Hanging and Si

[Terrible_Life_99]

Hey, I plan to hang myself either in July or August. I have prepared everything and I know that this is the best I can do. My life is contaminated , I always suffered in every chapter and now I'm near suicide its so close and yet the suffering became so extreme that if I had a nembutal pill right now I'd take it.
Sadly I have a problem. The SI is a primitive human system and I don't know how to beat it. I thought rationality and good analyses about my terrible life would have beaten it or maybe this extreme suffering but no it don't work.
Can you all maybe help me, give me some advices on how to archive my goal and die? Maybe there are aspects or solutions when it comes to si that I don't know about and I also think many other here would like to know how to beat si. Thank you.

 

[Wolf Girl]

The one time I nearly succeeded at partial I was super drunk. It wasn't frightening or distressing at all.

 

[tanshakti]

Hey, I plan to hang myself either in July or August. I have prepared everything and I know that this is the best I can do. My life is contaminated , I always suffered in every chapter and now I'm near suicide its so close and yet the suffering became so extreme that if I had a nembutal pill right now I'd take it.
Sadly I have a problem. The SI is a primitive human system and I don't know how to beat it. I thought rationality and good analyses about my terrible life would have beaten it or maybe this extreme suffering but no it don't work.
Can you all maybe help me, give me some advices on how to archive my goal and die? Maybe there are aspects or solutions when it comes to si that I don't know about and I also think many other here would like to know how to beat si. Thank you.

its crazy conundrum we suffer in real life but si doesn't want to give up. Im not sure if this works or will work but im trying the following
1) take sleep medication right before as it take 15-30 mins to take effect
2) till time to CTB manifest everyday every hour how harsh and hard reality is
3) remind myself daily I can do this near future if i prolong it will be worse and worse

 

[Worndown]

Full or partial?

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Full or partial?

Full

 

[Worndown]

Ok.
Most videos show people hesitate before stepping off. Last minute contemplation.
The SI seems to kick in after a couple seconds. After just hanging there, they reach for the rope. Nothing to be done about it as they pass out soon after. This is pretty much universal.
Watch a few and see how it can go.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Ok.
Most videos show people hesitate before stepping off. Last minute contemplation.
The SI seems to kick in after a couple seconds. After just hanging there, they reach for the rope. Nothing to be done about it as they pass out soon after. This is pretty much universal.
Watch a few and see how it can go.

I watched nearly all of them, most people use a scarf or sari I guess it is. Whats interesting is some of them literally fall asleep directly after the slowly let the scarf go but others are still conscious and that looks terrible their suffering. Of course all of them make this kinda weird body move where the bottom of their body wants to signal their brain but its not possible so everything goes down this repeats alot until they die I think then there is no movement nothing. I wish so much that I could know where their souls or mind or anything spiritual if that might exist goes in that moment.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

It has primary not so much to do with the method. If you had nembutal you would probably be in the same situation. Before taking the pills or stepping of the stool you are in the same stressfull situation.

If I knew the answer to your question I would not be able to give the answer.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

It has primary not so much to do with the method. If you had nembutal you would probably be in the same situation. Before taking the pills or stepping of the stool you are in the same stressfull situation.

If I knew the answer to your question I would not be able to give the answer.

Maybe the pain is the answer. At some point we will say it is enough I don't need to stay here any longer a suffer, I can end it and I will and then you go and finish the job . I think in my case this is how I'll do it

 

[JesiBel]

As for arm and leg movements in the videos, the person is no longer conscious and can no longer feel anything. You'll only be able to feel something in a few seconds. If you do the procedure correctly, everything happens very quickly.

Thread 'Input on hanging experience'

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/input-on-hanging-experience.208993/post-3037970

Personally, I wouldn't take any medication or substance; the key to things going well is to have a clear mind.

Only a very strong willpower and determination can overcome SI. In many videos, some people didn't even hesitate; perhaps their situation or life was so unbearable that nothing stopped them. That's why I always believe that the moment will come without forcing it (like setting dates or things like that)

 

[Worndown]

If it kicks in when you are past the point of no return, you win.

 

[schizozoomr]

I get the furthest when high. Maybe try that.

 

[openBottomJeans]

I get the furthest when high. Maybe try that.

I wish. Being high and trying to ctb just freaks me out even more. Drinking I get too distracted - and even so, as soon as my body hits the water I sober up immediately. Looks like I gotta do this straight

 

[AreWeWinning]

I don't think it's about thinking. It's about doing. I don't think we can think ourselves into it. No amount of thinking will make me be at peace with it or make it easy, no matter what. So, what's left? What else can I do? I can prepare and practice.

I can make all the pre-arrangements. Tidy my apartment and get rid of sensitive notes/journals/information. Leave the place in a tidy state. Whatever... Just something that needs to be done IF this is something the person wants to do beforehand.

I can make an exact, detailed plan, and write everything down. So, when the time comes, I don't even have to think, I can just go through the steps mechanically. I can focus all my energy on the task itself – no more decisions to make.

I can practice my final plan. Do everything exactly as if I was doing it live, except without actually making the final step and going through with it. Go through the motions A to Z with all the details. I can get familiar and comfortable with the process, which makes doing it easier.

I can watch people die on gore sites to get desensitised to the idea of dying.

I can choose to isolate from friends and family, knowing that it makes it easier to go through with it. Human connections do hold us back. It's a fact.

I can choose to make my preparations, and do any of the above instead of procrastinating and wasting time with things that are unimportant or nonessential – which I'm not choosing currently; instead, I'm wasting time. But at some point, I will have to make those hard choices, stop doing other stuff, and focus on the task instead. If I don't make those choices and don't actually do things in preparation, it'll never happen. I can't will or think myself into doing it. Anything that's ever been done happened by actually trying and doing it. Thinking and theory alone never leads to results.

 

[SomeEdgeLörd]

The one time I nearly succeeded at partial I was super drunk. It wasn't frightening or distressing at all.

I was thinking about getting drunk too and perhaps taking some alprazolam.

 

[schizozoomr]

I wish. Being high and trying to ctb just freaks me out even more. Drinking I get too distracted - and even so, as soon as my body hits the water I sober up immediately. Looks like I gotta do this straight

I'm clueless then