Venting Horrible thoughts again.

[Jamesun]

I think I've been feeling very miserable lately. It's horrible to see how everyone is moving forward and I'm still the same person I was years ago with the same thoughts of wanting to disappear, lately I would like to die but apparently it is not as easy and simple as I would think, if only I could leave the lives of everyone I know.
I've been feeling so lonely and rotten lately, even though there are people around me, I don't think I deserve to be with them, I don't think I deserve to live. Maybe my life isn't even important, and to be honest, I think it's true. I'm not good at anything, I'm just another person in the crowd, and I just live to live.
In a few weeks it's my birthday and how I hate that day, I hate it with all my being and in general how I hate this month.
I'd like to die right now, no matter how I do it, it doesn't matter if it just ends everything, although I think I'm a coward to do it on my own.
Thanks for reading.

 

[MiMif]

I think I've been feeling very miserable lately. It's horrible to see how everyone is moving forward and I'm still the same person I was years ago with the same thoughts of wanting to disappear, lately I would like to die but apparently it is not as easy and simple as I would think, if only I could leave the lives of everyone I know.
I've been feeling so lonely and rotten lately, even though there are people around me, I don't think I deserve to be with them, I don't think I deserve to live. Maybe my life isn't even important, and to be honest, I think it's true. I'm not good at anything, I'm just another person in the crowd, and I just live to live.
In a few weeks it's my birthday and how I hate that day, I hate it with all my being and in general how I hate this month.
I'd like to die right now, no matter how I do it, it doesn't matter if it just ends everything, although I think I'm a coward to do it on my own.
Thanks for reading.

I've been feeling similar. I've been suicidal for years and since highschool ended I feel like all my friends are moving forward and I'm just here. I'm currently on a gap year and it's making me realize this truth even more this life isn't for me I want out I hate it here

 

[Jamesun]

I've been feeling similar. I've been suicidal for years and since highschool ended I feel like all my friends are moving forward and I'm just here. I'm currently on a gap year and it's making me realize this truth even more this life isn't for me I want out I hate it here

I understand you completely, since I left highschool I've realized so much, it's almost as if everyone were more than me, It's like everyone is moving forward quickly and I'm there moving forward slowly or just not moving forward at all, life is definitely not for me either.