
Logidy
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- Dec 23, 2018
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Met a girl on a trip last summer, didn't talk to her once, asked her for her number on instagram later on. Obviously got rejected. Thing is I can't get her out of my head and already drunk messaged her more than once few months ago. Talked to her friend and told her I'm suicidal and that she (the girl) is keeping me alive in hopes something is gonna work out.
Few days later I got unfollowed by her and blocked. Very trustworthy of hers I talked to it seems. Was really fucking tough to deal with.
Maybe 1-2 weeks after I met another girl. Thought to myself: "Hey, maybe that is why I got rejected" and was pretty optimistic because I got her number. (realised then that getting someones numbers also clearly doesn't mean anything, since you also make friends that way I'd imagine) Fast forward though, that girl is by now kind of going out with my "best friend" that couldn't tell me somethings going on between them ever since I talked to him about liking her. Started smoking because of her aswell lmao. So I could be like "hey, wanna go out for a smoke?"
Since then everything went to shit again in my head. Still can't get over the first girl. I'd like to blame it on Limerence but maybe I'm just fucking sick in the head. Well I am, but you know, not like that.
At least I'm not self harming anymore, so that's that. Just smoking if I have the urge now. Only downside is that I also smoke when I don't have the urge, but then again maybe it's a positive because I might develop terminal cancer.
Knowing my luck though, I'll get cancer after I've sorted life out and maybe found love.
Cheers
EDIT: Regarding to some replies here, I'm sorry if I offended anyone by mentioning my problems + will remember to not post it in the wrong section.
and please for the love of god consider where you should or shouldn't be taking the piss
Few days later I got unfollowed by her and blocked. Very trustworthy of hers I talked to it seems. Was really fucking tough to deal with.
Maybe 1-2 weeks after I met another girl. Thought to myself: "Hey, maybe that is why I got rejected" and was pretty optimistic because I got her number. (realised then that getting someones numbers also clearly doesn't mean anything, since you also make friends that way I'd imagine) Fast forward though, that girl is by now kind of going out with my "best friend" that couldn't tell me somethings going on between them ever since I talked to him about liking her. Started smoking because of her aswell lmao. So I could be like "hey, wanna go out for a smoke?"
Since then everything went to shit again in my head. Still can't get over the first girl. I'd like to blame it on Limerence but maybe I'm just fucking sick in the head. Well I am, but you know, not like that.
At least I'm not self harming anymore, so that's that. Just smoking if I have the urge now. Only downside is that I also smoke when I don't have the urge, but then again maybe it's a positive because I might develop terminal cancer.
Knowing my luck though, I'll get cancer after I've sorted life out and maybe found love.
Cheers
EDIT: Regarding to some replies here, I'm sorry if I offended anyone by mentioning my problems + will remember to not post it in the wrong section.
and please for the love of god consider where you should or shouldn't be taking the piss
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