Venting Have I ever known Motivation?

[disableddoll]

Sometimes, I feel as though I'm not enough for this world and especially it's people. I cannot possibly uphold the future while i'm living in the present; cannot possibly enjoy the moment while worried about tomorrow. next week. next year...
If I dedicate my whole self to a useless profession- a means for petty cash- I then have nothing else. Physically and Mentally exhausted, drained. Every second i'm not at work, I'm thinking about work or I'm asleep. Whether the job is fast paced or slow, my body quits before I do. Every. time. And i'm not even employed! Better yet if i don't find a job SOON I lose my living situation.

And sleep. rest. I just want one restful night. My body is so tired, so uneasy, so uncomfortable. I've almost stopped sleeping completely and every day starts to feel like a more intense drug trip. The people around me are beginning to notice how much of myself I've lost.

 

[cornflowerblue]

Sometimes, I feel as though I'm not enough for this world and especially it's people. I cannot possibly uphold the future while i'm living in the present; cannot possibly enjoy the moment while worried about tomorrow. next week. next year...
If I dedicate my whole self to a useless profession- a means for petty cash- I then have nothing else. Physically and Mentally exhausted, drained. Every second i'm not at work, I'm thinking about work or I'm asleep. Whether the job is fast paced or slow, my body quits before I do. Every. time. And i'm not even employed! Better yet if i don't find a job SOON I lose my living situation.

And sleep. rest. I just want one restful night. My body is so tired, so uneasy, so uncomfortable. I've almost stopped sleeping completely and every day starts to feel like a more intense drug trip. The people around me are beginning to notice how much of myself I've lost.

Do a useful profession with no barrier to entry or requirements, like assisting the physically or mentally disabled. Babysit a kid with Down's syndrome or something.