Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, only non-existence can bring me any peace from the futile unnecessary suffering of this torturous existence I never would had chosen.

I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and terrible and there's just so much suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, no matter what I'll always see existence as the problem and to never suffer again is just all I hope for, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist, only non-existence is positive and desirable for me, all I want is peace from the suffering of this dreadful, futile existence I never would had chosen.

 

[Schmopo]

no offense but isn't that like the same thing you say in every single post what's the point of posting if you keep sayin the same stuff again no offense you do you I'm just curious

I have to agree, I'm sorry. With respect and I know Funeral is hurting and in pain, but the posts are made almost every hour everyday. They are formatted and structurally with things said almost verbatim being exactly the same. It's kinda spam territory imo. I do take issue that this was specifically made as a general vent thread but they expand this same sentiment to other people's threads, though at least they acknowledge and reply to other's suffrage even though they don't here (and that's their choice). I've selected 'ignore' since and will move on.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for eternal sleep.
Eternal sleep truly is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable no matter what, in this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering.

I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from it all. I wish for peace and only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from the abomination of existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured just to die in agony from old age and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible.

I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to never wake again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and is just all I hope for in this existence that to me is just waiting to die, all I want is to never suffer again, I just wish for peace from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just waiting to die.
I really will always see existing as just being waiting to die no matter what, it's just pain, suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily.

It's all just so dreadful and cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for, all I want is to never exist again and I always suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence that to me is just waiting for death.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this pain and suffering as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'd never wish for this futile, torturous existence that to me is just waiting to die, I'm just always so tired of suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to never exist again, I just hope for true permanent peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for no more suffering.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is no more suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this dreadful, torturous existence is finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again with this existence I always saw as a mistake finally no longer my problem and there's just so much pain and suffering in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief and peace I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily hoping and waiting to be gone, all I want is some peace and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from this cruel existence I never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence that to me is only suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so cruel and terrible and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone.

I just want to never suffer ever again with this cruel existence all forgotten and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so terrible and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence.

Only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and is just all I see as desirable, I just want peace and only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for. I just want to never exist again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as the most cruel, dreadful burden to exist, it's one only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, as long as I exist I truly will just wish to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so terrible to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so terrible to exist and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again.

To me existence truly is an abomination that just causes and brings so much harm and suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is true permanent peace and I suffer so much as a result of existing, for me only non-existence could ever be positive, I just want to never wake again.

All hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone, I just hope for peace from the suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence that I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep.
I really will only be at peace in eternal sleep and I just wish that more than anything I never had to suffer.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel, futile existence I always saw as a mistake.

I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting for death anyway, all I want is to never wake ever again and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence so cruel and undesirable that I just never would had chosen and there's just so much pain in existing, it's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this, I just want to never exist again, I only hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable in this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful and I'd just always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and all I see as desirable is never suffering again.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so cruel and terrible and I just wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, cruel existence no matter what, for me non-existence is just the only peace, it's all I see as desirable and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in this futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing non-existence as desirable.
No matter what I could only ever see non-existence as desirable and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, all I want is to be permanently free from this cruel, futile and torturous existence but of course all the suffering just continues.


I always suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, all I want is to be free from it all, I just want to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer again with this cruel, deeply undesirable existence all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible.

I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me only non-existence could ever be desirable, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it truly is all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep permanently, I just want to never wake ever again with this deeply undesirable, painful existence finally no longer my problem, it really is just all so dreadful and futile to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die to me, it's just unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just always suffer so much as a result of this futile, cruel and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake.

There's just so much pain and suffering in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again, I only hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently unconscious with this torturous and dreadful existence all gone and forgotten and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to never wake ever again. I just wish for peace from this existence that to me is just waiting for death and I always suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful existence I never would had chosen that I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really would never want to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for non-existence to bring me peace from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence I never would had chosen is finally all forgotten about and I just suffer so much as a result of existing. It's all so cruel to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this suffering as a result, all I want is to never suffer again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as the most dreadful, torturous and cruel burden to exist, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence could ever bring me peace.
It truly is the only peace and relief for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence no matter what, it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is dreamless eternal sleep where finally I can be at peace.

All want is to never suffer again but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering endlessly and to unlimited extents, I just want some peace, I just want to never wake ever again and only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of this torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and is just all that can bring me peace from the torturous abomination of existence, all I want is to never suffer again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence but of course all the suffering continues and it's all so cruel and terrible.

All I could ever hope for is to never suffer again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just wish for dreamless eternal sleep but of course all the suffering continues and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful, cruel and painful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful and torturous to suffer in this cruel, futile existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake again.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake is finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer so much as a result of existing, I'd just never wish for the cruelty, torture and suffering of this existence rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I just hope for non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just cease existing peacefully.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just cease existing peacefully to escape from all the suffering of this cruel existence, all I want is to never exist again, I just want peace from this dreadful, futile and torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is eternal sleep.

 

[overload]

all i long for is just not feeling pain, choking and hunger for a plain second