Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve everything for me.
It truly is all that can solve everything for me and bring me peace from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep where this torturous, futile existence is all gone and forgotten and to finally rest and forget about this existence I just always saw as such a terrible, cruel mistake really is all I see as desirable.

I wish for no more suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to sleep permanently, I just want all to be gone for me with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to exist, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from as after all there is no suffering in non-existence. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal sleep can bring me relief from, I always just hope and wait to never exist again with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's all so dreadful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is positive for me.
It really is all that's positive for me and is all I hope for, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, in this existence where there's all this torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel only non-existence could ever be positive for me, I just want to never wake again.

I just want for all to be gone and forgotten, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for, only non-existence can bring me any peace and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence. It's all just so cruel to me and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for as if I don't exist I cannot suffer and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, I just wish and hope for peace from all suffering but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish to be gone, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only wishing to sleep permanently.
No matter what I really could only wish to sleep permanently, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally all forgotten and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, in this torturous existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it only non-existence can bring me any peace and is just the only relief for me, all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for dreamless eternal sleep where all is gone and finally I can rest but of course all the suffering and torture of existing just continues, it's all so terrible to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything. Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for in this torturous and dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all just so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want peace, I just want to never suffer ever again and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring to cease existing than suffer so unnecessarily.
No matter what I really would always prefer to cease existing than suffer so unnecessarily in this deeply undesirable existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so terrible and I always wish I never existed, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I just always saw as a mistake but of course all the cruelty and suffering just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as waiting for death. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is forgotten and I can be at peace. I just want to never exist ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all so terrible and I always wish I was never forced to suffer burdened with this existence just waiting to cease existing anyway and I'll always see existing as waiting to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for no more suffering.
No matter what all I could wish for is no more suffering, I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I can rest, only non-existence can bring me any relief from the pain and cruelty of existing and I suffer just from existing.

It's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist again and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is just all I see as desirable, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace. I just want to never exist again, I just want all to be gone for me and I suffer just from existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I only hope for no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so cruel and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

To not exist is all that's desirable to me.
It truly is all that's desirable to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the terrible, tragic mistake of existence but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I'll just always see existence as the most dreadful, harmful abomination that just causes pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's all so cruel to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer just from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed. I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I just want to never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake just waiting to die anyway and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I never should had been forced to exist.