Hanging problems

[purplesky9]

I want to do full suspension hanging but I have nowhere to hang at home. There are no places nearby that are secluded enough to do it during the day so I'm going to have to do it at night. This is very risky because I have to sneak out of the house past my Mum's bedroom without waking her up. I don't know what I'm going to say if she catches me. Any suggestions. There are two places we're I'm thinking of going where there are trees that I may be able to use. One place is a walking track on the hill. The only thing is the tree that I'm thinking of using would be visible from the road. The other is a park out of town. The only problem with this one is I could be visible from some houses nearby on the hill. I'm really worried that someone's gonna see me and call the police. Then they might take my ropes away and my Mum wouldn't let me use her stepladder again. Hopefully I wouldn't fail in hanging myself because I don't know whether I'd get a chance to do it again. It's all very anxiety producing. Do you think it's worth taking the risk to do it? Which place do you think I should hang at? Hopefully I can get my knots right my noose at the right level and I don't get SI

 

[Worndown]

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