I am planning to use a metal wire inside those holes,and then using a thick rope which is passing through the metal wire.But,i dont know how i can do that.I have read about the suicide wiki about 3 years ago.I am thinking of suicide from 3 years.Its not desperate.But,now I have non life threatening chronic disease.I researched all the methods and I found full hanging seems good.I haven't tried it until now.So,I don't know if its gonna work.If it doesn't work i will be more depressed as i cannot kill myself and i cannot live.I want to use a gun.But,as I live in Europe,its impossible.I don't know what to do.My parents love me too much,and they have too much hopes on me that i will very successful .