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cylus46

cylus46

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Jan 28, 2025
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I been on the verge of ctb for a while now. But I had surgery last week and suddenly this week just got the urge to do things to better my life. I cleaned my room, I didn't self harm, I didn't think bad thoughts. I even finished my college application.
But it came back rejected. I didn't know what else I was expecting. It's okay though, it just made me realize why I don't try to better myself or my life anymore.
I can't wait to ctb
I just need to educate myself on methods and finally I get to end this sad saga that's my miserable, good for nothing life.
 
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Linda

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Are there other colleges you could apply to?
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

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Right. Apply somewhere else.
 
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suacide

suacide

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Sep 13, 2023
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If there any more colleges, you could try sending out more before committing to it. You having nothing to lose from it.
 
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WakingNightmare

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You should be able to keep most of the application the same if you used it for a few places right?
 
usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
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I been on the verge of ctb for a while now. But I had surgery last week and suddenly this week just got the urge to do things to better my life. I cleaned my room, I didn't self harm, I didn't think bad thoughts. I even finished my college application.
But it came back rejected. I didn't know what else I was expecting. It's okay though, it just made me realize why I don't try to better myself or my life anymore.
I can't wait to ctb
I just need to educate myself on methods and finally I get to end this sad saga that's my miserable, good for nothing life.
I'm sure you wanted to go to this college for a reason. So I'm sorry you didn't get in. I know looking at other options probably isn't what you want, but as others have said, are there any other colleges you can apply to?

Also if you don't mind answering, what were you going to college for? Ive wanted to go for accounting since I was a senior in highschool. I just couldn't because the student loans would be too much for me to pay back. I'm planning on going to wgu, they have a lot of programs and it's really cheap. Maybe you could give them a look?
 
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ThatStateOfMind

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Nov 13, 2021
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You could possibly try a community college? They are a good option. You could possibly consider another university as well, if you're open to it.

I'm planning on going to wgu, they have a lot of programs and it's really cheap. Maybe you could give them a look?
I've heard good things about WGU and I also considered it. This could work for you as well, OP, if you're open to online schooling!
 
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cylus46

cylus46

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Right. Apply somewhere else.
I can its just I was already in a slump in my life and was ready to end it before my application. I guess the application just gave me a bit of hope at something better but now that it was just false hope I don't really have the will to try again anymore :)
 
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locked*n*loaded

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I can its just I was already in a slump in my life and was ready to end it before my application. I guess the application just gave me a bit of hope at something better but now that it was just false hope I don't really have the will to try again anymore :)
I can understand that. Your bubble's been burst. Maybe give it a little time, regroup, and you'll get enough "will" back to give it another shot.
 
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cylus46

cylus46

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I can understand that. Your bubble's been burst. Maybe give it a little time, regroup, and you'll get enough "will" back to give it another shot.
Maybe. I have a few methods laid out but I'll probably bitch out. I've had worse shit haopen to me and it didn't give me the balls to finish the job already.
 
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EvisceratedJester

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Oct 21, 2023
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Did you only apply to one college? Getting rejected is normal (a lot of people experience it when applying to college/university) and is nothing to worry about, but next time you should make sure to apply to a few colleges to ensure that you get in somewhere.
 
cylus46

cylus46

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Jan 28, 2025
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Did you only apply to one college? Getting rejected is normal (a lot of people experience it when applying to college/university) and is nothing to worry about, but next time you should make sure to apply to a few colleges to ensure that you get in somewhere.
I said this in another reply but I just did one because I was already mentally im the gutter and I really only applied to that one because my mom made me. But nonetheless I was excited and kind of hopeful that maybe going to college would magically make me feel better. It's dumb ik but I'm so broken and depressed that's just how my brain operates at this stage. Now I don't really care anymore I hope my end comes soon :)
What were you going to study?
Fire science, since I'm a volunteer fireman and deal with that stuff often
 
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