Four Weeks Self Harm Free - Still Grieving

[SecretDissociation]

It's been four weeks since I self-harmed. Simply put, I don't have the enrgy to. I'm still grieving my friend that died Five Weeks and Three days ago (maybe I miscalculated by a couple of days - I am not good at maths!).

I figured, a win is a win. So I'm taking it.

But I feel more miserable than before. Does trying to hang myself count as self-harm? I'm not counting that... Does purging count? Not counting that either.

i'll just focus on this win. No cutting and no overdosing over the last four weeks. I might be still slowly mentally rotting, but hey, I'm doing something right.

 

[DivineSpark]

I have had desire for self harm but I have never actually done it and I cannot stand pain very well, so it is out of question. I also dont want people to look at me at the gym or swimming.