Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing non-existence as desirable.
No matter what I could personally only see non-existence as desirable and it's all that can bring me any peace and relief from suffering, all I personally hope for is to never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again and it just feels like I've suffered for so long, I'd just always prefer to not exist but of course the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence I never would had chosen.

I'd just never wish for the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing and I'll always see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I personally suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I'll just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence. To me existence truly is the most cruel, terrible burden and it's one only eternal non-existence can bring me relief from, I just wish for no more suffering and I personally suffer just from existing, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for as I'd just never wish to exist, nothing would make me wish for any of this and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, it's all so dreadful and cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will the suffering go away for me.
I truly will only be at peace from suffering in non-existence and to not exist is all I'll wish and hope for, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace.

I wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age, existing to me really is just suffering that is so unnecessary and I just want all to be forgotten for me, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I'm always so tired of suffering. Nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to sleep for all eternity, only in non-existence will all be gone for me which is why it's all I'll hope for, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering and I'll suffer until all is finally gone for me in non-existence, I only wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I could ever wish for.

 

[davidtorez]

Only in non-existence will the suffering go away for me.
I truly will only be at peace from suffering in non-existence and to not exist is all I'll wish and hope for, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace.

I wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age, existing to me really is just suffering that is so unnecessary and I just want all to be forgotten for me, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I'm always so tired of suffering. Nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to sleep for all eternity, only in non-existence will all be gone for me which is why it's all I'll hope for, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering and I'll suffer until all is finally gone for me in non-existence, I only wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I could ever wish for.

This would be my dream come true . Just to stop existing all of a sudden

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the most terrible tragedy.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy and it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it.

For me existence truly is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again and all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering, it's all just so dreadful to me how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I wish that more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I was never burdened with this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it. To not exist really is all I could hope and wish for, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence I always saw as the most dreadful, harmful tragedy and there's just so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just never should had been forced to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'd just never wish for this dreadful, painful existence that just torments existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring to prevent suffering.
No matter what I'd prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably and I'll always just see it as so dreadful and cruel how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway and I've only ever wished to permanently not exist, I personally see no value, benefit and point to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence rather I just want to cease existing and finally forget about it all, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I'd just always prefer to not exist.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is all I see as desirable, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone then this existence is no longer my concern, I just wish for permanent peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and I'll always see existing as just being only suffering. I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to exist, I wish I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence I personally saw as a mistake, dreamless eternal sleep really is the only peace for me and is all I could hope for, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'd just never wish for this painful existence, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this pain in existing and I'd just prefer to not suffer no matter what.

 

[Avril]

It's good to see you here @FuneralCry well I don't mean that in a negative way, more like I haven't seen a lot of SaSu OGs in a while, means I don't feel as lonely

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it horrifying how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence.
It really is so horrifying to me and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination that just causes so much harm until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer. For me only non-existence could ever be desirable, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer and no matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake.

It's terrifying to me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much they can be tortured and the thought of suffering until old age is just so unbearable and agonising to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten but of course I exist in this reality where the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what. I find it horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse torture and suffering, I truly never should have suffered at all and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing, to me existence itself truly is the ultimate problem and it's one only non-existence could ever take away for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this painful, cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I could wish for.
It truly is all I could wish for and I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just hope for this cruel, torturous existence that just caused all this harm and suffering to finally be all forgotten for me, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence. All I hope for is an eternal sleep free from pain and suffering, non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I only hope for non-existence and it's the only peace for me, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering and finally unable to suffer which is why it's all I wish for.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'd just never wish to be conscious of this existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather all I hope for is some peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, permanent non-existence truly is all I see as positive and desirable and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it. I'll always see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather I just want to rest, I only hope to sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am just so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I could ever hope and wish for is to fall asleep permanently and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again.

For me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again, I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering of existing really is endless, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace from all the suffering, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me with no more pain and no more problems. I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, ceasing to exist really is all that's inevitable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, I'm just so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and I'm just always so tired of it all, for me non-existence really is all I could hope for and is all I've ever wished for, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me was just never worth it.
It truly was never worth it to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile and torturous existence rather all I wish for is some peace, I just want to never exist ever again, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is all I hope for and is the only relief for me, I just wish to be permanently free from all the cruelty and suffering in this existence I personally saw as a mistake and for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable.

I just want some peace from all the suffering, I just hope and wish to be free from this existence and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'd personally just never wish to be burdened with this existence rather I just want to cease existing in peace, I just only hope for non-existence, non-existence truly is the only relief for me and would solve everything for me in this existence where I just hope and wait for death anyway. For me existence itself will always be the true problem and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, I just never saw existence as worth it rather I see it as so dreadful to exist, to me existence is so deeply undesirable in every way, I'll just always see existence as an unnecessary harm that just causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile to me.
It truly is so futile to me, I see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is to not exist, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I personally suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from and I truly would always prefer to not exist. I just see no point, benefit and value to being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just suffering, pain and problems there were just never a need for and it's all just for the sake of it.

I'll always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence that just caused all this harm and suffering was even imposed at all, I'll just always see existence as an imposition and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it where I suffer so unnecessarily just hoping to not exist. Non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I wish for, it's all that can bring me any relief from this existence and I'm just always so tired of suffering, I really would never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to never exist ever again, I'd never wish for this futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, no matter what I'd just prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous existence and I personally suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can ever bring me relief from. Existence to me really does feel like the most terrible mistake that just causes harm and suffering and I'd personally just always prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably and it's all so dreadful and terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I'd just never wish for any of this and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer.

I just find it so horrific how there's all this suffering, cruelty and torture in existing and I personally only hope to not exist as after all only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering and at peace from this torturous, harmful existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen. I just wish I was never forced to suffer and it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, in fact the suffering this existence causes is endless and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace so finally I can be at peace from all the suffering, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always and only wished for eternal sleep.
I truly have always and only wished for eternal sleep, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally forgotten and I'd just never wish for this torturous, painful existence rather all I hope for is some peace. I just want to never suffer ever again and I just see it as so dreadful and terrible how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it in existing, eternal sleep really would solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I'm just so tired of suffering and as long as I exist I'll always feel so tired, non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I personally see as desirable.

I wish for no more suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this cruel existence and there's just so much cruelty in existing, for me non-existence truly is all I hope for and is all I could wish for, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to sleep permanently. I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again so finally I can be at peace from this torturous unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want some peace, I just wish and hope to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the most terrible mistake.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence and I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to exist no matter what and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer.

I wish I was never burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is only suffering, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd just never wish for the mistake of existence and I see it as so dreadful to be forced to suffer in this existence, for me existence truly is the problem and as long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me and I'd just always prefer to not exist. For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is all I see as desirable, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be unconscious, I'd never wish for this harmful torturous existence and the way I see it existence truly does just cause harm and suffering, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing, I'll always see existing as only being suffering no matter what and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It truly does cause so much harm until all is forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this cruel, torturous and harmful existence I personally saw as a mistake, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this pain and cruelty in existing and I just wish that more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer. I see it as so harmful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just suffering cruelty and torture all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd always prefer non-existence over suffering.

For me non-existence is the only peace and relief from this existence so cruel and painful that I just never would had chosen, I'll always see existence as just causing harm, to me existence truly is just an unnecessary harm that causes and brings so much suffering until all is finally gone and forgotten in non existence anyway and it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me. I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and it's one so harmful that just causes so much pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this futile existence all for the sake of it where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief from this existence that only caused me to suffer that I just never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just waiting for death.
No matter what I really will just always see existing as waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway and it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is the peace of non-existence. I just want to never suffer ever again, non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this cruel, torturous existence where I just hope and wait for death anyway and I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden only eternal non-existence can bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem, to me existing is just so futile, so unneccessary, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering of existing really is endless. I just wish I was never burdened with this torturous, futile existence of suffering that I always saw as so unnecessary, for me existence really is the problem and I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence where I suffer all for the sake of it, I just want the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to not exist anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for eternal sleep.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is dreamless, eternal sleep, I just want to never exist ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently so finally I can escape from the pain and suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence I always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for non-existence.

I just want all to finally be gone for me, I'll always see existence itself as the problem that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist, for me the only peace really could ever lie in eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and this existence is no longer my problem. I'd just never wish for the torturous, unnecessary burden of existence rather I just want to sleep and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want some peace and I'll just always find it so painful to be burdened with this cruel existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, non-existence really is all that can bring me the relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and as long as I exist I really will just wish to sleep, I wish for no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered in this cruel, futile existence I never would have chosen for so long, I just want to sleep, I just want to rest.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
I truly do find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, futile existence just to face the suffering and torture of old age and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is non-existence, to permanently cease existing really is all I see as desirable and is all I'll hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again and no matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, I'd just never wish to exist rather all I hope and wish for is non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want this cruel, torturous existence to finally be all forgotten for me.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and I see existing as being only suffering, I personally suffer just from existing and I'll always see it as so painful and dreadful to exist. It's so terrible to me how there's all this pain in existing, existence itself to me really is the true problem and is something only non-existence can bring me peace from. It's just so horrific to me how there's all this endless suffering in existing and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of cruelty and suffering was even imposed, I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how torturous it can all get, it truly is so cruel and terrible to me and there's just so much suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I truly do always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me but of course all the suffering of this futile, torturous existence just continues, I'd never wish for any of this and to me existence really is the problem, it's one only non-existence can solve for me and bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I just want peace from the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to die in agony tortured by old age and the suffering of existing is endless, it's all just so terrible to me, the way I see it existence really does just cause suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I just want to disappear from it all. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to never exist ever again, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would had chosen and existing to me really is only suffering, it feels like I've suffered for so long and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace from all the suffering, I truly am so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from

 

[FuneralCry]

To be at peace is all I hope for.
All I've ever wished and hoped for is some peace, I just want to never exist ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it really is so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again. I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone, I'll just always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's one that causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it.

For me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all I personally see as desirable, peace for me could only lie in being finally free from this torturous existence that I just never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to never suffer ever again. I just want to be at peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where finally I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden that only ever caused me to suffer and I'm so tired of suffering in this existence. I'd personally just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to rest, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being trapped in this existence.
I truly do always suffer from being trapped in this cruel, torturous existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again so finally I can escape from this existence that was so tragically imposed.

For me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I personally see as desirable, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want peace and relief from it all, I just want to never exist ever again, in this torturous existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty non-existence really is all I could wish for and I'd always prefer to not exist, for me non existence really would solve everything, I just want peace from this existence I personally always saw as a mistake. It's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it in existing and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway. For me existence truly is the problem and I suffer simply from being conscious in this futile unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I only hope and wish to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing it as so tragic how this existence was imposed.
No matter what I'll always see it as so tragic how this existence was imposed, to me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy and it's one that causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep permanently.

I'll wish for no more pain and no more suffering but of course more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just never should had been imposed at all and it's so dreadful to me how it was, I just wish I never existed, I'll always see it as the most cruel, futile burden to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace from, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want all to finally be gone for me. I'll personally always see existence as the problem and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal non-existence could ever bring me peace and relief from, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, to me existence really is the most terrible tragedy and it's one I just never would had chosen, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather all I want is peace from all the suffering. I wish that I was never burdened with this existence and it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather I wish I never existed, I'd always prefer to stay unconscious and unaware of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

The only relief for me could only lie in never existing ever again.
It truly is the only relief for me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for peace from the suffering and cruelty in this futile, torturous existence, I only want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I'll personally always see non-existence as the only relief and it's all I'll hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist.

More than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather all I hope for is to not exist. For me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I see as desirable, I'm just so tired of existing and it's tiredness only eternal dreamless sleep can take away for me, all I want is to never wake ever again. I just wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this dreadful existence that was so tragically imposed that I personally always saw as a mistake, I just wish I never suffered but as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this futile torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I find it so terrifying and horrific how a human can exist for so long in this cruel, torturous existence with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway and it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

I personally suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death as I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish this existence was never imposed, to me existence is just so cruel, so painful and unnecessary and I suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for some peace. I just want all to finally be forgotten for me but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing continues, it truly is all so terrible to me and I never should had been burdened with this existence, I'll personally always see existence as the problem and it's one that causes abd brings endless amounts of suffering until all is finally gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway, existing to me is just so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing as the peace of non-existence really is all I hope and wish for, I just want all to finally be gone for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, non-existence really is all I see as desirable and as long as I exist I'll only wish to sleep permanently.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, for me the only relief really could only lie in eternal sleep and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel non-existence really is all I could hope for and I see so much cruelty in how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards the personal choice to permanently cease existing as I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and to me existing really is only suffering. I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief from this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die to me as after all, all will be gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway someday and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I can hope for in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existing as suffering all for the sake of it.

It's suffering just so cruel and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather I'd always prefer to not exist, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful, guaranteed death is so harmfully denied for me even know this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was so tragically imposed. I'd just never wish for any of this and I wish I never suffered at all, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this suffering and I find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway. To me existing really is so futile, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is to sleep permanently, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to be burdened with this torturous, futile existence.
No matter what I'd just never wish to be burdened with this torturous, futile existence rather I only hope for non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than be conscious burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace.

I suffer just from being burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for the burden of existence rather all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief from this existence I personally always saw as such a terrible mistake, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer just from existing, nothing would ever make me wish for this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and as long as I exist I'll only wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering. For me non-existence truly is all that's positive and desirable and is all I've ever wished for, I just wish this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was never imposed, non-existence really is all I could ever wish for and I'll always see existence as the problem, I'll always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence so unnecessarily and for me non-existence really is the only relief, it's all I could ever hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be forgotten for me.
All I wish and hope is for all to finally be forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to be unconscious for all eternity, for me dreamless eternal sleep truly is the only peace from this deeply undesirable torturous existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence as non-existence truly is all that's positive for me.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I wish for is to rest, I just want all to be gone for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again as I'm just so tired of suffering in this torturous, cruel existence that I just never would had chosen and would had never wished for, for me existence really could never be worth it rather it's just something I want to forget about. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, in an existence so cruel, futile and torturous that was so tragically imposed eternal sleep really is the only peace for me and is all I could ever see as desirable, I just want all to finally be all gone and forgotten, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've existed for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered in this existence for so long and I really would just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to never exist ever again, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how this existence that caused all this harm and brought all this cruelty and suffering was so tragically imposed and I'd just never wish for the imposition of existence rather all I wish for is some peace.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, for me existence truly is the problem and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this futile existence where it feels like I've suffered for so long, for me existence is something so undesirable and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as a mistake. As long as I exist I'll just wish for peace from all the suffering, I just hope to never exist ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long in this futile, torturous existence just to face even more pain and suffering, it really is all just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, existing to me will always be only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish for this painful, torturous existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence itself as an unnecessary harm.
No matter what I'll always see existence itself as an unnecessary harm and it's one that just causes and brings all this cruelty and suffering until all is finally gone and forgotten in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only permanent non-existence could ever bring me the peace from this existence I search for.

I'll personally always see existence as the most harmful, dreadful mistake, it's all just so terrible to me and I personally suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, existence itself really will always be the true problem to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always find it so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence. I'm just so tired of suffering and I'd never wish for the suffering of this harmful existence rather I wish I never suffered at all and I see so much cruelty in how painless death is so harmfully denied for me even know this existence of unnecessary suffering was so tragically imposed and I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy to exist I wish I never had to suffer. It's just so terrible to me how existence causes all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief from this existence that just causes all this harm, I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope and wish for peace from all the suffering.