Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how painless death is denied.
I really do always suffer from how painless death is denied for me, I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never exist ever instead but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence just wishing and hoping for death, permanent non-existence truly is all that can bring me the relief I search for, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway and I see so much cruelty in how painless death is made inaccessible with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what until death takes away all anyway, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I'll always find it so dreadful to be conscious in this existence at all. I find it a burden to exist, to me existence itself really is a problem there was never a need for that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and I always suffer from how painless death is denied, there's just so much suffering in this unnecessary, torturous existence and it terrifies me how one can suffer for so long, all I hope for is to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all. I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, it's so horrific to me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I just hope to never exist ever again, I just want to forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for existence.
I really would never wish for existence, I'll always see it as an abomination to exist no matter what, the fact that this existence was even imposed is just so dreadful, cruel and futile to me, I'd never wish for the burden of existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist. I see existence as a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and I find it deeply undesirable to exist, I see nothing desirable about being conscious burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, only permanent non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can solve everything for me.

Only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just never wish for existence and all the harm and suffering it causes, I'll always find it so harmful to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and as well as that I just have no interest in existing either and I was never meant for this. Human existence really just does feel like a terrible tragic mistake to me and I see no point, benefit and value to prolonging the suffering of existing rather I just want all to be gone for me, nothing would make me wish for existence, I just want the peace of being permanently unconscious instead, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and existing to me just feels like only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can take away for me, I'll suffer until all is gone for me in death anyway, to never suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence is all I could hope for and is all I see as desirable. I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed is the most dreadful, cruel tragedy to me that just causes harm and I'd never wish to be conscious in this harmful, futile existence that just causes suffering.

To me existing really is just only suffering, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes, for me non-existence certainly is always preferable, it's all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, existence to me will always be an abomination, it's something that brings so much suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and to never suffer ever again is all that could bring me peace from this existence so torturous and unnecessary that I never would have chose. Nothing would make me wish for any of this, I really never should have been forced to suffer in this existence at all and I find it so dreadful how I was, I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, there certainly is so much suffering in existing and to never suffer ever again certainly is all I see as ideal, I just want all to finally be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for the pointless suffering of existing.
I really was never meant for the pointless suffering of existing and I really never should have suffered at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed is the most cruel, terrible tragedy to me, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish to never suffer ever again, I was just never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to be free from it all. I just want the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and I cannot suffer in any way but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence just waiting to die in this existence I was never meant for and no matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist.

I could personally never see any point, benefit or value to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence rather it all just feels like a mistake to me, existence was certainly a cruel mistake I was never meant for that I never would have chose, I find it a burden to be conscious of anything at all and I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes rather I just hope to be non-existent. I wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where I'm finally free from all pointless suffering and all is finally gone, to me existing will always be just suffering all for the sake if it and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again as non-existence is what I'm meant for, I'm only meant to be permanently at peace from all suffering.