Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Endless suffering that continues.
It's just horrific to think about all the endless suffering, torment and cruelty that so tragically continues to be experienced by existing beings, every second there are existing beings in agony, tortured and tormented so immensely with no limit as to unbearable it can all get. It really is beyond comprehension how much harm existence causes and like I've already written it'll always be deeply tragic how they are forced here just to suffer for the sake of it in futile existences just waiting to die anyway, experiencing senseless agony and meaningless suffering that all could have been prevented by never existing in the first place.

To me having the ability to exist is a hellish, incredibly harmful imposistion that only ever causes one to suffer, once one exists they are capable of suffering in endless unlimited ways in this reality where chance so sensessly determines everything. I've never been able to understand those who label this a "gift", no existence is an abomination that no matter what I'd be better off without as after all there are never any disadvantages to not existing with nobody able to suffer from being eternally unconscious. I see no value to the meaningless, pointless torment that existence causes, I see no value in suffering so sensessly in a world filled with endless agony and more than anything I wish I never existed at all, I don't believe in the idea of hell but if there was one it'd be existence.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Hoping I'm giving you new information but you should know you can hit "ignore" at the top of the screen to never see this thread again. I think this solution is pretty great, honestly. Bravo mods.

They cannot ignore FC. They are a secret fun of her.

 

[FuneralCry]

The torment of existence.
No matter what the torment of existence will always be endless until I'm finally at true, permanent peace for all eternity. It's so terrible and immensely cruel the amount of pain existence causes and for me there could never be any relief from the suffering as long as I'm conscious and burdened with the ability to exist.
Existing truly is just nothing more than meaningless torment until one decays and dies anyway and more than anything I wish I was never forced into existence at all as existing has only ever caused me to suffer and always will do no matter what. All I wish for is the eternity of an dreamless sleep with all finally forgotten about, it comforts me to think of death erasing all memories of this dreadful, hopeless existence, in fact I only find comfort in death as after all nobody can be harmed by being eternally unconscious.

I wish for death as I see no point or value in being tormented in this existence so futile and I find it deeply tragic how existing beings suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it when all of this pain could have been prevented by never existing at all. I'd certainly always prefer to not exist but of course only never existing is true perfection to me, I wish I just stayed eternally unaware of this existence that only ever caused one to suffer so unnecessarily in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

So cruel how people cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally.
It truly is so incredibly and immensley cruel how people cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally when they wish to, what I find terrible is how people were so tragically burdened with this existence filled with endless suffering yet cannot just choose to easily be free from it when they want to with suicide cruelly made so difficult and inaccessible instead.

It's just so hellish how humans suffer and struggle so much in this existence with no straightforward way to just pass away eternally and the fact that suicide is this way just leads to way more harm and endless torment in an existence already so torturous.

I wish that more than anything the option to die painlessly like never waking again is there because for me peace could only ever lie in being unconscious for all eternity, it sounds so peaceful to me to simply be unaware. I'd never wish to suffer in this dreadful and meaningless existence no matter what, there's so much cruelty in how people cannot just choose to easily free themselves from all suffering whenever they wish to.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always tired of existing.
No matter what I'll certainly always be tired of existing especially as there truly is no peace in being burdened with this hellish, meaningless and undesirable existence where there is endless potential to suffer and be tormented. I'm tired of being conscious and aware, I'm tired of my thoughts, I simply don't wish to experience anything and only see the absence of everything as being desirable as to me existing just leads to suffering.

Even temporary sleep cannot bring much relief as long as the chance of waking is there, only eternal, dreamless sleep can bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once all is forgotten about in death.
I just find it dreadful to suffer in this existence with no straightforward way to just painlessly die and it terrifies me how this could potentially continue for decades. I really wish the option is there to just never wake again like I already said, the kind of tiredness I feel is one that only non-existence can bring me relief from, no matter what for me the problem will always lie in existence itself.

It's a problem how I exist in this reality filled with endless suffering, it's a problem how I'm enslaved in a decaying flesh prison capable of tormenting one to unlimited and extreme extents destined for nothing but to deteriorate and cause one to suffer way more unbearably, for me existence itself will always be the problem that only ceasing to exist can solve.

 

[FuneralCry]

The endless cruelty of existing.
Existence truly is so endlessly cruel, in fact how cruel existence is really beyond comprehension. I could never see anything desirable about being so harmfully forced into this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything where there is literally no limit as to how torturous this existence can get, in fact it can get so unbearable and agonising way beyond how anyone can imagine it to with their being endless potential to suffer.

It truly is cruel how existing beings are suffering every second all for no reason and no purpose all through no fault of their own all because they were unfortunate enough to be forced into something so hellish as existence and it really is so terrible and tragic. I'd never wish to exist no matter what and more than anything I wish I never existed at all as only then would I never be able to suffer and I don't want to suffer in any way.

Existing truly is just a pointless and meaningless process of just waiting around to die with existing beings suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it and what is so devastating is how even if one suffers so unbearably now it can very easily and instantly get much more horrific. In fact the horrors of existence are endless and that's why I wish to not exist so much as after all existence is the problem, it's the ultimate true cause of what causes one to suffer, it's the cause of all this endless cruelty, only death can bring me peace from an existence so cruel and immensely harmful.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see ceasing to exist as something positive.
For me no matter what ceasing to exist could only ever be something positive, in fact in my case I've only ever found comfort in death. Having the option to just painlessly die would be such a relief as it'd prevent so much meaningless suffering in an existence that was always so undesirable in the first place, for me death is something positive because after all I cannot suffer from not existing with their being no disadvantages to the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep. If I no longer exist I'd have no worries or concerns, I would be incapable of feeling pain and no longer have to deal with the futile and torturous burden that is having the ability to exist.

Yet as long as I exist there is no limit as to how much I can be tormented with endless potential to feel pain with nobody who no longer exists able to mourn for how they lack the ability to suffer in an existence so pointless that is just a futile process of waiting around to die anyway. All of this is why I personally see ceasing to exist as something positive as I simply don't want to suffer in any way, I don't wish to experience anything at all, all that's ever appealed to me is being unconscious for all eternity.

 

[iloverachel]

We missed you Funeral Cry

 

[FuneralCry]

Only finding comfort in death.
No matter what I could only ever find comfort in death as I believe it to simply be nothingness, nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep where one cannot suffer, experience or feel anything.
I find comfort in death as to me it means finding safety from all suffering and harm, ceasing to exist is the one escape from the cruel and torturous burden of existing as a human which was of course completely futile in the first place that never served any purpose.

I find comfort in death as existing is dreadful and terrifying, I fear what lies ahead and I fear how in existence there is endless and unlimited potential for pain, agony and torment. The pain that existence causes will always be very real and this is why I'd prefer to cease existing as only then will the pain go away with everything that is painful about this existence erased for those who no longer exist as after all they are now eternally unconscious and cannot suffer at all.

I've always and only found comfort in death, in an existence that causes nothing but suffering the only relief for me lies in the eternal escape from all that causes one to suffer, I only find comfort in the peace of permanent non-existence, to sleep for all eternity sounds so incredibly peaceful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Trapped in this existence.
I'm certainly tired of being trapped in this existence I never would have chose that I was forced into. I wish that I had the option to just instantly free myself in peace from the dreadful and cruel burden of existing but of course that isn't the reality as tragically we exist in this hellish reality where meaningless suffering is seen as something to so harmfully prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards the fact that not everyone wishes to be burdened with this existence until they are tortured by old age and die anyway.

More than anything I wish that suicide is as straightforward as just never waking again, I wish for a death like falling into an eternal sleep where finally all will be forgotten about and finally I'll be at peace, simply just existing is tiring to me.

Allowing the option to just die painlessly truly would be such an overwhelming comfort and would bring so much relief from pointless torment, it's painful to feel stuck in this existence I was never meant for that only caused me to suffer. Only eternal sleep can bring me peace from an existence that was just a terrible mistake in the first place, like I've said I'd always prefer to not exist but the only true perfection lies in never suffering in this existence at all, I really hope to sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

The torment of being denied painless ways to die.
It truly does just lead to way more torment how humans are denied ways to painlessly cease existing on their own terms, the fact that painless suicide methods are made inaccessible even know we exist in this reality filled with endless cruelty, pain and torment with no limit as to how much agony one can feel truly is horrific. Only a painless death can bring me peace from an existence that causes nothing but suffering which is why it's truly devastating how I'm denied such an option with humans expected to suffer and struggle no matter what instead in an existence so pointless and meaningless until they end up tortured by old age and die anyway. More than anything I wish that suicide is straightforward and peaceful with no risks involved and I find it so hellish how it isn't this way.

I wish suicide is accepted as a personal choice because after all not everyone wants to suffer in this existence where the pain one feels is very real and endless, there needs to be acceptance towards preferring true peace over an existence that was always so undesirable in the first place. I personally see no point or value to the futile and cruel burden of human existence, rather it's something that's only ever caused me to suffer so meaninglessly that I'd always prefer to be eternally relieved from no matter what, I only find comfort in death, all that comforts me is the thought of no longer being able to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence will always be preferable to me personally no matter what.
No matter what I'd certainly always prefer to not exist than to suffer in this hopeless and cruel existence that is filled with senseless cruelty and potential for endless suffering and torment.
I just know that I'm not meant for this futile, pointless struggle of just waiting to die, I know I'm only meant for the absence of everything, I'm only meant for an eternal release from the burden of existing as a conscious being, to me existing truly is so incredibly undesirable. All that comforts me is the thought of being eternally relieved from it, I only find comfort in the peace of an eternal sleep where I'm safe from all suffering and harm.

It's just so terrible and terrifying how existing beings suffer so sensessly and immensley in this reality all through no fault of their own, all I wish for is to be unaware of all this, all I've ever wished for is to be unconscious without the ability to be tormented in this existence that was just a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly is so horrific.
Honestly I find it deeply tragic how there is all this endless torment, senseless cruelty and agony as a result of life existing, the existence of life truly is such a terrible, horrific tragedy to me.

I find existence horrific as it's the source of all suffering and it's the ultimate cause of all that makes one suffer, I find it so devastating how there is all this endless torture all for no reason and no purpose with animals existing just to be eaten alive in agony and humans so harmfully forced here just to be tortured all for no reason and no purpose until they are tormented by old age, die anyway and be forgotten about like they never exist at all.

The extreme and endless suffering existing causes truly is horrific especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable the torment and agony can get. I find human existence to be such a futile and torturous burden especially as one is conscious and aware enslaved in a decaying flesh prison that can cause them to suffer so senselessly and unbearably and what's so horrific is how there is no straightforward eternal release from this with it being programmed to survive no matter what which just shows how human existence truly is suffering. It's pointless and endless suffering that tragically continues in an endless cycle when new life is so harmfully forced here. No matter what I'll always see existence itself as the problem, the suffering existing causes is simply beyond comprehension which is why I'd always prefer to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I never suffered in this existence.
No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist but I really wish I never suffered in this existence in the first place, only never existing is true perfection to me as only then can one never be harmed by this existence so cruel and meaningless. To stay permanently unaware of the terrible tragedy that is existence is all I see as ideal, I wish I never existed as then I wouldn't be burdened with something so futile and torturous as human existence.

What I find tragic about life being forced here is how unnecessary it all is, there was never a need for something so harmful and pointless as existence which is why it's especially a tragedy how there is all this endless suffering that serves no purpose or point other than to torment existing beings.

But I wish I never existed as existing truly is just a meaningless struggle with endless potential to feel pain and what I find so terrible is how if one prefers to not exist there is no straightforward way to achieve that with humans expected to suffer no matter what in this existence they were forced into in the first place.
Existence itself will always be the problem to me and is something completely undesirable that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and that is certainly why I wish I never existed. I'm certainly not meant to exist and I'm tired of being trapped in this existence I never would have chose, I just find it tragic how life had to exist when there were no disadvantages to never existing at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffering in cruel existence.
There truly are no words to describe the pain existing causes and how immense it truly is, I've never wished for existence and never would do no matter what, what appeals to me about being dead is that I cannot suffer anymore with every painful memory and feeling associated with this existence finally being gone and only then can I never hurt again and that is why I find comfort in death.

I believe death to simply be an eternal and dreamless sleep where all the torment of this hopeless existence are finally forgotten about. As long as one exists I will suffer and I never want to suffer ever again, the eternity, permanency and true peace of eternal nothingness is all I'm meant for, I'm not meant to be alone, suffering in this torturous existence that only ever caused pain. The existence of life will always be the most terrible tragedy to me that I'd prefer to be erased from, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I want it to be like I never existed as what value is there to suffering in an existence so immensely cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wish to experience anything.
No matter what I'd never wish to experience anything, I'd never want to be conscious and aware, having the ability to exist as a human is a dreadful and torturous burden that causes nothing but suffering, pain and loss.
I'll always see it as better to never exist than suffer in this cruel, painful existence that can potentially get so unbearable way beyond anyone can imagine it to, under no circumstances would I wish for existence, the true problem will always lie in existence itself.

Only non-existence is desirable to me as after all nobody can be harmed by the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, there are no disadvantages to being eternally unable to suffer and the permanent absence of all meaningless, unnecessary suffering is all I wish for. Existing truly is just a hopeless process of slowly dying that to me personally is always best avoided, I'd never wish to experience existence, I find it tragic how I was forced to exist in the first place, the tragedy lies in how I was so unnecessarily burdened with the ability to suffer in this existence that was just a terrible tragic mistake in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence causes immense harm.
It's true that existence causes immense harm and no matter what existence will always be so endlessly harmful, existence is harmful as it's the source of all that torments existing beings, to exist in this reality is so harmful as after all there is no limit as to how unbearable the pain of existing can get with unlimited disadvantages to existing and endless ways to suffer.

What is horrific to me is how an existing being is capable of suffering so immensley in this reality where chance so sensessly determines everything all while they are just slowly dying and waiting to die anyway in an existence so meaningless. Existence truly is so harmful as all it does is just create pain and problems there was never a need for, having the ability to exist just causes existing beings to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it.

In fact all that existence does is harm existing beings, it burdens them with the ability to be tormented and feel such extreme agony. I see human existence as particularly harmful as one is conscious and aware enslaved in a decaying flesh prison that can potentially cause such torture and be damaged and hurt so unbearably yet many humans wish to prolong the harm existence causes no matter what and make it so others are harmed even more by denying them access to a painless death which I could use to find permanent safety from this existence so harmful.

For me ceasing to exist is the one way to escape from all harm as after all one cannot be harmed by the peace of eternal nothingness and the fact that I cannot choose to just fall asleep eternally harms me, I'd never wish to be harmed by existence, rather all I wish for is the absence of everything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never want to hurt again.
No matter what I'd never want to experience the pain of existing and existence truly is so painful, it's painful to be conscious and aware in this cruel, torturous reality that is filled with endless torment. To exist means to suffer all while risking experiencing way worse, unbearable suffering at any moment, I'll always see it as tragic how I exist, it's tragic how I suffer instead of being eternally unaware.

All I've ever wished for is the peace of non-existence as existing is just too undesirable, it's too hopeless, it's too harmful, the suffering existing causes is horrific and beyond comprehension and I don't want to suffer in any way, rather all I wish for is to never hurt again, to me the only true peace could ever lie in non-existence with all painful memories of this existence eternally erased and forgotten about. To me existence is just a tragic mistake, I'll always see it as dreadful and so terrible to be burdened with the ability to exist, only death can bring me peace from an existence that has caused me nothing but to suffer, it'd be such a relief to fall asleep for all eternity and never hurt again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Not suited for the endless torment and cruelty of existing.
No matter what I'll never be suited for the endless torment and cruelty of existing, I'm simply not meant to suffer in this reality filled with endless pain, I find it deeply devastating how there's no straightforward way to eternally be free from all the hurt existence causes.

I wish for an painless, eternal release from the agony of existing as a human, I'd never want to remember this existence, instead all I wish for is to forget. If one is suffering so much now and is desperate to die then it can very easily get much more torturous, in fact there is literally no limit, the pain existence causes is endless and very real and I know I'm not meant for this, I'm only meant to be eternally unaware, I'm just not meant to suffer.

I've always felt like I don't belong in existence but rather I only belong in death, the futile and painful burden of human existence has only ever caused me pointless suffering, it's only ever caused me to wish for the absence of everything where I'm finally safe from all suffering as I simply won't exist, to simply be eternally unconscious is all that comforts me, I just wish to find peace from the terrible tragedy that is human existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

If only I could painlessly die.
It truly would be such a relief if I had the option to just painlessly cease existing, it'd bring so much peace, it'd solve everything for me and free me from all meaningless suffering in this terrible, torturous existence that causes nothing but pain. No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist especially as there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep and to cease existing is certainly all I wish for as it's finally the end of suffering in this existence that was just a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place.

I really wish I had the option to just never wake again more than anything as it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long, I'd never wish to suffer for decades just to be tormented by old age and die anyway, the thought of such is so horrific, I wish for a painless death to free me from the endless pain of existing and existing truly does cause me nothing but pain. To suffer in this existence will always be a cruel, hopeless tragedy, all I wish for is this existence to be eternally forgotten about, I don't wish to remember anything, I just want the peace of death to cause me to forget, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist but of course only true perfection lies in never existing, I wish I never suffered in this existence more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the problem and always will be no matter what.
The ultimate problem truly does lie in existence itself, to me it's tragic how life had to exist at all causing endless amounts of harm, cruelty and torment as a result, I find it so immensley tragic how I have the ability to suffer and feel immense pain in an existence that was completely unnecessary that never should have existed at all. Existence is the problem as it's the source of all that tortures existing beings, if there was no existence nobody would be able to mourn for the absence of something so terrible and cruel with nobody able to be harmed by never existing in the first place, I personally see it as such a horrific mistake how life even exists at all.

More than anything I wish I was never forced into existence, I wish I never suffered in this existence that caused me nothing but pain, only eternal nothingness is ideal to me as it's the eternal absence of all that causes existing beings to suffer, I envy those who are now at permanent rest and cannot be harmed by existence no more. The only peace for me lies in the solution to what I see as the true problem, only ceasing to exist can solve everything for me and bring me eternal relief from the terrible and torturous burden that is human existence.

 

[Gangrel]

I'm sorry you're here, i wish life was more kind to you. We are all together with you.

 

[fwompie]

Good to see you're back FC glad you made your own thread

 

[FuneralCry]

Feel like I've existed for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered in this existence for so long and I'm tired of it, I'm tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for that has caused me nothing but pain. There truly is no peace in the futile and hopeless burden of existing as a human and I'll only be at peace once I finally cease existing, it really terrifies me how humans can suffer for so long, it's so terrifying how there could potentially be decades of more suffering in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything. I see nothing desirable about being tormented by this existence for so long just to decay and deteriorate even further and what is so truly terrible about existence is that it can get so unbearable way beyond how anyone can imagine it to.

I never would have wanted or chosen existence, only the peace of permanent non-existence is desirable to me, I simply wish to sleep for all eternity with all finally forgotten about, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of experiencing anything at all. I feel like I've been trapped here for far too long, I truly have suffered far too much, it's so tragic how I had to suffer in this unnecessary existence there was never even a need for in the first place, I'd always prefer to not exist and suffer for as little as possible but of course the only true perfection for me lies in never existing at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

My feelings towards anti-suicide.
At this point anti-suicide rhetoric just feels meaningless and empty to me, it just feels so hollow especially as no matter what I'll always want to die sooner on my own terms. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I see it as a problem how I exist as a conscious being who is able to suffer and feel pain to unlimited amounts, to me existence feels like enslavement as after all I'm a slave to a decaying flesh prison that I never would have chosen to be in trapped with my own thoughts and what is so terrible is how I cannot easily escape from this.

In fact suicide is anything but straightforward with us existing in such a pro-suffering society instead where suicidal people are denied painless ways to die with hollow anti-suicide rhetoric forced on them instead to keep them trapped in this existence so meaningless prolonging their unnecessary suffering as much as possible even know it's all futile anyway leading to nothing but decay and death.

If other people want to live that is up to them, it means nothing to me how they view life but the issue is when life valuing rhetoric is forced onto everyone as in my case I'd always prefer to not exist and would rather be permanently unconscious than to suffer for decades just to face the terrifying torture of extreme old age. Human existence is something deeply undesirable to me that I'm not suited for that I'm not meant for, I personally just see existence as a mistake, a terrible tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only death can bring me peace from this burden.
It's true that the only peace for me from this cruel and torturous existence lies in death, to me death is peace that cannot be found in existing as a conscious being and no matter what there could never be any peace in being burdened with something so hopeless and undesirable as human existence.

To me existence is a burden as I'm trapped here with my own thoughts, suffering with no painless escape wishing for the peace that only non-existence can bring, I personally see no point or value in being burdened with existence, rather such just leads to so much hurt and meaningless suffering all for the sake of it.

I see it as so incredibly dreadful to suffer in this reality filled with endless pain and torment with literally no limit as to how unbearable the pain of existing can get and in my case I don't want to suffer in any way, instead I simply wish for nothing, I wish for true peace which for me can only be found in the eternal absence of everything.

It's just so immensley cruel to me how voluntary death isn't straightforward, I wish there's the option to just fall asleep eternally more than anything where this futile yet so tragic burden can finally be forgotten about with all future meaningless suffering finally erased. The burden of existence is what I see as a terrible, tragic mistake, the true problem will always lie in how I'm conscious in an existence that causes nothing but for me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly is so harmful and dreadful.
No matter what I'll always see it as so harmful, terrible and dreadful to exist, I just find it so terrible how instead of perfect non-existence for all eternity there is all this endless torment and pain instead. Under no circumstances would I wish for existence and I find it so immensely cruel how there is no straightforward, eternal escape from all this meaningless suffering.

It's horrific how I cannot just easily die in peace even know existence will always be so incredibly harmful with no limit as to how unbearable the agony can get, only death can solve everything for me and bring me peace. I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, only death can bring me peace from this futile, pointless struggle where I'm just waiting around to die anyway, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long and suffer so unbearably in this existence that caused nothing but harm in the first place, I really wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really wish I could just erase my existence.
More than anything I wish I could erase this cruel, dreadful and painful existence like I never existed at all, it'd be such a relief to simply be able to disappear with all the hurt existence causes eternally be forgotten about. Existing truly is just so terrible and causes nothing but suffering, I know I'm not meant for any of this, I'm not meant to be tormented in this existence, it truly is a curse to exist as a conscious being in this world filled with endless torment, I wish it could all go away, I wish to be at true peace for all eternity, I wish for the peace of non-existence to erase everything.

Only eternal non-existence appeals to me, I know that this existence was just a terrible, torturous mistake in the first place, I find it so tragic how I had to exist when there were never any disadvantages to never existing at all, I'd never want to suffer in this undesirable, harmful existence that caused me nothing but pain, having the ability to erase my existence would solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Old age sounds so incredibly horrific.
It truly does and it's exactly what I fear, it sounds so unbearably and immensley horrific, I fear the suffering continuing for that long, I fear being trapped in this cruel and torturous existence for that long just decaying and deteriorating even more. I don't want any of this meaningless, unnecessary torment instead all I wish for is the peace that only death can bring, I'm not meant to suffer and I'd never want to suffer in any way.

I wish there's acceptance towards the fact that not everyone wants to be tormented in this existence so undesirable, it's just terrifying how in existence there is the potential for the most endless and extreme suffering just for one to end up being tortured by old age if they exist for so long.

Human existence truly is such a harmful imposition I never would have chosen, instead I would have chosen to never exist at all, I really wish there's the option to just easily die in peace, it'd bring me so much peace from pointless suffering in an existence that caused me nothing but pain.

Under no circumstances would I ever want to suffer from old age, I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than to face that torture, it's just so terrible extremely unacceptable how suicide isn't accepted as a valid personal decision even know it's the one escape from all this, why can't it be accepted if one prefers the eternity of non-existence over suffering so senselessly just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, existing as a conscious being will always be terrifying and dreadful, I really dread what lies ahead, I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep to erase all this pointless torment.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I had a painless exit.
I really wish I had a painless way to die to bring peace from all pointless, meaningless suffering, it's just to terrible and cruel how I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally whenever I want to, why is it too much to ask for if one wants true, permanent peace from this existence.

I simply wish to be unconscious for all eternity where I'm safe from all suffering and cannot be hurt by this existence ever again, I want to be free from this hopeless burden, I wish for this futile and torturous existence to eternally disappear into nothingness where all is forgotten about, I just want it all to be erased, I only want true peace.

To simply be unaware for all eternity sounds so peaceful and ideal, I'd never want to suffer no matter what and I'm not suited for this existence, I'm not meant to exist and I wish I had a peaceful way to sleep eternally to save me from this existence I was so harmfully forced into and existence truly does cause nothing but harm. There is no peace in existing as a human capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay from age and die anyway, it's terrifying to be trapped in this existence without the ability to instantly free myself, I wish for a death like never waking again.