Discussion Has joining SaSu helped you feel calmer or less likely to commit CTB?

[middlelord]

For me, it made me less anxious everytime i open the forum. Made me realize there's others that's in a similar position as i am.

Informed me about methods, about taking time to make sure that it's the right decision and not make rushed action.

 

[broken_stoic]

It has helped me immeasurably in feeling like I could find a solid way out in case I want it and helped me feel less alone. Overall probably less likely to ctb, but also more able to have a peaceful way out if I do.

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

Yes, here I have love, understanding, support and freedom of expression. I love you and sasu

 

[SomewhatLoved]

I don't feel more or less suicidal, but I think it's made my suicidality feel less emotional and more logical. I think this place has helped me understand what suicide is to a deeper extent and how it can occur successfully. I now know how unpleasant and complicated it is. I think something that is true of most things in life, is that when you look at something from an outside perspective it will often seem more simple and straightforward than it is. After joining SaSu, my perspective on suicide has become more dreadful.

 

[threevoices]

absolutely. the kindness and compassion i have received on here has far exceeded what a lot of my closest friends have been willing to give me, and with the bonus of not having to worry about burdening anyone. this is all i ever really needed tbh, and the lack of this and how alone i felt was the only thing that made me want to ctb honestly

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I'm still here mainly because of the timing, not being right to ctb. SaSu has been here for me regardless, which helped in really dark days, and over time I find myself in a different space now. Maybe calmer, more informed and better prepared for what may very well still be the only and ultimate way out.

 

[nobody_oac]

After reading the NY Times article, I had to know more. After looking for information on CTB, I started to lurk around the different forums. So many good people here dealing with the same thing I am, and it helped me feel less alone and misunderstood. I have deleted far more than I have actually posted, but I'm warming up and realizing this place is for me. CTB is still on my mind a lot, but this place gave me a sliver of hope.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

It's helped me lessen the urgency to ctb, dig into my motivations and reasons while having people to empathize and relate to. I really like this community.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I was already low risk of ctb to begin with but being here makes me even lower risk and, in some sick way, helps me see life in such a more beautiful way.

It also helps that I have an ear, 24/7, all over the world. Can't really find that anywhere else.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I always wanted to wait for my Dad to go before I do so- it's made no difference in that regard. It absolutely does help me to get through the days though.

I don't think people acknowledge that it isn't easy to talk about this stuff in real life. Plenty of people may like to think they're supportive but truly, they don't want to hear about this day after day.

I think there's maybe this weird assumption that if we don't talk about it, we don't feel it but, I don't think that's the case at all. Especially if it's become very prevalent in our lives. To go looking for suicide resources suggests that it has become a major issue to me. Not one you can probably just sweep under the carpet and forget about.

 

[Redacted24]

I keep hanging around here for the free doughnuts.

Oh yeah, and it's nice to be honest about feeling awful with others that "get it." That's made me feel less alone.
I started on here getting methods to increase success probability. And here I still am, 18 months later, because life is just a little less sucky when you're with friends.

 

[Imeavie]

Ive been planning out my death mask for a while now, slowly overcoming obstacles in its design. I originally came her after reading everything on ash, to further some research into my design, as well as other methods.

However, my time here has actually reduced my desire significantly (not completely) to ctb ahead of schedule (before my grandparents pass).

I came here alone, and without hope, but I have found companionship/understanding in a special community.
I have found solace in the words of others, even if I have never interacted with them. It feels good to finally for the first time belong somewhere, without trying to shoehorn myself in.

As Redacted24 so eloquently stated:

"...life is just a little less sucky when you're with friends."

 

[EternalShore]

probably some! :) I'd definitely say it's not a waste for my mental health~ :) definitely, when I first joined, it helped me feel better quite a lot! ^_^ and tbh, it still does~ :) it makes me feel less jealousy than being on other websites~ :) and I can get sooo depressed and sewer slidal when I'm jealous~ >_<

 

[rainw3rld4ngel]

(i voted "no")

It's true that aspects of this place (like the ability to be completely honest about one's intentions & thoughts) may be helpful even in recovery, but i don't think that's what most of the posts here are about.
even so, it helps in avoiding unnecessary risk, agony, injury & impulsivity. (but over the long-term, in a lucid state of mind, many will still conclude that this is what they want.)
sorry if you intended this question for the Recovery section, but this is how i think it applies to the forum as a whole.

about recovery, ill just add that despite how relatable it is to talk to other suicidal people compared to almost anything anywhere else, if ur preferred outcome was to make it out alive from whatever ur suffering through, i doubt it would be a good habit to stick around here long-term. like this time next year it would be better to have something different to occupy ur time & thoughts with if you intended to make progress in the other direction instead.
sometimes u think things don't affect you, but if u kept passively scrolling past other's accounts of attempting hanging, then that kind of thing will be on your mind in your worst moments (and perhaps without needing much time to learn or prepare anymore).
I talked to someone who got very close, but changed their mind and hasn't logged in since, which seems to me like the better recovery option in the long-term.

I will also mention the make-a-friend thread, cause that was helpful to me last year (i was undecided back then, but i could imagine it being helpful in recovery as well)*.
the wording of my post may have skewed the responses, but it also gave me the impression that the average lurker here may be more undecided (at least compared to the average post in the main section of the forum).
ur question may be more relevant to them than it is to me, i can't really say how something affects everyone else overall.



* sorry if i said this in a confusing way lol, i dont mean anyone else influenced me, just that it was nice to be able to talk to people ....

 

[FoxSauce]

Well yes but dunno. I can change emotions very quickly but it has helped me to be with people that care for one another.

I can be honest without jugdement and clearly asking simple questions or even join a silly discussion brights my day.

To be honest I have 0 regrets for now.