sadAndLost
Member
- Dec 9, 2024
- 17
I went to a top 10 engineering school in france,
being from Algeria, this is a like climbing up the ladder super fast. I got to the 3rd year by studying like a madman.
Instead of sending me enough money, my father lost all the money in his farming delusions. (lost a lot of money in farming tomatos,...)
I could've been an engineer by now, but he let me down when I needed him the most.
I got raped in France the 13th july 2017 near the gare saint charles of marseille (20 min max from there by car, the police didn't find the guy, as I forgot the exact path to his home it was dark and I was sleepy), and it consumed my soul ever since. As a man, being raped by another man at gun point, I let you imagine all the trauma it caused.
My father doesn't seem to believe that I have a depression so big and deep that I can't study anymore.
He still wants me to get a computer science degree here in Algeria where I get bullied (I went back home to my parent's house because of this depression)
Now, I told him let me work with you as a farmer, he almost got a heart attack, telling me I need to have a degree ( maybe he's right, but I don't have the energy to study anymore)
I have no other option than cbt.
I will go to the forest nearby, and hang myselft (full suspension) to a tree I chose a long time ago.
No one can see me from there, death is certain.
Goodbye cruel world that raped me, that bullied me in this new school in Algeria, that stepped on me my whole life. I'm now 28 with no future.
I could've been an engineer, I worked my ass off to get there. To succeed. But I guess some people are destined to fail.
Goodbye world.
being from Algeria, this is a like climbing up the ladder super fast. I got to the 3rd year by studying like a madman.
Instead of sending me enough money, my father lost all the money in his farming delusions. (lost a lot of money in farming tomatos,...)
I could've been an engineer by now, but he let me down when I needed him the most.
I got raped in France the 13th july 2017 near the gare saint charles of marseille (20 min max from there by car, the police didn't find the guy, as I forgot the exact path to his home it was dark and I was sleepy), and it consumed my soul ever since. As a man, being raped by another man at gun point, I let you imagine all the trauma it caused.
My father doesn't seem to believe that I have a depression so big and deep that I can't study anymore.
He still wants me to get a computer science degree here in Algeria where I get bullied (I went back home to my parent's house because of this depression)
Now, I told him let me work with you as a farmer, he almost got a heart attack, telling me I need to have a degree ( maybe he's right, but I don't have the energy to study anymore)
I have no other option than cbt.
I will go to the forest nearby, and hang myselft (full suspension) to a tree I chose a long time ago.
No one can see me from there, death is certain.
Goodbye cruel world that raped me, that bullied me in this new school in Algeria, that stepped on me my whole life. I'm now 28 with no future.
I could've been an engineer, I worked my ass off to get there. To succeed. But I guess some people are destined to fail.
Goodbye world.
