How long have you been visiting this site?

[Halfhourdays]

How long have you been here, and why do you visit SaSu?

I'm fairly new, noticed different types of visitors.

 

[pauly369]

Been visiting since 2020.
Had thousands of posts with my previous account.
Failed ctb so Im back again.

 

[Orc]

How long have you been here,

I started lurking back in December, and decided to register in early January.

and why do you visit SaSu?

Just looking for a peaceful way to CTB.

 

[noname223]

Been visiting since 2020.
Had thousands of posts with my previous account.
Failed ctb so Im back again.

Wait what was your initial account? Do we know us? I am also a longterm member and thus according to the media I am a demonic vampire/monster.

I change from time to time from acute suicidal to recovery. But I ran out of positivity for recovery topics. So I am mostly here for off-topic and annoying people with my political takes.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Since 2018 and doomed to hang out here forever it seems.

 

[ma0]

Been here for 3 months and I don't see things getting better. None of the options really suit my situation, I suppose the closest would be killing time while approaching CTb date, but I don't actually have a date nailed down. Just gonna do it when I'm ready.

 

[SomewhatLoved]

"here to hang out forever"
only because I'm scared, guilty, and don't handle physical discomfort well so I'll probably never actually go through with it.

 

[Redacted24]

Multiple selections!
I've been here 18 months. Arrived when actively searching methods.
Found that there are a lot of us. That was, empowering? Supportive? Empathetic?
I'm still planning my exit but not with the gusto I was when I arrived. And with no fixed date.
The kindness and support here has helped ground me some.
And I'm fond of the community.

 

[pauly369]

Wait what was your initial account? Do we know us? I am also a longterm member and thus according to the media I am a demonic vampire/monster.

I change from time to time from acute suicidal to recovery. But I ran out of positivity for recovery topics. So I am mostly here for off-topic and annoying people with my political takes.

Ive had 2 others. The last account I had was "The anhedonic one "

 

[ForeverCaHa]

I've been around for just over one month now. Used the information here to select a method, now just waiting for my day to come

 

[Reticent Being]

I have been here since august 2024

I stay on here because many in this community discuss quite thought provoking philosophical things... It helps me pass time. ️

I don't have friends, yet i forget that for a moment on here.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Wait, I'm not a pro lifer, I was joking! (nevermind you can change votes) I'm approaching CTB date. Already got SN , just waiting for the right day in the upcoming months.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I joined to find a method, which I did within a week, and my planned date was 31 December 2024. Timing has just been off making the means to acquire SN not achievable. A lot of things have happened since, and I've given myself till end of May to re-evaluate. Up until now, I've been in a bit of a crisis-mode with dark and darker days and this forum has been my support system. My days are very much uncertain as securing employment will determine the way forward. But one thing I know for sure is, I will order SN with the first pay cheque, even if I may decide not to use it in the near future.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

None of the above

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I've been here off and on since early 2019. I bought my method a few years ago. Now, I'm just waiting until I finally snap.

 

[Forever Sleep]

This is my comforting waiting room while I wait to (hopefully) CTB. I'm here for the community sense of support and to distract myself.

Lol- some of your descriptions! Trying to flush people out huh? The covert pro-lifers? I doubt they're that careless to reveal themselves! Those here to help others to CTB? That's against the rules- to encourage suicide. Despite the rumours, I doubt many people are here to do that.

 

[Johnzaga23]

Since November 2024, then made the account on December. Looking for methods fully convinced that i'll cbt. Now im not sure, but its always good to have an exit plan.

 

[(in)sane]

I've visited SaSu for the first time two years ago. Didn't mean to ctb back then, I was just curious and ended up staying cause I felt understood. Now it's my safe space :)

 

[loopa]

Once a year, consistently, I hope this is the last one :)

 

[TheHolySword]

i'm just chilling

 

[Namelesa]

Mix of reasons. I want to help others here whether thats to comfort them in life or advice them on recovery or methods that they may lessen or end their suffer as I feel like the purpose to life is to lessen the amount of suffering in this world. I like that I can actually look up info on ctb methods here and figure out a way to die when I can or when my purpose in this existence is fulfilled. Its also helpful for me as I only feel like I actually belong here as my emotional pain isn't a burden here and I can vent freely about my problems and suicidalness without criticism.

Those here to help others to CTB? That's against the rules- to encourage suicide. Despite the rumours, I doubt many people are here to do that.

If someone asks for advice with a method and someone gives it to them I say its helping them to CTB but it isn't encouraging it as the person asked for the advice and wanted help with dying in the first place.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

Found this place via the Tantacrul video where he completely took this place out of context. I immediately had issues with his presentation of the site, and decided to check it out for myself. Unsurprisingly, it was nothing like he made it out to be and this place is actually really chill. I'm still in a superpositon of CTB or not, I have just enough to keep me hanging on, but I'm very much on the edge still. Those who see this place as "How-to Suicide" obviously are blinded by a false sense of justice because my general view of this place has been "Suicidal peeps hang-out spot".

 

[Ariii]

"here to hang out forever"
only because I'm scared, guilty, and don't handle physical discomfort well so I'll probably never actually go through with it.

That makes two of us, at least I'm not the only one haha

 

[JesiBel]

I found this site in November 2024, looking for information on ctb methods.

 

[Manaaja]

I joined in, I don't remember, look at my joining date when I post this. I was here for a few years I guess, can't remember, then left for years, then came back has it been some months already. Not suicidal, not depressed, just hanging out, though I want to quit again.

Being here is so addictive and depressing. I'd rather stretch and surf online.

 

[grungy自殺]

Been here for a year

Just here to willow and vent my stupid misery

Until the day when i'm out of this world would finally come

 

[beeptad]

Been a lurker for a month or so, wish I found the site earlier I'd known about it (ironically through BBC articles) for ages but didn't realize how easy it was to find.

 

[cjt11203]

Been hyperfixated for the past 8 hours along with reading the recommended book. This place is somehow less negative than Reddit so this is probably my new home until I ctb in hopefully the near future.

 

[FoxSauce]

8 months mostly cuz a youtuber talked about saying that it was some sort of cult.

But seeing it for myself I realized he was way off.

Honestly this has been one of the places of feel heard and seen.

Plus I can talk how I really feel with anymore strangers which for me is a great thing cuz I'm nervous around people even online

 

[Nobody'sHero]

Got on this site about half a month ago because I'm bipolar and at times get really depressed. Don't remember quite how I found it, but when I did I was happy to find a place of so many people that are going through similar things as me. I'm not sure how I feel about it now, it's honestly a very depressing site to be on. I've gone through a lot of older posts of people hanging around, interacting, and then saying their goodbyes. Makes me wonder how many of the people that I interact with will do the same in the coming days, or if I'm going to be the one saying goodbye soon.

This shit is an echo-chamber and I have noticed that I ruminate on suicide much more because I'm always around the topic. On the other hand, learning about methods to CTB has somehow lifted a lot of the weight off my shoulders. Makes me feel like I have a back up plan if things get too shitty.
I have also genuinely enjoyed talking to some of the users and can tell that there are some good, but confused, people on here. Deep down I WANT TO LIVE! I'm just not going to live the life I WANTED, but I might still have a chance to live a fulfilling life. I'm going to stick around on the site and in my life for a bit longer, even if just for the memes... WE FIGHT ON! IF I AM NOT GIVEN WHAT I WANT I WILL FUCKING TAKE IT!!

This could be the bipolarity speaking though hahahhaha