Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Never having any interest in existence.
I really never have had any interest in existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence, for me existence truly could never be a desirable state rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid that I only hope for permanent relief from, nothing would make me wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer rather I just hope for non-existence. Non-existence is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace, I suffer so much because of the imposition of existence.

To me existing truly is just futile, unnecessary suffering that just leads to decay and death anyway and I'm just never meant for any of this and I've never had any interest in it, all I hope for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, I see nothing appealing about existence rather I see it as the most futile, undesirable burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes and brings suffering. I truly do always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, I could never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I just wish for peace from the unnecessary suffering of this torturous existence and I've never had any interest in suffering. I just hope for non-existence instead, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence I've never had any interest in where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

See so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I'll just see it as so dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me relief from. I always suffer so much how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly so I can finally escape from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, I always see it as the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, existence to me is the problem.

I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, all I hope for is to never wake ever again, all I wish for is a peaceful, guaranteed death where all is finally gone and forgotten about with no more cruelty, no more suffering, to me existence really is just an unnecessary harm and I'd never wish for any of this. I always suffer so much from how the option to die peacefully is so harmfully denied for me even know to me existing really is just waiting to die anyway and I never would have chosen any of this, I'd always prefer to cease existing to escape from all future unnecessary suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again with all finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering.
I truly am always so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be free from it, I'm always so tired and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me any relief from, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer but more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence at all. I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake, there's just so much cruelty, so much suffering in existing and I see it as all just so unnecessary, I just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace, I just wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where finally all is gone for me and I cannot suffer in any way.

I truly never should had suffered at all, I was just never meant for this cruel, harmful existence of unnecessary suffering that just causes existing beings to suffer all for the sake of it until all is finally gone for them in non-existence anyway, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all that can bring me peace from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that was so tragically imposed where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway. To me human existence really is the most torturous burden it all just feels like a mistake to me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I just want to never exist ever again, I'll always be so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering and I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy how it was imposed at all.