Good enough reason for suicide?

[Lrdhlpme]

So this is why i am here. I Had a mental breakdown which was recorded and is being shared with my nude pictures by people I thought were friends who then outed me as bi. I am getting sued for over 100,000 grand and my solicitor just told me I will lose my case if it goes to trial. I am 23 and just passed my final year in college after studying night and day for 4 year But after this court case I will never work in my field and be on minimum wage for the rest of my life. No is talking to me after all this and my gf is now my ex-gf. I went to the doctor after all this who said I've probably had undiagnosed depression for the last few years.

 

[Smilla]

So this is why i am here. I Had a mental breakdown which was recorded and is being shared with my nude pictures by people I thought were friends who then outed me as bi. I am getting sued for over 100,000 grand and my solicitor just told me I will lose my case if it goes to trial. I am 23 and just passed my final year in college after studying night and day for 4 year But after this court case I will never work in my field and be on minimum wage for the rest of my life. No is talking to me after all this and my gf is now my ex-gf. I went to the doctor after all this who said I've probably had undiagnosed depression for the last few years.

Why can't you work in your profession? Civil lawsuits are much different then criminal prosecution. Doctors get sued left and right in the US for often frivolous reasons and typically they don't lose their careers. Besides, where is the 100k going to come from? That's a lot of money for a 23 year old to have.

Anyway sorry this happened to you, and at such a young age.

 

[ge0rge]

fuck me sideways, this sounds hideous. why are they suing you when you are the one whose pictures have been illegally distributed??

 

[Lrdhlpme]

I was an idiot and used someone else's face on a gay app for a mouth, I saw how much of an asshole thing that was so I stopped and asked for his forgiveness, he threw a glass at my head which narrowly missed before being pulled from the bar to which my mental breakdown began and people started recording it.. which means it will probably be played in court and used against me. He's suing for defamation which in my country we're talking big big money.. I was black out drunk during the apology and didn't remember anything, the next day i went on the dating website and sent explicit picture but none include a face picture, turns out I was unknowingly sending pictures and talking to them. They can now create as much evidence as they need using my nude pictures. So yea I'm an asshole and I guess this is karma but I don't think I'll survive to court which could be a year plus away

 

[Griffiths]

what kind of mental breakdown did you have? Mania or something like this? I had one too, but fortunately no one is suing me, althoug some people could if they wanted to. That's a shame dude, but I can relate to your situation. What is your professional area?

 

[6477244ts5]

You don't need a "good enough reason" in the minds of everyone else to stop living. It's entirely your life and choice. My barometer has always been "is this problem even potentially solvable and can I live with any realistic outcome". In my present situation the answer is "no" and has been for a while. I also lived by the "I can always kill myself tomorrow" attitude when I wasn't sure and still think that way if I am having a better day or have some small hope that occurs since while I don't believe it can improve realistically, I still WANT it to. I also think "acute suicide" where its done out of immediate emotional distress is not as sensible as long term considered situations since the former is often temporary. But again...everyone's life is their choice and you don't need to be sensible if you don't want.

So while the situation sounds grim right now, I'd ride it out and see what the outcome is. It's not certain and possible it turns around in your favor. If your fears are proven...then you can rexamine.

 

[Tiburcio]

You don't need a "good enough reason" in the minds of everyone else to stop living. It's entirely your life and choice. My barometer has always been "is this problem even potentially solvable and can I live with any realistic outcome". In my present situation the answer is "no" and has been for a while. I also lived by the "I can always kill myself tomorrow" attitude when I wasn't sure. I also think "acute suicide" where its done out of immediate emotional distress is not as sensible as long term considered situations since the former is often temporary. But again...everyone's life is their choice.

So while the situation sounds grim right now, I'd ride it out and see what the outcome is. It's not certain and possible it turns around in your favor. If your fears are proven...then you can rexamine.

As he said, you have the choice. No reason is wrong. Choosing is not wrong.

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Electrical and intrumental technician, only one college in the country running the coarse and we're in the same class so I image this story will turn into a legend for future classes, haha

 

[ge0rge]

people once again proving that Grindr is a hellapp and that gay dating apps in general are of the devil

this is all horrendous, I'm so sorry. how have you been coping?

 

[creatureoflight]

It was douchey of you.
But you can always change degrees, or work in something else and who knows whether he will get the 100k.
So everyone will know that you have a dick.Big deal!!
Try to ride it out and get a good lawyer.
What country?

 

[Lrdhlpme]

people once again proving that Grindr is a hellapp and that gay dating apps in general are of the devil

this is all horrendous, I'm so sorry. how have you been coping?

Only thing keeping me going is planning my suicide

 

[creatureoflight]

Only thing keeping me going is planning my suicide

But you don't know how court will go.
Maybe it will all go away.
You seem pretty smart and talented and healthy.
Do not throw away your life.
I would love to be you!

 

[ge0rge]

Only thing keeping me going is planning my suicide

from one suicidal gay to a suicidal bisexual, I feel you.

did the undiagnosed depression begin before this event? it's not very clear

 

[Lrdhlpme]

from one suicidal gay to a suicidal bisexual, I feel you.

did the undiagnosed depression begin before this event? it's not very clear

Yea I've been depressed since I was like 13 tbh I just thought it was normal

 

[Lrdhlpme]

I have 20,000 in savings at the moment (was planning on travelling with it but not anymore :P) if I make it to court and the prosecution is fair and doesn't try say I did stuff I didn't then is will give it to him before I commit suicide. If they try to add on stuff I didn't do to destroy me even more then I will take the cash out of my bank and burn it before I die. Sounds very vindictive when I say it out loud

 

[Lrdhlpme]

I have 20,000 in savings at the moment (was planning on travelling with it but not anymore :P) if I make it to court and the prosecution is fair and doesn't try say I did stuff I didn't then is will give it to him before I commit suicide. If they try to add on stuff I didn't do to destroy me even more then I will take the cash out of my bank and burn it before I die. Sounds very vindictive when I say it out loud

Yea maybe I won't do this, either way I was an asshole and he deserves at least my 20,000 before I do it, that's also the reason I haven't ctb'ed yet

 

[itsallover]

Go online and watch the documentary about Aaron Schwartz. He was a programming wizard facing decades in jail because his programs cost the rich a lot of money. He killed himself during his late twenties. I would have done the same exact thing. I would be scarred shitless to become heavily involved in the judiciary system especially in America. I don't know where you are from but over here you do one thing wrong and come out with like a hundred different charges. If I was looking at a long time in prison, where I am sure to get beat up and raped then yeah I would off myself sorry to say.

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Go online and watch the documentary about Aaron Schwartz. He was a programming wizard facing decades in jail because his programs cost the rich a lot of money. He killed himself during his late twenties. I would have done the same exact thing. I would be scarred shitless to become heavily involved in the judiciary system especially in America. I don't know where you are from but over here you do one thing wrong and come out with like a hundred different charges. If I was looking at a long time in prison, where I am sure to get beat up and raped then yeah I would off myself sorry to say.

It's been two months since all this happened and I know he went to cops next day, I never heard from them so guessing they have nothing criminal on me because they would have brought me in for questioning and charge me

 

[Lrdhlpme]

After the apology he threw a pint glass at me that just missed my head, all I can think is if it had hit me then he would have had revenge and I would have enough leverage that if he went after me In court I could threat assault charges to make it go away, if only :/

 

[Lrdhlpme]

You don't need a "good enough reason" in the minds of everyone else to stop living. It's entirely your life and choice. My barometer has always been "is this problem even potentially solvable and can I live with any realistic outcome". In my present situation the answer is "no" and has been for a while. I also lived by the "I can always kill myself tomorrow" attitude when I wasn't sure and still think that way if I am having a better day or have some small hope that occurs since while I don't believe it can improve realistically, I still WANT it to. I also think "acute suicide" where its done out of immediate emotional distress is not as sensible as long term considered situations since the former is often temporary. But again...everyone's life is their choice and you don't need to be sensible if you don't want.

So while the situation sounds grim right now, I'd ride it out and see what the outcome is. It's not certain and possible it turns around in your favor. If your fears are proven...then you can rexamine.

My thinking is that I semi save my family's name, can't get sued if I'm dead :p, lots of people know about it but once court is done the guy suing me was talking to people about getting tabloid papers involved etc and everyone in the country will know

 

[nasblue]

So this is why i am here. I Had a mental breakdown which was recorded and is being shared with my nude pictures by people I thought were friends who then outed me as bi. I am getting sued for over 100,000 grand and my solicitor just told me I will lose my case if it goes to trial. I am 23 and just passed my final year in college after studying night and day for 4 year But after this court case I will never work in my field and be on minimum wage for the rest of my life. No is talking to me after all this and my gf is now my ex-gf. I went to the doctor after all this who said I've probably had undiagnosed depression for the last few years.

You really don't need a reason to commit suicide. Nobody expects you to provide a reason why you were born (other than the biological). So they can't expect any reason for your death (except the biological)

 

[Tomasnil]

So this is why i am here. I Had a mental breakdown which was recorded and is being shared with my nude pictures by people I thought were friends who then outed me as bi. I am getting sued for over 100,000 grand and my solicitor just told me I will lose my case if it goes to trial. I am 23 and just passed my final year in college after studying night and day for 4 year But after this court case I will never work in my field and be on minimum wage for the rest of my life. No is talking to me after all this and my gf is now my ex-gf. I went to the doctor after all this who said I've probably had undiagnosed depression for the last few years.

Thats really up to you to decide.
No one can say how you feel about your finacial situation.
100000usd is just money if you want there is always a way to figure it out.
On the other side 100000usd in cash in your hand earned honest is something most people will never see. If that was MY only reason to ctb i wouldnt care. You could almost buy a decent car for that

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Thats really up to you to decide.
No one can say how you feel about your finacial situation.
100000usd is just money if you want there is always a way to figure it out.
On the other side 100000usd in cash in your hand earned honest is something most people will never see. If that was MY only reason to ctb i wouldnt care. You could almost buy a decent car for that

If I manage to get a job in my field I'd get 100000 in a couple of year but I probably won't be able to get a job with my reputation, that's my main reason I care more about the way people see me after this, nobody's gonna trust me and I'm afraid everyone will look at me the way they did the night I apologised. During my breakdown I said I had been suicidal in the passed and one of them gave me tips on killing myself

 

[Tomasnil]

If I manage to get a job in my field I'd get 100000 in a couple of year but I probably won't be able to get a job with my reputation, that's my main reason I care more about the way people see me after this, nobody's gonna trust me and I'm afraid everyone will look at me the way they did the night I apologised. During my breakdown I said I had been suicidal in the passed and one of them gave me tips on killing myself

So its really not the money its what people think of you ???

 

[Lrdhlpme]

So its really not the money its what people think of you ???

Yea basically, before this I was a nice quite harmless guy, now I'm seen as the creepy weirdo asshole and once court is done it will be immortalised in the papers, even if I go to a different country to start again, one Google search and everyone knows

 

[Jon86]

Sounds like a terrible situation but also one that would ease considerably with time. You could always change your name and move. The choice is only yours to decide.

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Sounds like a terrible situation but also one that would ease considerably with time. You could always change your name and move. The choice is only yours to decide.

I was thinking something like that too but I'm not sure if I'd be aloud change my name legally just to escape my mistakes, I'm going to ask my solicitor next time I see him

 

[Lrdhlpme]

What annoys me a lot is I can't be mad at anyone but myself, I single handedly destroyed everything i haf and I can't help but think it's all kinda poetic really

 

[misanthrope1]

Its all up to you, reasons dont matter. For me, i hate every fiber of my being, i hate everything about my life. This mental anguish is enough reason for me to end it.

 

[Tomasnil]

What annoys me a lot is I can't be mad at anyone but myself, I single handedly destroyed everything i haf and I can't help but think it's all kinda poetic really

Welcome to the club
So have I