friend uses it to stop feeling terrible pain from his chronic illness and it works

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Somehow weed hasn't had an effect on me. Maybe I inhaled wrong with the bong or edibles may work better, but I'll try again. My friend uses it to stop feeling terrible pain from his chronic illness and it works

It should have an effect, it took me a while to get the inhale right though. Almost like making a bubble with the smoke in your mouth before inhaling to avoid coughing. Maybe your friend can help explaining better. I'm not a big fan of edibles as I find smoking more sociable even if alone and the effect more predictable. I have a friend who uses edibles only to help with sleep. Hope you find a way for it to work for you and that you could experience the effects.

 

[merryberry]

It should have an effect, it took me a while to get the inhale right though. Almost like making a bubble with the smoke in your mouth before inhaling to avoid coughing. Maybe your friend can help explaining better. I'm not a big fan of edibles as I find smoking more sociable even if alone and the effect more predictable. I have a friend who uses edibles only to help with sleep. Hope you find a way for it to work for you and that you could experience the effects.

Yeah it might be because I coughed a lot and am new, I haven't done much before unlike my friend. Thank you too!

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I just started using weed a few months ago. It's been really helping distract me when I get suicidal thoughts but I had some bad stuff the other day and the taste made me vomit and now I'm worried it's gonna happen again so I've been avoiding it. But the thoughts are really bad atm

As for munchies I had an absolutely huge bag of peanut puffs, basically cheetos but peanut butter powder instead of cheese. They were so good but I can't find them anywhere now

I've only ever smoked alone so I don't know how I'd be if I was with people but I end up doing a whole therapy session in my head and then think how much better it would be if I could actually say all the stuff to an actual therapist.

Maybe it was just a bad reaction to a specific strain that made you nauseous, I hope so. I've never felt like vomiting, but I remember some nausea in the beginning if I overdid it.
I love peanut puffs! Thanks for the idea, I think I'll go look for some. It's really annoying to run out of munchable snacks.
And yes, I also do a lot of thinking and sometimes I end up understanding things better, as in I come to realise the why behind or make sense of things. I only have one person I used to smoke with, and we usually had lots of fun, like becoming "doubly clever", I miss that. It can be therapeutic to have someone like that, a friend to just laugh and be silly with, but I wouldn't smoke with someone I'm not comfortable with. Because my reasoning when high makes so much sense to me, if I were you, I'd sleep on it, finetune it, and mention it in therapy if you feel comfortable doing that. If it helps in our heads, it may help sharing it too.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Panic attacks on weed and thc always makes me rethink my life.

What's scary for me is that the attacks are so real that I almost forget what is real. As if I'm looking onto me from the outside living in some unreal place. Not believing what's actually happening because surely, it's impossible that things can be so messed up. So, the paranoia becomes more real as I realise just how f*cked-up things really are. And that makes me rethink things, because there must a way out of this wrongness, which is to end things, and as that thought becomes real, for me it's like picturing dying and then it becomes time to take stock I guess, of what I'll be letting go of when leaving. This is the first time now (I'm a bit high) that I think this may be SI?

 

[Blueberry Panic]

What's scary for me is that the attacks are so real that I almost forget what is real. As if I'm looking onto me from the outside living in some unreal place. Not believing what's actually happening because surely, it's impossible that things can be so messed up. So, the paranoia becomes more real as I realise just how f*cked-up things really are. And that makes me rethink things, because there must a way out of this wrongness, which is to end things, and as that thought becomes real, for me it's like picturing dying and then it becomes time to take stock I guess, of what I'll be letting go of when leaving. This is the first time now (I'm a bit high) that I think this may be SI?

I believe that's what's called a panic attack.
They're common with high dosages of weed , your body isn't accustomed to the amount it's ingesting .

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Wishing everyone a chilled day or evening, or at least some chilled moments in between while it lasts.

 

[Kimlett]

I usually masturbate when I smoke. The orgasms are awesome XD anyone else does that?

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Random thought, I'm lucky to legally smoke weed where I live. I'm wondering how different the world would be if everyone had access to weed and we're all in a chilled mood every day. I wonder if the assholes out there would somehow change in their views and ultimately behaviour to make the world a better place, with a stoned population. Probably wishful thinking.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I usually masturbate when I smoke. The orgasms are awesome XD anyone else does that?

Can't say that I have or wanted to before, normally my brain goes into overdrive thinking too much. But I can imagine it must be next level.

 

[Mooncry]

Back when I first started taking edibles, they were fairly fun and enjoyable. Then pretty early on, I had the worst existential crisis of my life that took me months to fully mentally recover from. Ever since then, weed hasn't affected me positively at all. I overthink and get extremely self-conscious, especially if I smoke around others. If I smoke alone, I get stuck in a terrible headspace, and all in all it's very unpleasant.

My bf and his family are all potheads. I'm really the only one in this house that doesn't smoke lol. I'm naturally a very self-conscious/aware and introspective person, and I know weed is very headspace dependent, which is why it doesn't play nice with me. I tend to stay away from most substances because they usually make me feel similar as well, so pretty much forced to rawdog this shit.

 

[thinvy]

Wrote a shit load of words bc I'm stoned, deleted, then ended up with this so y'all get minimal weed rambles.

weed makes me a lot more... level, I guess. kept me off the site for a few months, and I'm often much less actively suicidal and more just passively. a massive downside of getting stoned for me is that if I get just a little bit more stoned than just the nice light floaty feeling, my brain is much more open to whatever fleeting thought passes by. sometimes that means showering in weird lighting because I'm too high and I physically can't look at myself while I'm undressed but not being able to tolerate the pitch black either. or sometimes I lay in bed and cry because my childhood was so fucked. mostly I just lay in bed and waste my time doing whatever while I stress hallucinate sounds from work lol

I went back and looked at my note I have of random stoned thoughts I've had lately and half of it was about wanting food/to smoke a cig (I quit a while back) and the other half is me being gay, which, shocker there /s

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Back when I first started taking edibles, they were fairly fun and enjoyable. Then pretty early on, I had the worst existential crisis of my life that took me months to fully mentally recover from. Ever since then, weed hasn't affected me positively at all. I overthink and get extremely self-conscious, especially if I smoke around others. If I smoke alone, I get stuck in a terrible headspace, and all in all it's very unpleasant.

My bf and his family are all potheads. I'm really the only one in this house that doesn't smoke lol. I'm naturally a very self-conscious/aware and introspective person, and I know weed is very headspace dependent, which is why it doesn't play nice with me. I tend to stay away from most substances because they usually make me feel similar as well, so pretty much forced to rawdog this shit.

I'm sorry, it's sad that you don't have something to help get into a chilled, happy headspace. I'm wondering if cdb oil may be helpful, if you've tried it?

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Yesterday's smoke started with a good chill until thoughts turned suicidal as the high lowed and depression entered. Today's started in the same low, thinking how I died within when I crossed the line committing to ctb. Almost in a no-man's-land, empty. The darkness pressing into the void, a black pit of nothingness inside. Maybe I should smoke a bit more, it is weekend, but it's also just another day in the wrongness. And if there's no way of righting the wrong, or if more dying inside isn't possible anymore, the only way out, is out.

Days like today, I don't even want a happy high. But maybe it's okay to be sad sometimes. Sorry for being so morose today …

Think I'll have another smoke in any event and see what happens. Hope you have chilled highs the weekend.
Peace & Love

 

[PrettyWhiteFlower]

Random thought, I'm lucky to legally smoke weed where I live. I'm wondering how different the world would be if everyone had access to weed and we're all in a chilled mood every day. I wonder if the assholes out there would somehow change in their views and ultimately behaviour to make the world a better place, with a stoned population. Probably wishful thinking.

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I'm pretty sure thats one of the reasons they keep it illegal. If we were all chill and relaxed we'd have an easier time seeing through all the bullshit. I mean also cause it would take away money from the pharmaceutical industry especially if home growing was legalized everywhere.

Days like today, I don't even want a happy high. But maybe it's okay to be sad sometimes. Sorry for being so morose today …

I think it's actually important to feel your sadness. Ignoring an emotion just makes it stronger. I often get in bed, get stoned, listen to music, think and cry.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Wrote a shit load of words bc I'm stoned, deleted, then ended up with this so y'all get minimal weed rambles.

weed makes me a lot more... level, I guess. kept me off the site for a few months, and I'm often much less actively suicidal and more just passively. a massive downside of getting stoned for me is that if I get just a little bit more stoned than just the nice light floaty feeling, my brain is much more open to whatever fleeting thought passes by. sometimes that means showering in weird lighting because I'm too high and I physically can't look at myself while I'm undressed but not being able to tolerate the pitch black either. or sometimes I lay in bed and cry because my childhood was so fucked. mostly I just lay in bed and waste my time doing whatever while I stress hallucinate sounds from work lol

I went back and looked at my note I have of random stoned thoughts I've had lately and half of it was about wanting food/to smoke a cig (I quit a while back) and the other half is me being gay, which, shocker there /s

I do the same, ramble and delete ... sounds as though weed mostly has a positive effect on you though. Sometimes I also find that if I do just a little too much, the experience can be quite weird. Sorry about your childhood and that you end up crying because of it, I think I blocked out a lot of my bad experiences. But I know it's hard to steer thoughts away from something terrible and perhaps it's good to deal with whatever emotions we have to, to move on somehow. Feel free to ramble some more, it's how I make sense or process things a lot of the time. As for food, I'm thinking maybe I should stock up on fresh vegetables l could keep in the fridge. As for a cig, a friend of mine tried vaping for a while which helped. As for being gay, you're welcome here. Happy smoking!

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

I've smoked weed since I was ten it's a part of my life, always has been. When I'm high I can relax a bit and everything becomes clearer to me. Without weed I am not the same person at all

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I've smoked weed since I was ten it's a part of my life, always has been. When I'm high I can relax a bit and everything becomes clearer to me. Without weed I am not the same person at all

Wow, do you think the weed kind of shaped your mind as a person, as you grew into adulthood? Do you mean you want/have to be high all the time to be chilled and clearly seeing things?

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

Wow, do you think the weed kind of shaped your mind as a person, as you grew into adulthood? Do you mean you want/have to be high all the time to be chilled and clearly seeing things?

It's bad when I think about it. I had never planned it to be this way. I can be fine without weed just not a patient as when I have it. I love smoking but id never want my kids to smoke and turn out like me. It's no life trust me on that! And it did shape my adulthood but not as much as other people and family did. I'm like this for a reason I guess all that hurt no wonder I smoke to block some pain

Sorry for my negativity I just know how weed can fuck with the mind even tho it helps it's a hard one to explain...

 

[lynnschronicles]

I love weed and I know that it'll never lie or hurt me

 

[imtiredasf]

Man, I've been smoking daily for too goddamn long now, but if it wasn't for the sweet leaf that I have had, the pain of my physical existence, both metaphorically and literally, would have crippled or ended me a long ass time ago. It's nice to have, but it's not quite the crutch it used to be anymore. It doesn't help with those heavy feelings like it used to. It's just a daily bandage like my nicotine addiction, but WAY more fun.

 

[Hotsackage]

I'm more of a drinker, but I appreciate this post, a couple def makes me more in tune with reality

 

[cowboypants]

I really love the high, unless it makes me paranoid and stuff. Sometimes I begin to imagine things which makes it very scary experience for me. But I love everything on weed, it really amplifies the experience

 

[Carrot]

Any tips on foods to have around for the munchies? Random thought, what if SN could be smoked? Wouldn't that be easier and a lot more fun? Imagine being high and having a last salty joint. Sending you all chilled vibes.

Eat what you like, probably. But maybe there is some secret food people found particularly well while high.

Smoking SN would be awesome, I don't see that happening though haha.

My random thought is that smokers might need less SN to CTB, I don't know how to phrase it, but they already ruin their oxygen levels and such. Complete guess.