Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I personally see no benefit to suffering in this existence until old age.
I truly could never see any benefit to it, personally it terrifies me how a human can suffer so long just to face the extreme agony and torture of old age, to me existing truly is just terrible, pointless suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I'd never wish for the cruel, torturous burden of human existence where one is just destined to decay and die anyway but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering where finally this existence is forgotten about, there's just so much cruelty in this unnecessary futile existence.

All I personally hope for is to die and never suffer ever again, I wish for non-existence as only then am I safe from all suffering, nothing would make me wish for the horrors of being tortured by old age but really I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became conscious as something as harmful as existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it. Personally I'd always prefer to not exist to escape from meaningless suffering in an existence I never would have chose, I just don't have any interest in suffering until old age as well and the thought of such is so horrifying to me, there's so much cruelty in how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised even know all of this was imposed, the fact that this existence was imposed will always be a terrible tragedy to me, it's so horrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace as I'd never wish to exist, I just want peace, I just want nothingness, existence itself will always be the true problem to me and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for permanent relief from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrific to me how euthanasia is denied.
No matter what I'll always find it horrific how the option of euthanasia is denied for humans even know there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's just so terrible and cruel to me how there's no acceptance towards preferring non-existence to all this meaningless, pointless suffering in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake. Personally I'd never wish for the torturous, futile burden of human existence rather I just want to finally die in peace and forget about it all, I just want all to be gone for me in death, under no circumstances would I wish for something as undesirable as existence that just causes and brings suffering all for the sake of it.

I wish I could simply choose to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again and it feels so horrible how I cannot just have that option and the suffering just continues instead, existence itself will always feel like the problem to me no matter what, it's something so cruel and terrible that just causes endless amounts of torture and agony, death truly is the only relief for me and it's all I'll hope and wish for no matter what. In an existence so futile and torturous non-existence really is all that can bring me peace, I only want peace from this horrific world where the option of painless death is denied and suffering is seen as always to prolong instead, I'd rather die than prolong all this suffering in this existence I always saw as just causing nothing but harm in the first place, I'd never wish for existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just die painlessly to finally escape from it, I'm always so tired of being trapped in this cruel existence where there is all this endless suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's desirable for me.
It truly is all that's desirable for me and could ever be no matter what, under no circumstances would I wish for something as cruel, harmful and painful as existence rather I just want to die in peace and never suffer ever again, all I hope for is permanent non-existence, I find it deeply undesirable to be conscious at all. Existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me and always will do no matter what, I was never meant for the terrible pain of existing but as well as that I just find existing to be so undesirable in every way possible, I have no interest in the burden of human existence and would prefer to erase my existence, for me existence itself is the problem.

Existence to me is a unnecessary harm that just causes suffering and I'd never wish for any of this, rather i just want nothingness, I just want some peace, peace for me could only lie in never suffering ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me hoping and wishing to be gone. Death truly is the only relief for me, I'd be relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, I never wish to think or feel anything at all and I suffer simply from existing, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish to never exist again. In an existence where there's all this endless cruelty non-existence is all that's positive for me, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, I only hope for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where this torturous, unnecessary existence is finally all forgotten about, it'll always feel so cruel to me how I just cannot have the option to simply die in peace as all I hope for and wish for is permanent relief from the cruelty and futility of being conscious in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is something so terrible and harmful.
I'll always see existence as something so terrible no matter what, I see existence as the most terrible, horrific tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering, existence itself will always feel like the problem to me as it's the source of all suffering and cruelty after all. There's no suffering in non-existence yet there's no limit as to how unbearable this torturous, meaningless existence can get which is why I only hope to never exist again, I only wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I see it as so harmful to be conscious at all capable of suffering to unlimited amounts in this existence I always saw as a mistake, personally I only hope for non-existence.

I'd always prefer to painlessly die as I just have no interest in suffering in this existence as well, I'm so tired of being conscious and it can easily get way more unbearable causing so much suffering as a result, there's just so much cruelty in this existence, it'll always be so terrible to me no matter what, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I just want some peace instead, true eternal peace really has been all I've ever hoped and wished for. I'd never wish to exist and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this terrible, harmful existence where there is all this suffering and the suffering just continues, personally I find it terrifying how one can exist for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age. Existence is always something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, it'll always feel like a mistake to me that just brings so much pain all for the sake of it which is why to me it always feels so cruel how I'm denied painless death and instead I'm trapped in this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring non-existence.
I'd personally always prefer non-existence no matter what, it's all I wish and hope for. I'd prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing for all eternity, all suffering, pain and problems are ultimately as a result of existence, the way I see it ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as it removes the source of what causes me to suffer after all, there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get. Existing can very easily get way more torturous causing so much more agony as a result, it's all so terrible to me and I see it as all so pointless anyway, to me existing truly is just waiting to die and I'd prefer to cease existing sooner to save myself from unnecessary suffering in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I have no interest in prolonging the suffering this existence causes just to be tortured by old age and die anyway.


And as well as that I just find it so burdensome to exist at all, I'll always see it as a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything in this existence that I always saw as completely unnecessary in the first place, personally I'd always prefer the permanency of non-existence where all is gone and forgotten about where this existence is no longer my problem and nothing can matter to me to the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence. To me existence just feels like a terrible tragic mistake that causes suffering all for the sake of it, problems there were never a need for just for one to die anyway where for them it is like they never existed at all, only when I'm permanently unconscious will this existence no longer be my concern which is why only non-existence could ever be desirable to me no matter what, only non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

The day I look forward to most is when I sleep, and in Judaism, sleep is viewed as 1/60th death. I think deep down we all desire death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be permanently unconscious.
Personally all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious, I don't wish to think, feel and experience anything at all, I personally find it so burdensome to have to exist at all and it's a burden that causes endless amounts of pain and suffering. Only when I'm permanently unconscious will I finally be at peace with this existence no longer my concern, to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and it's all for the sake of it, all I've ever wished for is to never exist ever again, only when I no longer exist will I be safe from all suffering and harm in an existence so cruel and torturous that I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake.

I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious than suffer for much longer in this meaningless existence just to be tormented by old age, I'll always see existence itself as the problem and it's a problem I only wish for permanent relief from, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious yet there is no limit as to how much agony an existing being can feel which is certainly a reason as to why I only hope to never exist again. Personally I find it painful to simply be conscious, to have to be awake at all will always be deeply undesirable to me, as long as I exist non-existence will be all I hope for, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all there cannot be any suffering in non-existence, for only non-existence could ever be ideal and is all I'll ever hope for no matter what, in an existence so cruel and futile the only relief for me could lie in being permanently unconscious, I've suffered for so long in this existence I only hope to never suffer again but of course I never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I truly will always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, for me existence itself will always be the problem, it's something that just brings so much suffering all for the sake of it, personally all I hope for is to permanently cease existing and never experience anything ever again. I only wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of feeling any pain and incapable of being harmed in any way but of course the suffering just continues, personally I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I find it dreadful to simply be conscious in this futile existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake that there was never a need for. All I wish for is to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again, only in non-existence where all is gone for me will I be at peace, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is always so terrible to me.

I wish for death as only then will I be safe from all harm and suffering in this existence I never would have chose in the first place, being conscious at all is such an painful burden to me that only ever caused me to suffer and what is so horrible and cruel is how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace to finally escape from it all. Non-existence is all I'll wish and hope for no matter what, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much one can suffer just for them to be tortured by old age and die anyway, existence will always be something so dreadful to me, I see existence as nothing more than an unnecessary harm that brings so much pain all for the sake of it, I truly have only ever wished for death and it's all I'll wish for as long as I exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is the way for me to find safety from suffering.
It truly is as after all only when I no longer exist will this cruel, torturous existence no longer be my problem, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just wish for all to be gone and forgotten about for me instead, I wish to cease existing as there cannot be any suffering in non-existence. Only when I no longer exist will I be safe from suffering, unable to be harmed in any way and unable to feel any kind of pain, to me existence truly is the most horrific, terrible tragedy and what terrifies me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, it's terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age.

Personally I just wish for nothingness, I don't wish to be conscious, I don't wish to think, feel or experience anything at all, to me existence itself will always feel like the problem, I see it as such a terrible, torturous burden to exist and under no circumstances would I wish to prolong all this unnecessary pointless suffering all for the sake of it just to suffer way more and die anyway, only death can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself. A peaceful death really would solve everything for me as after all, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence and for me suicide would be suffering prevention which is why there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die, it feels so horrible how I cannot just have the means to permanently escape from all suffering in peace, non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable for me, I'm always wishing to finally be permanently safe from all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being trapped in this existence.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of being trapped in this existence, personally I find it tiring to simply exist and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, there's so much suffering in this terrible, torturous existence which is why I only hope for death. I suffer so much from how I cannot just die in peace and never exist again, in an existence so cruel and futile where there's all this endless suffering ceasing to exist truly is all I hope for. I could only ever see non-existence as desirable which is why I find it so painful to be trapped in this existence, there's just so much pain in how I cannot just escape from all the suffering in peace and never think or feel ever again, existence will always be the problem to me no matter what, I wish for death as only then will all be forgotten about for me with al the suffering finally gone.

I just want to forget about this existence which is why it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace and instead I'm just hoping and waiting die anyway, personally I've only ever wished for death and I've always felt so tired of it all, I'll always feel so tired of being trapped in this existence no matter what. I wish painless death is accessible for me so I can finally find peace from this existence I never would have wished for but of course all the suffering just continues instead, existence truly is something so terrible to me and always will be, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want some peace, I just want nothingness, it's so horrible to me how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep so I can finally find safety from all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death solves all problems for me.
And that truly is why to cease existing is all I hope for as after all death solves everything for me and removes the ultimate cause and source of all suffering in the first place. Personally I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm dead then nothing can matter to me, this existence is no longer my problem and all is finally forgotten about instead, ceasing to exist solves everything for me in an existence there was never a need for that just leads to death anyway. One cannot be harmed by being permanently unconscious and cannot mourn for the absence of something as futile and undesirable as existence anyway and this is why I see non-existence as always preferable as I just don't see value in being conscious at all, rather I see such as a burden and a terrible, torturous imposition that just causes harm and suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway.

Personally I only ever hope for the absence of existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than prolong the suffering in this existence that can get so torturous to unlimited extents, I just don't see value in suffering all for the sake of it when I cannot suffer from never existing again, I see nothing appealing about decaying and deteriorating just to face the extreme torture and agony of old age. For me existence itself will always be the true problem and it's something I'd never wish for, I'd always prefer to be permanently unaware than be burdened with this existence just suffering so unnecessarily just waiting and hoping to die anyway, as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for death to solve everything for me, I never saw existence as a desirable state in the first place and wish I never existed at all more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an meaningless, torturous imposition.
To me existence will always be the most meaningless, torturous imposition that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment, existence to me will always be something deeply undesirable, I just see it as an unnecessary harm that just torments existing beings and causes them to suffer until death takes all away for them anyway, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.

I wish I was never forced into this reality where there is all this endless suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, if this existence was never imposed it would have saved me from all this suffering in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake. For me non-existence truly is always preferable to waiting to die in this horrific world where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I see it as all so futile anyway just leading to nothing and nowhere. In an existence so harmful non-existence truly would be the only relief for me, I only hope to be non-existent free from the imposition of existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than prolong all this suffering just to be tortured and tormented by old age. I'll always see existence as suffering all for no reason and no purpose, it's all just so terrible to me, the fact that this existence was imposed even know it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all will always be a terrible tragedy to me I've never had any interest in suffering in this existence and never would do no matter what, I only hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is a trap.
I truly will always see existence as a trap that I was forced into that just brings and causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I'm always so tired of being enslaved in this existence, it's painful to be trapped in this existence without the option to painlessly free myself from it in peace. I only wish and hope for death as after all only when I no longer exist will I be finally safe from all suffering and harm in this existence I just saw as the most cruel mistake, to me there's just so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know to me existence is such a torturous, futile burden with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I feel like I've suffered for so long and I truly never should have suffered at all.

I'll always find it dreadful to be conscious trapped in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, human existence just feels like a terrible tragedy to me, it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, existence to me is just an unnecessary harm that just brings so much pain and creates so many problems there was never a need for at all. To me there's just so much cruelty in how there's no acceptance towards not wishing to suffer in this existence even know there is no suffering in non-existence yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get, I'd never wish for existence under any circumstances rather I just wish for nothingness, I only hope to never suffer ever again, there's so much suffering in existing and if I cease existing then all will finally be gone for me, I only hope for the absence of existence where finally I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is so futile.
To me personally I truly will always see existence as something so futile, to me existence truly does feel like such a terrible tragic mistake that just causes and creates suffering all for no reason and no purpose until death takes away all anyway, I just see existing as pointless, unnecessary suffering, I'll always see existing as nothing more than just waiting to die anyway where no matter what all will be forgotten about in death eventually. Personally I'd prefer to die sooner to escape from suffering in this existence there was never a need for that just caused so much pain all for the sake of it, there are no disadvantages to permanent non-existence yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existence can get.

Death is preferable for me than prolonging the suffering in an existence I always saw as so futile just to be tormented by old age, personally I just hope to permanently cease existing where this meaningless, torturous existence is forgotten about and is finally no longer my problem, I'd rather prevent suffering through ceasing to exist no matter what but of course more than anything I wish I never existed. I wish this futile existence that only ever caused me to suffer was never imposed at all, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence, for me existence itself will always feel like the true problem and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, I only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering, only death can bring me relief from the futile burden of existence, I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, I just wish to never suffer ever again, I'll always see it as so horrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing even know I'd never wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for existence.
I truly was never meant for something as cruel and futile as existence and never should have existed at all, I'll always see it as so terrible to suffer in this existence no matter what which is why I only hope and wish for death, only death can bring me peace from the terrible, pointless suffering this existence causes, there's just so much pain in this existence, it's all so dreadful. To me human existence will always be the most terrible, tragic mistake, as long as I exist I'll only be ever hoping to die in peace and forget about it all, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I never should have been forced into this existence, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in this existence, it's all so terrible and painful.

Existing truly does just feel like nothing but suffering to me and I suffer just from being conscious, I just want to never exist again, I wish for permanent relief from this torturous, meaningless existence that I'd never wish for and never would have chosen, there's just so much pain in how I'm trapped in this existence and lack the means to simply die in peace as non-existence is all I hope for, non-existence is all I've ever hoped for and could ever do no matter what, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence. I'm only meant to finally be at permanent peace for all eternity where all is finally forgotten about, non-existence truly is all I see as ideal, I only hope for a permanent end to all pain and suffering where finally this existence is no longer my concern, I was never meant for the terrible burden of existing which is why I'll only wish for death no matter what, painless death is always preferable for me than prolonging the suffering just to be tormented by old age.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence causes endless amounts of suffering.
It truly does which is so terrible to me, I'd never wish to be conscious in this cruel, meaningless existence, death truly will always be preferable for me than suffering in this existence, I see it as so tragic how existence causes and brings all this endless suffering all for the sake of it just harming and tormenting existing beings until death takes away all they knew anyway. To me existence itself will always be the problem, it's something that just causes so much pain, it's all so terrible to me and what is so horrific is how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to end up way more tortured, it's horrifying to me how existing beings are tortured every second just to die anyway, I only wish for death as only then will I be safe from all harm and suffering.

I only wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of feeling any pain and incapable of being tormented, there's so much cruelty to me in how humans cannot choose to be euthanised even despite the fact that this harmful existence was imposed bringing so much suffering as a result, I'd never wish for existence rather it's just an unnecessary harm and terrible, tragic mistake I'd prefer to avoid no matter what. Only death can bring me peace from all pointless suffering and cruelty in an existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, for me non-existence is always preferable to being trapped and enslaved in this reality where there is all this endless suffering. As long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, existence itself is something horrific to me as it's the source of all suffering, the way I see it existence just causes harm and I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful existence, rather I just want some peace, I just wish to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me ceasing to exist is the solution to suffering.
It truly is for me as after all if I no longer exist I cannot suffer in any way and all is gone for me, existence just causes endless amounts of suffering which is so horrific to me yet if I no longer exist then none of it can concern me which is why to cease existing is all I hope for, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will I be unable to feel any pain and unable to be harmed in any way with all finally forgotten about instead.

In an existence where there is all this terrible cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is the only peace for me as after all only when I no longer exist will this existence no longer be my problem with all forgotten about instead. I only hope for no more pain, no more suffering, ceasing to exist is the solution to suffering for me because it removes the source of all that causes one to suffer, non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable for me personally, only non-existence can solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself. I just have no interest in suffering in this futile, unnecessary existence anyway just to end up in a situation of way worse suffering and die anyway, it's so horrifying how one is capable of suffering to unlimited extents in an existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, as long as I exist I'll only ever be hoping to die in peace and never suffer ever again, I just want peace from the cruel, unnecessary burden of human existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just unnecessary suffering.
To me it truly is just unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, existence to me will always be something deeply undesirable, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, it's just so dreadful to me how existence causes all this harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Personally I only hope for non-existence as only then can there be no suffering, I only hope to never suffer ever again, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I'd always prefer to stay permanently unconscious of this existence no matter what.

For me non-existence truly is all I'll ever wish for, I only hope to finally cease existing and never suffer in this existence again, I'd prefer to painlessly cease existing than prolong the suffering in an existence I always saw as so meaningless and unnecessary just to be tortured by old age, existing really will always be pointless suffering to me and it's suffering I'd prefer to avoid by ceasing to exist. It's so terrible to me how there's all this cruelty in existing, personally I could never see value to suffering in this existence just waiting and hoping to die anyway rather I'd prefer to die in peace and forget about it all no matter what. Something as cruel and torturous as existence that just brings pain and causes so much suffering for the sake of it is something I'd never wish for, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, to suffer in this existence is always something that'll feel so dreadful to me, I'll always see existence itself as the problem as it's the source of all suffering after all, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for permanent relief from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to never exist ever again.
All I've personally ever wished for is to never exist again, I've only ever wished for peace from all the suffering in this terrible, torturous existence, personally I see existing as always something completely undesirable which is why I just wish for death, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself. To me existence truly is just meaningless, pointless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just don't see value to being conscious of it all rather I see it as a burden to have to experience anything at all, it's so burdensome to be trapped in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I suffer simply from being conscious.

Personally I just don't wish to exist at all and I never would do, I have no interest in suffering in this existence and existence just feels like a mistake to me, it just feels like an unnecessary harm that just brings pain and causes suffering until death takes away all anyway. Nothing could make me see existence as desirable, nothing could make me see existence as worth it rather I just see existence as an unnecessary harm I'd always prefer to avoid. Only when I finally cease existing will I be at peace as after all I cannot suffer in the absence of existence, I wish to never think, never feel anything again, I'm so tired of being conscious in this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for. Nothingness truly is always preferable for me, it's all I could ever see as desirable no matter what, I'd never wish to prolong the suffering this existence causes just to be tortured by old age, for me existence is the problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I only hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence always preferable for me.
No matter what non-existence will always be preferable for me, I just want peace from all terrible pointless suffering and cruelty, in an existence so torturous and meaningless death truly is all that can bring me any relief, I see existing as nothing more than just waiting to die anyway. Non-existence is always preferable for me as after all in non-existence there is no suffering, one cannot suffer from the absence of existence, there are no disadvatages to no longer being burdened with this existence and that's why I find comfort in death as it solves everything for me and saves me from all future suffering in this existence that just leads to being tortured by old age anyway, ceasing to exist removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, unable to feel any pain which is why it's all I hope for.

In an existence where there's all this endless torment and cruelty non-existence is all I personally see as positive, I wish for a painless death to bring me peace from all terrible suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead, to me existence is the most horrific abomination that causes extreme torture and agony. Personally I see no value in being enslaved in this existence rather I see such as so dreadful no matter what, there's so much dread and pain in existing as a conscious being capable of being tortured to unlimited extents, non-existence truly would always be preferable for me than prolonging all this suffering just to end up way more tortured. The thought of dying in agony from old age after all these decades of being tormented in this existence is horrific to me, I'd never wish for any of this but rather I just wish for non-existence, only in non-existence can I find the peace I search for, as long as I exist every second I'll hope for the relief of death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposistion.
To me existence truly is the most harmful, torturous imposition which is certainly why I only hope to not exist, I'm so tired of being enslaved in this existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake, I wish this existence that just creates problems there was never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it was never imposed more than anything. If I never existed it would have saved me from so much pointless, unnecessary suffering in an existence that just leads to being tortured by old age anyway, to be conscious in this existence will always be so terrible and dreadful to me, there's just so much cruelty in existing as well and it can easily get way more unbearable causing so much torture and agony as a result.

The fact that this existence was imposed is a tragedy to me especially as there was never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering, I'd never wish to be conscious in this cruel existence that just brings so much pain. I see it as a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything at all in this existence that was so unnecessarily imposed and I'd always see it as so harmful to exist. There's literally no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence that was always so futile to me anyway, human existence will always feel like a mistake to me, it's something that just brings suffering and causes so much harm, death truly is all that can bring me peace from the torment and cruelty of existing, I wish to just simply cease existing and never exist ever again, in fact that's all I've ever hoped for.

 

[FuneralCry]

So tired of being trapped in this existence.
I'll always be so tired of being trapped in this existence, to me existence will always feel like enslavement as after all it's something I never would have chose that I was forced into with the absence of the option to just painlessly free myself from it. I find it painful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, to me there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to just die in peace even know this existence was imposed in the first place. I never wish to think, feel or experience anything at all and I see existence as a terrible burden that just causes suffering, as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me relief from the cruelty and futility of existing where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it and of course the suffering just continues.

I'd never wish for the pain of existing, I'll always see it as so horrific how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised despite how this harmful and futile existence was imposed with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I have no interest in suffering in this existence rather I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all. I'm always wishing there's acceptance towards not wanting to be enslaved in this existence, personally I just want nothingness, only non-existence is ideal for me and can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again which is why I find it painful to be trapped in this cruel, futile existence that to me just felt like a terrible mistake, I'd always prefer to die in peace than prolong all this unnecessary suffering but of course I never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existence deeply undesirable.
I truly have always found existence to be something deeply undesirable and always will do no matter what, personally I'd just prefer to not exist than exist at all, existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's something I was never meant for that I don't see value in, rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid. I find it such a torturous, futile burden to be conscious at all, under no circumstances would I wish to be conscious in this existence and have to experience anything at all, existence itself to me feels like the ultimate problem and it's something I only wish for peace from, the only peace for me truly could only lie in never suffering ever again and I see existence as only suffering.

I suffer simply from existing and only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of existing in fact I've always felt so tired and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me. All I personally see as desirable is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is no longer my concern, all is forgotten about and nothing can matter to me, I just don't see existence as a desirable state rather it's something that just brings suffering and causes harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I just don't have any interest in suffering in general. I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all, I'd always prefer to cease existing than to be tormented in this meaningless existence for decades longer just to die in agony from old age which is why it feels so horrible how painless death is made inaccessible for me, I just want to never exist again, I'd never wish for the burden of human existence rather I just want to sleep for all eternity.

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I'd be relieved to never exist again.
I truly would be relieved to never exist again, all I personally hope for is to be permanently unconscious for all eternity, it's all I see as ideal, I just wish for peace from this existence, I just want to painlessly die where finally all is forgotten about for me, nothing can matter to me and all the suffering is finally gone. I just wish for permanent relief from the torturous and undesirable burden of existence and I'll always find it so dreadful, futile and burdensome to have to exist at all and I always have so much dread for what lies ahead especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get.

To me existence itself is an abomination that just causes so much harm and cruelty all for the sake of it just for one to die anyway with all finally forgotten about for them and I'd be relieved to finally become unaware of this existence, it's comforting to think of falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep with this existence I always saw as so pointless no longer my concern. I'd be relieved to finally be safe from all suffering in this existence I always saw as a terrible mistake, I just wish to never experience anything at all, personally I see existence as just creating suffering there was never a need for, I personally see no value and no benefit to being conscious at all rather it's something I only wish for permanent relief from. Only death can bring me the peace from the suffering I search for, I'd be relieved to finally cease existing, no matter what I'd always prefer to die, I only hope for nothingness and it's all I'll ever hope for, for me the only relief could ever lie in ceasing to exist where all the suffering is finally gone and I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty and suffering in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me, no matter what I'll always see existence as the most horrific tragedy that just causes so much harm, all I personally hope for is to die and never suffer ever again, I wish to cease existing so that this existence is finally no longer my problem and I can be at peace. Existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me no matter what, I see existence as an abomination that just tortures and torments existing beings with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, I'd never wish to exist as a conscious being capable of suffering to unlimited amounts.

Personally I just see no value in suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence and all the harm it causes no matter what, I'd always prefer to painlessly die as after all only then am I unable to suffer in any way with this existence no longer my concern but of course all the suffering just continues with me hoping and wishing to be gone. I wish for a painless death to save me from all future suffering in this existence where there is all this terrible cruelty and I see it as all futile anyway, existence truly does just create problems there was never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it. As long as I exist I'll only be ever hoping to die in peace and forget about it all, I just want peace and for me peace could only ever lie in never suffering ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'll always see it as so dreadful and painful to suffer in this existence I just saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

The reality of existence is horrific.
It truly is horrific, it's horrifying how existence causes all this endless suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and one can very easily end up in a situation of way worse torture at any moment, it's terrifying to me, I personally see existence as the most cruel, harmful abomination that I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, there's just so much torture and agony in this horrific world. I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this rather I just wish for the relief of non-existence, I only hope to never suffer ever again, only in death will this cruel, torturous existence no longer be my concern with all finally forgotten about instead.

I only wish to be unable to feel any pain, I only wish to be unable to be harmed in any way and existence is just so harmful, to me existence will always feel like the most terrible mistake and it's horrific to me how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised even despite the fact that we exist in this reality where there is all this terrible suffering with this existence just causing pain there was never a need for, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist. I just hope and wish for painless death so I can finally find peace and safety from suffering in this reality where there is all this cruelty and torture, I'll always see existence as the problem as it's the source of all suffering after all, existence is just something so terrible to me, I'll always feel so much dread for what lies ahead and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to die, I'd always prefer to cease existing than to suffer all for the sake of it just to risk ending up in a situation of way worse agony just to be tortured by old age and die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ever finding comfort in death.
I personally truly only have ever found comfort in death as after all I believe it to be nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering, all I wish for is to never suffer in this existence again, in this existence so cruel and torturous death truly is the only relief for me. I only wish to be permanently unconscious where nothing can concern me and I cannot be harmed in any way, I only wish for permanent peace from all unnecessary suffering in this existence I just saw as a terrible mistake.

More than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I never suffered at all but now the suffering just continues all I can hope and wish for is death, to never exist again has been all I've ever wished for. I find so much comfort in an eternal sleep where nothing can matter to me, this existence is no longer my problem and all is forgotten about for me, I'll always see existence itself as the problem, I find it dreadful and undesirable to exist under all circumstances and I have so much dread for what lies ahead, all I personally hope for is non-existence as only then will this dreadful existence that just causes suffering is all gone for me. I just hope and wish to be unconscious of this existence, I just wish to be unaware of it all, only eternal sleep can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just fall asleep eternally and never suffer again as I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again. In an existence so cruel and pointless where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel I truly have only ever found comfort in death and as long as I exist I'll only be hoping for the relief that non-existence can bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just seeing existence as so undesirable in general.
Personally I'll always see existence as so undesirable no matter what, I just don't see value in being conscious and aware rather I see it as a burden having to wake again and experience anything at all, for me existence could never be worth it and I'd never wish for it, for me only non-existence is desirable. I just wish to cease existing and never think or feel anything again, I just don't have any interest in existence as well, it's something I never would have chose, I see existing as so futile and pointless, it's something I only wish for permanent peace from, all I've ever personally hoped for is an eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm no longer burdened with this existence, I'd never wish to be conscious no matter what.

To me existing is just waiting to die anyway and I'd rather cease existing than have to suffer in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable that I always saw as so unnecessary that there was never a need for, more than anything I wish I was never forced into existence, I wish I was never burdened with this existence, to be conscious at all will always be a dreadful, torturous burden to me that serves no function but to bring suffering, for me personally existence itself will always be the problem. I'd never wish for existence and I just see myself as not meant for it either rather existence just feels like a mistake to me, I wish I could just simply die in peace and never suffer ever again to finally escape from this deeply undesirable existence, I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all I've ever personally wished for and is all I'll hope for no matter what.

 

[isolatedl111]

Just ignore this, this is just a thread to write down how I feel, I don't want to upset anyone, I'm just suffering
1) I'm not meant for existing
This is the way I've always felt, I'm not meant for something as cruel, futile and torturous as having the ability to exist, human existence has always been such a burden to me, it's a terrible and harmful burden that causes nothing but me pain. It's always been a struggle existing as a conscious being destined to suffer endlessly with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, it's just not for me, I never should have existed at all and more than anything I wish I never did.

Only the peace that non-existence can bring appeals to me, I wish to die but only never existing is true perfection, it'd be such a relief for me to die as this existence I was never meant for just torments me and I find it so hellish how painless suicide methods aren't accessible for me. if I could die painlessly I'd be long gone from this existence I was never meant for, only death can bring me peace. In my case I wouldn't want to exist under any circumstance as what I have a problem with is existence itself, I'm just not meant for it and I find it tragic how I have to exist when instead I could be at peace for all eternity, my existence is just meaningless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, I'm not meant to suffer, I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness.

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[FuneralCry]

Non-existence solves everything for me.
Ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering in the first place, without existence one cannot be harmed in any way, cannot suffer and cannot feel any pain which is why non-existence is all I hope for. I only see being permanently unconscious as desirable, I only hope to never exist, think, feel and experience anything at all ever again, to me human existence just feels like a mistake that is so torturous and unnecessary just causing suffering for the sake of it and so much pain there was never a need for at all and what is so terrible is how it can easily get way more unbearable and torturous.

Personally I only wish for death as only when I no longer exist can none of this matter to me, I hope and wish for true eternal peace where this existence is finally no longer my problem and I'm free from this burden and I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what. Non-existence truly would solve what I see as the true problem, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than prolong the torment of existence, there's so much pain and cruelty in existing it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, I only wish to be unaware of it all which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just choose to simply cease existing in peace, I wish for a death like never waking again to solve everything for me and save me from all pointless suffering in an existence I never would have chose.