How did you first hear about / find your way to SanctionedSuicide? (2nd poll)

[Deadfrogwalking]

Found out about Sa.Su after a lifelong friend CTB,
Going through his phone and tablet before his parent's or daughter did, I came here looking for his threads to get a sense of WHY ?
So glad I deleted it before anyone saw it, I understand, don't think his family would have.
This site gave him a little peace in his last days.
It gives me some comfort now as my final days unfold, just looking for a suitable partner now, I don't want to CTB alone.

Thank you all for your honesty, openness and participation.

How much better could the world be for some, maybe still not all if the subjects discussed here could be openly discussed and not shunned or judged in society ?

 

[WheelSucker459]

Tantacrul

Was like dream come true to find a site to get some help

 

[FujoshiNeet]

I was trying to educate myself on charcoal grills and came across a post here.

 

[sukuna]

some guy several months ago on discord recommended it to me while arguing or shitting on me i dont really remember and told me to go for the helium gas plastic bag thing back in like august and I ended up registering in sept but now that I look back on it he was talking about like really niche methods so he prob uses ss too

 

[Rudra009]

can anyone tell me how much balloons of hydrogen will be enough for me to inhale and go unconscious so i can drown peacefully, tho i have no other resources right now, i can make some hydrogen by using NaOH that i have with me!!??

 

[majortom]

Link from https://www.ashspace.org/

 

[spireax]

NY Times article. I just want to stop hurting.

 

[TuttiFrutti]

A stranger DM'ed me about SaSu after venting somewhere. Thank you, stranger!
I must say that Tantacrul's video did redirect me to this forum after I forgot about it.

 

[Authentic13]

I believe I first saw the site mentioned in a NYT article and decided to see what the site was truly about. I don't believe everything I read. I am working on what method might be easiest and least painful for me and for those who will be dealing with my departure.

Found out about Sa.Su after a lifelong friend CTB,
Going through his phone and tablet before his parent's or daughter did, I came here looking for his threads to get a sense of WHY ?
So glad I deleted it before anyone saw it, I understand, don't think his family would have.
This site gave him a little peace in his last days.
It gives me some comfort now as my final days unfold, just looking for a suitable partner now, I don't want to CTB alone.

Thank you all for your honesty, openness and participation.

How much better could the world be for some, maybe still not all if the subjects discussed here could be openly discussed and not shunned or judged in society ?

I'm a total newbie and not familiar with the lingo. What does CTB mean? Thanks.

Found out about Sa.Su after a lifelong friend CTB,
Going through his phone and tablet before his parent's or daughter did, I came here looking for his threads to get a sense of WHY ?
So glad I deleted it before anyone saw it, I understand, don't think his family would have.
This site gave him a little peace in his last days.
It gives me some comfort now as my final days unfold, just looking for a suitable partner now, I don't want to CTB alone.

Thank you all for your honesty, openness and participation.

How much better could the world be for some, maybe still not all if the subjects discussed here could be openly discussed and not shunned or judged in society ?

Nevermind. I Googled CTB and got my answer.

 

[PromisedLand]

I did a google search for pro suicide forums, and the Wikipedia article for this forum actually came up. I am amazed that the anti-suicide people have not had the Wikipedia page removed!

 

[itsnotthatserious]

Shout out to the NY Times for naming it in their article.

I was immediately pleasantly surprised by SaSu's sense of community and different resources - it's cool to not feel alone with the dark thoughts

 

[BuckyDee2036]

I basically just searched up "suicide notes" and came across this VICE post about a suicide site and that is how I went down the rabbit hole.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

I searched for methods and at one point I found this site.

 

[beaten96]

Quota and Reddit.. I was looking for credible places for an exit bag.. what a little Amazing place i found.. It's made me feel a lot better while i wait to figure out a method..

Nice to be around like minded folks! :)

 

[Himeasa]

Tantacrul's video. I pieced together the name of the forum he was talking about when I remembered it mentioned on reddit a couple of years ago. It's ironic, but I'm happy to be here.

 

[Umacon]

Ιn an article about a nineteen years actor in Us that had suicide with SN after taking information from SS site. In the article there was a print screen of the site so I found it myself

 

[UnwaveringFire]

Newbie here. I've been looking for methods and trying to CTB for a while now; and found this forum mentioned in several research papers and condemned by some ruthless online articles a lot of time ago.
I first ruled it out 'cause it was apparently banned in my country and didn't show up on Google.
However, I still remembered the name and was able to find it during my first visit to the deep web.
This way, I found out it's not banned anymore, noted down its three addresses (just in case) and finally registered.

You know, during my studies (of communication and psychology) - plus personal research - I learned that media coverage increases the likelihood of finding these kinds of websites; and the risk of copycat suicides. Still, I never thought I would see it happening in my own life.
Ironically, I remember getting that very multiple-choice question on "copycat suicide" wrong, and researching it after the exam just because of that.

I am so grateful to be here; I rarely feel so free and understood.

 

[naomewki]

i was searching for methods and kept scrolling and scrolling- i was getting very desperate to find something, i believe i was searching for spots locally to end things at and this site appeared, i registered not really knowing what to expect... but after something happened that shook up my normal routine i decided to become more active and make a effort towards really planning once and for all,,

 

[Soontobegoner]

I came across the website in 2019... My first depression episode... Was looking for painless ways

 

[Doemu]

Searching suicide methods on Google, and learned thanks to the news that exists 'suicide forums' then i just searched for suicide forums on Google.

 

[grandeur.egg]

I wonder how tantacruel would react lmao i clicked on the video with the sole purpose of finding this website.

 

[YanWasHere]

Tantacrul's video definitely backfired. That's what happens when he prioritized content over his morals, truly shows the hypocrisy.

 

[therealmoses]

I got recommended Tantacrul's video and after a bit of searching found a link to this place.

I think Tantacrul's video ended more lived than it saved

tantacrul's video is the literal only place i had ever heard of this place, and even though he didn't mention the site's name so people wouldn't seek it out, it really backfired by the looks of it. he's the only reason i'm here

exactly. his video ended more lives than it saved

 

[aloneagainnaturally]

I was an original member of the A.S.H. ( alt suicide holiday) newsgroup. We coined the phrase CTB. I was actually hoping to find some of my old posts maybe archived just to read my thoughts back then to see why I'm still even here. Also to find the old methods file. I couldn't find them, but found this site. I was surprisingly happy the pc police even allow this to exist. It was more of a Wild West back then. I'm thankful I found this forum. I am ready to ctb finally.

 

[blacksorrow]

youtube video

 

[Flowerleelee]

I watched Tantacruls's video and it lead me down a rabbit hole to suicide, SH, and ED forums

 

[femmedelaville]

While looking for details on jumping

 

[cantliveanymorexoxo]

tantacruls video did the opposite effect on me, ive been trying to ctb for years and i FINALLY get a way out (hopefully) or a community to understand my struggle annd need to get out and maybe even help me through it

 

[Cunanan77]

4chan linked me to wizchan and wizchan led me to here

 

[bludgeoned]

girlfriend was on it. i told her to get off of it but now look at me. ironic