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monetpompo

monetpompo

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Apr 21, 2025
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i just want to know if i can. i know i probably can't. it just sucks to think that suicide is really my only way out. i think i might be too stupid and weak to pass the asvab on my own. i really want to run away from home but i don't have anywhere to go besides shelters. i want to get rid of my phone and computer because i don't really care about having them or using them. i don't want to be a neet anymore, but if i'm not a neet then i'm homeless or dead. there's no one willing to take me in. i would just end up having less opportunities because i don't even have a car. i keep thinking about putting myself in a mental hospital but the last time i did they didn't give me the medication they perscribed me while i was there. part of me wishes that there was somewhere i could be taken forever because i'm too stupid to think for myself. my life is going absolutely nowhere.
 
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kopebaldy

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Jul 5, 2025
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I don't recommend it if you don't have a solid plan and determination to either CTB or start your life over tbh.
You'll just lock yourself from what little resources you already have.
 
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Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
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I considered strongly about running away at the age of 12 due to intense stress. 12 year old me thought a camera, two bottles of squeeze candy, a blanket, mp3 on one battery, and 3 bottles of water would last me a long time. Glad I never did go through with it. But I was close.

After that, I've researched intensely on what life would be after running away. Depending on where you live, the weather will be a major challenge. First, if people notice you're gone, authorities will try to seek you (cameras are everywhere nowadays), you need a source of food, water, bathroom, the sorts. People may take advantage of you or even worse hurt you out there. And you can only carry so much and you'll inevitably forget something important.

If you have stable housing and your life isn't in any physical danger, I strongly advise against running away. You could hypothetically die, but it won't be quick, painless, or comforting. You'll make your life worse especially if you don't have plans afterwards and just want to escape.
 
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moonlightbeach

moonlightbeach

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Jul 14, 2025
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i have no experience with it, but i think it would make the situation harder as you would constantly need to worry about shelter and you might not be able to find it in time. it's risky and i would only ever do it if i had friends to stay over at. however, i have been looking into different assisted-care facilities but scrapped it because of the same reason that @kopebaldy mentioned.

i say try an exercise that will make you feel safer. if you seek a comfortable environment to stay in then, if you have any activities soon, spend most of the day there so once you get home you've exhausted yourself and the location doesn't really matter anymore. this will keep you up for a few days.
additionally, if you have a friend that you can spend a day with AND stay over during the night - that would be even more awesome! i developed this strategy when i was living in a toxic environment and i would spend most days in the local concert scene and also make plans with friends at their place.

you don't have to think about the future with the car, financial support and wards. try to get through the day and see how you're feeling then.
how are you today love? have anything on your mind or planned?
 
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monetpompo

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if you have a friend that you can spend a day with AND stay over during the night - that would be even more awesome! i developed this strategy when i was living in a toxic environment and i would spend most days in the local concert scene and also make plans with friends at their place.
i used to have a friend like that but he moved away so now i can't stay up late with him or stay over at his place when i want to run away from home. it's hard spending most of my days stuck in my house because i have to uber to even leave, and i usually don't have people to hang out with.

today i have nothing planned. i'm not going to keep thinking about full suspension hanging for the next few days because it just makes me feel upset. i'm just going to watch a show for most of the day and maybe go for a walk at early evening, since it's pretty hot today. i've spent most of last week and the week before thinking of suicide since i was pretty sure that i would go through with it, but i didn't. just thinking about the steps and the plan is easier than doing it when i've never even attempted before. on saturday i'm hanging out with my sister and on sunday i'm going to the mall with some friends from college.

i don't want to keep thinking about learning how to drive, getting a job to pay for gas, or how having 1 car means no one else can use the car if i'm using it. i wouldn't be able to hang out with my friends by using the car since my dad would end up needing to use it. it feels it's all my fault so it makes me stressed out.
 
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Satori Komeiji

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Jul 15, 2025
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I've thought about running away from home a couple of times even as an adult. I imagine idealistic views of living on the road, hitchhiking, traveling across the country, going where ever I want to go with nothing holding me down.
I think the reality of such a lifestyle though is less than desirable; Running away from your current life to place uncomfortable amounts of trust in strangers and have none of your basic necessities met and have no money doesn't sound so great...For some people that is the lifestyle they want but it's not easy especially when you already have depression and suicidal tendencies weighing you down.
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

Who even am I?
Apr 22, 2025
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I considered it when I was younger... Or rather entertained it as an intrusive thought.

But having little to no resources and ending up being in an even worse position with even less access to stuff to either recover or CTB with made the whole idea far less appetizing.

Running away from home just creates more problems and I simply couldn't be bothered to solve any of them seriously.
 
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permanently tired

The emptiness is unbearable
Nov 8, 2023
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I've stayed at a shelter for a little while before. Honestly, I didn't hate it. For what it was, I'd rate the place a 6/10. The food sucked though, it was worse than school lunch I used to have. The one I went to was for young ppl, it capped at 24 if I'm not mistaken. They help you get a job and you're only supposed to stay at the shelter for 2 months, they'll help you find a shared apartment and I presume rent is probably not too bad. I didn't stay long enough to find out more abt the apartment situation though.

I would say, there is no need to start over from scratch. The process wasn't terrible, but it wasn't exactly pleasant. Money can do many things. Job market sucks, but if you can find any at all that's great progress. Then you could use the money for whatever the hell you want. My purpose is only ctb, but I'm still stuck on the job hunt 💀.
 
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leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
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If I lived in North America, I would have been living like Alex Supertramp by now.
And likely would have had the same fate as him.

Anyway, I considered running away as a teenager, but thought it too risky considering the situation I was in at the time.
Sometimes I still wish I could just pick a direction and just walk. And just see where it leads.
 
Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The masochist who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
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I remember I once wanted to run away when I was 17 at like 1 in the morning. I don't remember why, it wasn't my family's fault, I think I just wanted to clear my head from college stress or something. Decided against as I didn't want my parents to worry about me and go looking and then ask me why I ran away and it was too much effort so I was like "nah" and tried to calm down. Good thing I did as "life stress" is such a cringy reason to Google the wiki how article on "how to run away".
 
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Stormo

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Jul 19, 2025
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I ran away from home at 17. Was being emotionally, verbally and financially abused by my dad. Left with a few things and ran away to boyfriend at the time's house.

Ended up being badly abused by him, kicked out/made homeless by him once, went back and relationship ended when he attempted to murder me via strangulation. I ended up homeless again. Eventually went to a youth homeless hostel and had a room there for a few months.

This was one of the worst and most traumatic times of my life. The only reason I stayed alive in that time was to use drugs.

Not sure if I can give you much advice but would be happy to talk about your situation in pm and possibly give you some info/advice based on what I experienced and learnt from my situation.
 
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