Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always find it an abomination to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, cruel and futile existence more than anything, in this existence so dreadful non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of the dreadful, terrible abomination of existence, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for this abomination rather all I hope for is to never suffer again, I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep where this existence is all gone and forgotten, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible to me.
It really is all so terrible to me and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile and torturous existence more than anything, all I want is to be gone, I just wish and hope for peace from all the suffering.

All I want is to never exist again with this dreadful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence finally all forgotten and I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, it's one only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of the dreadful abomination of existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this futile existence that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is just cause suffering.
It truly does just cause and bring so much futile unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence.

To me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this, in this existence so cruel for me only an eternal sleep could ever be desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from and as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope to never suffer again, I just wish for non-existence to bring me the relief I search for from the terrible, dreadful abomination of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of non-existence is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous and futile existence more than anything, in this existence so cruel non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable.

All I wish and hope for is to never suffer again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence, all I want is some peace and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally escape from the suffering of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause and bring harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and harmful existence I always saw as a mistake.

In this existence so dreadful with no limit as to how much agony one can feel non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I could hope for in this harmful existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering, as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this torturous existence I just never would had chosen that only caused harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence always feels like a mistake to me.
It truly does always feel like a mistake to me and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I hope for in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so dreadful to me and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is to be gone, I just wish to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence that I just never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer so much as a result of existing.

 

[snooperdooper]

I don't wish to push it further than wondering, but you have to wonder who funeral cry is. I've never seen such a devotion to wanting to CTB, with such an inability to do so. 5 years and 44k posts and they're still here with us, in immense suffering. They're just such an intriguing figure to me. Wish them the best

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as just waiting for death.
No matter what I really will always see existing as waiting for death and I wish I never suffered more than anything in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake that to me is just waiting to die.

I could never see a point to any of this, it's all just so futile, I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never exist again with this dreadful existence I never would had chosen finally all forgotten, for me existence truly is the problem. I'm always so tired of it, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for peace from all the pain and suffering, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible to me.
I really will always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this torturous existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer again, I'll just always find it so terrible to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for peace.
No matter what all I could hope for is peace, I just want to never suffer again with this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can ever bring me peace from, all I wish for is to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and as long as I exist I really will only hope and wish to be gone, all I want is to never suffer again with this torturous, cruel and futile existence finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so dreadful and terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from the abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only relief, only non-existence can solve and take away what I always see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I could see as desirable.
It truly is all I could see as desirable and is all I hope for in this existence of endless cruelty and suffering and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this dreadful, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I could ever wish for.

I just want to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief, all I want is to never suffer ever again and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, for me existence really is the problem which is why all I want is to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
It truly is so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, painful and deeply undesirable existence more than anything, in this existence so cruel and dreadful non-existence really is just the only peace for me and is all I could hope for.

I just want to never suffer again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be in peace in non-existence where all is finally forgotten, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence and I suffer simply from existing, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I could hope for in this existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It really will always be only suffering to me and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel, terrible and dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so torturous and futile only non-existence can bring me peace.

All I hope and wish for is to never suffer again but of course all the suffering just continues and I'm always so tired of suffering, all I wish for is to be gone, I just wish to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, cruel and futile existence I just never would had chosen that I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, all I see as desirable is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It truly does just cause so much harm torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep where this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this futile unnecessary suffering as a result and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me, I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this deeply undesirable, cruel and torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so undesirable to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so undesirable to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so cruel non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I could hope for.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer again with this deeply undesirable existence all forgotten.

I'll always see it as an abomination to exist and I just wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I truly never should had suffered in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me, all I want is to be gone from it all, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this torturous, cruel existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the abomination of existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer again.

I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I hope for is to be gone, I just wish for peace from the terrible, torturous burden of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious with this torturous, futile existence finally no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope to never suffer again.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never suffer again with this dreadful, torturous existence all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist ever again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be in peace in non-existence, all I hope for is some peace, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence more than anything, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again with this deeply undesirable, cruel and painful existence all forgotten.

I'll always see it as an abomination to exist and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope to not exist, only non-existence is positive for me and is all that can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and there's just so much suffering in this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing peace as desirable.
No matter what I really could only see the peace of non-existence as desirable and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the terrible, dreadful abomination of existence and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

For me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope and wish to be gone, I just wish to never suffer again with this dreadful, cruel and futile existence all gone and forgotten and there's just so much suffering in this deeply undesirable existence it's all so terrible to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never exist again.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never exist again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this dreadful, torturous existence is finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel and terrible to me and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered, I wish for no more suffering, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing again, I'd just never wish for this existence that just causes so much futile suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I see as positive.
It truly is all I see as positive and is all I can hope for in this dreadful, futile existence where there is all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope for peace.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful and torturous that I always saw as a mistake and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be free from it all, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this existence as only suffering, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, for me non-existence really is all I could see as positive and is all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so undesirable to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so undesirable to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence more than anything, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering.

I'd never wish for any of this and I was never meant for it either, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result, for me only non-existence could ever be desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this dreadful, cruel existence as only suffering no matter what, it's all so terrible to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, dreadful and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, there's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I want is to be gone, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase this torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the abomination of existence.
No matter what I really would just never wish for the abomination of existence and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, all I want is some peace.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to die, for me non-existence really is the only relief, I'd just never wish for this cruel, futile and deeply undesirable existence rather all I want is to never suffer again and I'll always see it as the most dreadful abomination to exist, all I want is peace from it all, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hope and wish to erase this existence.
I truly do always hope and wish to erase this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this torturous, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence at all but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone from it all.

I just hope and wish to never exist again with no more pain and no more suffering, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so terrible and dreadful and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I always and only hope and wish to erase this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I just find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing.

I truly would never wish for any of this rather all I hope and wish for is to never wake ever again, in this existence I'm always so tired of I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of existence.
I truly do always suffer as a result of existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, in this existence so cruel, dreadful and torturous non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is the only relief for me which is why I suffer from how I cannot have the option to cease existing peacefully that is guaranteed to finally escape from the torturous, dreadful and cruel abomination of existence.

I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so torturous to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again, I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused and brought so much pain, cruelty and suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all that's desirable for me.
It truly is all that's desirable for me and is all I could ever wish for, I just wish to be free from this cruel, torturous existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

I always suffer so much as a result of existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to never exist again, I just hope and wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake that just caused and brought so much cruelty, harm and suffering.