How many friends do you have?

[killmepls]

0

 

[akosineenee]

1. We spent maybe less than 24 hours irl. We mostly communicate on viber/sms. I thought at one point we'd make a good couple; but he doesn't see me that way. He was in Malaysia last Sunday for an exam. He was kind enough to pm pictures/videos of pandas that he visited next day. He has been the only emotional support I have. He knows about my struggle with mental health and cutting and everything in my life but I still find it difficult to truly talk to him about my plan to ctb and that it has been getting worse and worse. I've put up a pretty good facade for him.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

0

0

fucking kill me

 

[weedoge]

10, including the 10 friends I've made on here hehehe

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

10, including the 10 friends I've made on here hehehe

I assumed they meant irl

 

[weedoge]

I assumed they meant irl

I'm just being a pain but yeah no friends irl at all. I mean I know someone who lives about 6 hours away but I don't count them.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

0.

I've had a few online friends but ended up ghosting them all. It was exhausting having to chat with them and pretend that I'm fairly normal.
I can't really connect with people.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I'm just being a pain but yeah no friends irl at all. I mean I know someone who lives about 6 hours away but I don't count them.

i need a t-shirt that says im lonely need a shy friend?

 

[Ssname]

3 but I have been avoiding talking to 2 of them for months. The last one I can't not talk to because we play in the same team and he moved in with me for a couple of months when his girlfriend came home and found him in bed with someone else. Since he moved out I don't talk to him all that much either really.

I like my friends too much to inflict myself on them. Anyone relate to that?

 

[Tiburcio]

1


The rest of persons I know are pure fake people and rotten inside.

 

[PeakyBlinder]

3 but I have been avoiding talking to 2 of them for months. The last one I can't not talk to because we play in the same team and he moved in with me for a couple of months when his girlfriend came home and found him in bed with someone else. Since he moved out I don't talk to him all that much either really.

I like my friends too much to inflict myself on them. Anyone relate to that?

Yes relatable but a lot of the times I miss the connection with my friends because the burden of living doesn't weigh as heavy on them.

Anybody else feel like actual friendship is near impossible? Maybe because my thinking of friendship is extreme in the sense that i'd do anything for a real friend. This feeling is not always reciprocated.

Why are human such scumbags? The treacherous nature, deceit, judgement etc. In my experience, the better you are for others the more they take it for granted and nobody wants to be taken for granted.

 

[ScaredOfLife]

I had friends years ago in college and when I worked. I moved many miles away from my old friends and now am only friends with them on Facebook. I haven't used Facebook in about three months. So, I have zero friends, unless you include my husband, sister and brother-in-law.

 

[Clover]

6 close friends and about 10 others.

 

[Gregor samsa]

I have 2 but that's counting my brother as one and I have a made up online friend.anyone else is just patronizing fake so they aren't.friends

 

[Volatile]

0 is the ideal number that i ever knew. 1 is as bad as 2 but the only number is the number 0...(because even I'm not part of the equation)

 

[Cold]

Two. One of them I'm not very close to but have known for a really, really long time. The other one I'm really close to but has moved out of the country. But I'm alone 95% of my time and I don't see my friends often.

 

[GodKnows]

I have no friends and no girlfriend :C

 

[windingdown]

3 but I have been avoiding talking to 2 of them for months. The last one I can't not talk to because we play in the same team and he moved in with me for a couple of months when his girlfriend came home and found him in bed with someone else. Since he moved out I don't talk to him all that much either really.

I like my friends too much to inflict myself on them. Anyone relate to that?

That's a great way to put it! My friends are so normal, and lovely. I'm the only one like me in my friends circle. They're all successful. I was on the verge of being successful, but then, psychosis--> schizoaffective disorder.

 

[WorthlessGirl]

0. I'm too uncomfortable around people, makes it hard for me to find friends.

 

[Duqu]

2. One since junior high (but she's super busy - works full time, has a fully disabled son, etc), and the other lives in a different state so we text sometimes basically. She's visited me once, that was fun.

 

[Living_Ghost]

There is no point trying to be a friend in this state. Friends are supposed to bring something to the table .Oh here I brought you some despair and anxiety as a gift from me . Why thank you .Now fuck off and don't come round here no more ya get it?

 

[solacely]

0. I cut everyone out of my life because I don't want anyone being upset when I ctb.

 

[nuclearsnake]

One but I don't think they care about me all that much. They're usually too busy with their boyfriend or family or other friends.

I'm too weird and disgusting and have too little energy for more friends.

 

[RM5998]

There is no point trying to be a friend in this state. Friends are supposed to bring something to the table .Oh here I brought you some despair and anxiety as a gift from me . Why thank you .Now fuck off and don't come round here no more ya get it?

Yeah, this is definitely part of the 'too real' category.

The maximum I've ever had is 3. They've all drifted far away now and I haven't talked to most of them in ages. One of them was a person I had a one-sided crush on, and the other two had similar interests - technology, anime, games, manga, TV shows, rap music, odd movies, and so on.

I have one now in college, but they lost their closest friend since school days via suicide, so I'm not sure that they'd take my suicidal tendencies well. Then again, I might be overestimating my importance there - maybe everyone thinks of me as a dumb, shallow, eccentric loser. Not that it's an inaccurate assessment, but it hurts a lot to be faced with that image.

 

[Over n' Out]

Just Barry the spider. He arrived in my room in June and decided to build a web in the worst possible place for catching flies. So I have to catch him one once a week and drop it on his web. He then comes scurring across as happy as can be and spends hours wrapping it up in silk and preparing it.
Problem is summer is over and the flies will vanish soon. I'm not sure what to replace them with, I should have stocked up and put 30 away in the freezer to see him through winter.

 

[RM5998]

Just Barry the spider. He arrived in my room in June and decided to build a web in the worst possible place for catching flies. So I have to catch him one once a week and drop it on his web. He then comes scurring across as happy as can be and spends hours wrapping it up in silk and preparing it.
Problem is summer is over and the flies will vanish soon. I'm not sure what to replace them with, I should have stocked up and put 30 away in the freezer to see him through winter.

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I had a spider living in my room for the 2017-2018 academic year. Since the place where I live has a bad case of rampant invertebrate infestation, it was a good roommate. It lived inside a wooden tube, and I put the tube in a place where there was a lot of light, so most of the insects who came into the room would either go under the bed or go into the tube.

The spider was well-fed and helpful for the year, but I had to lose it when I put away my luggage in the new hostel, because there wasn't any place where I could put it. Shame. Would have been 10 times more useful in the room I'm in now.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Yes relatable but a lot of the times I miss the connection with my friends because the burden of living doesn't weigh as heavy on them.

Anybody else feel like actual friendship is near impossible? Maybe because my thinking of friendship is extreme in the sense that i'd do anything for a real friend. This feeling is not always reciprocated.

Why are human such scumbags? The treacherous nature, deceit, judgement etc. In my experience, the better you are for others the more they take it for granted and nobody wants to be taken for granted.

Yes I'm living with a drug induced lobotomy. Is not possible to have friends. Like my brain no longer knows why and what friends mean

 

[TAW122]

I have none currently. In the past, while growing up, I may have had about one or two, but after I went off to college, we parted ways and they all have their own circle of friends as well as their own lives. Also, I've pretty much came to terms that I will likely be friendless and forever alone (I never dated and my odds of getting one is almost like trying to win a lottery.) for the remainder of my life.

 

[2211264]

0. I cut everyone out of my life because I don't want anyone being upset when I ctb.

+1

 

[Deleted member 847]

My only, real and true friend is my own mind. Yes, that's the only thing that is always with me in my suffering or in my happiness. The only person that understands me and never betrays me, my own goddamn consciousness. You know the saying: We're born alone, we live alone and we die alone? You will never find a single person that will ever genuinely understand and care about you, not even your parents, even if in most cases (not my case unfortunately) they're better at faking it for biological reasons.