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ZixivaldYrxes

ZixivaldYrxes

Archduke Demoness Villaintropic
Apr 3, 2019
120
YES YES YES
I'm basically a parody of myself at this point and I embrace it
I've been there before with the depression and authentic sadness and whatnot
It's all gone now, there's nothing but LoLs left
Can't even string a decent thought together without wanting to double over in laughter/pain
If being the fool brings people joy then SO BE IT! Better than the useless depth of feeling I used to have
 

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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
Yes, it's been a long time coming. My mental state has been deteriorating my whole life. Only the last 4 years do I feel like I've completely lost it. I don't know how I've held on this long to be honest.
 
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Sailfisher

F’ing A
Apr 19, 2019
282
It's like falling into a mental hole that I don't know if I can get out of. After thinking of departing for so long the number of things I can tolerate keeps shrinking.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
I always find myself using that word, trapped.
 
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HelpPlease

Psych ward
Sep 9, 2018
188
Yes drugs fried my brain
 
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efilist

Member
May 21, 2019
22
Thank you Broken Blue, nice post.
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
858
Stuck, trapped, screwed.. however it's put, yea - I feel that way. I think I've deteriorated quite a bit. This doesn't look like it will end well.
 
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Xaphous

Xaphous

hikikomori
Nov 11, 2018
550
Constant mental and emotional pain for as long as I remember, also permanent involuntary isolation which leads to insanity whilst I continually habitually remind myself of past and current trauma.
 
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