Venting Fuck therapy I'm done

[Ijustcantanymore]

Therapist just hung up on me during our session because I was pointing out the stark fucking reality unfolding before our eyeballs and asking why he doesn't believe it.

he's trying to convince me things aren't the way they literally fucking are. I feel like he's trying to gaslight me about the world and life.

He doesn't understand why telling me I need to live another 50 years is one of the cruelest things he could say.

I'm done. They are part of the problem. They are there to get us to assimilate or to put us away if we won't conform.

Everything. Everything about humanity is evil. Blah blah blah not all whatever. Yeah well the "good" ones aren't doing that much to stop the bad ines. So I see no difference. I don't want to be amongst them anymore. I'm disgusted with my existence as a human.

Fuck survival instinct. How do I fucking kill this thing?

 

[Michelstaedter]

It's hard being a therapist, I imagine, but it's even harder to suffer what you suffer, and what many of us suffer, because it's a feeling of terrible incomprehension. We have to keep in mind that our idea goes against nature, which is "to live and reproduce," but that doesn't mean it's wrong, because seeing it as wrong is more a matter of ethics and morals, and not so much that it's wrong because it is. It's the human will and therefore debatable. It's not just saying that those of us who don't want to live in this world are wrong because "it shouldn't be that way."

Don't get frustrated, it always happens that way. I've seen people "recommend therapy" as if it were a simple and foolproof measure. I also think their worldview tends to be optimistic about what is a sad reality, and that sad reality is that there are people who don't fit into this society; for one reason or another, we don't belong here. You're going to look for work, you have depression, anxiety, and other problems, they won't be accommodating, they won't support you, they'll demand as much from you as they would from others, and they don't consider your situation as vulnerable. With so many things, people are going to judge you as "weak," and I've seen many people say that what we have is "a depression that can be solved by hitting it off," as if we were a fucking old television, as if we were an electronic device. In short, society and a lot of trash don't create the conditions for living a peaceful life adequate enough to make it worthwhile to live those "50 years" you're talking about.