How many friends do you have?

[NotMery]

I can say I have 3 good friends, counting with my sister. They are people who I've talked honestly about my feelings but I chose not to do again. The thing is they don't really get It, althought they try, and they have more important things to worry about atm. Two of them already told me that it was too much for them to take and they couldn't deal with it, so after that I couldn't talk honestly even when they asked; eventually they stopped asking, so now we just talk about things like series or politics etc.

My relationship with my sister is more complicated because she's always asking And I really miss being honest with her, I wish I could say everything I'm thinking and planning but It would Just break her heart even more and make me even more insecure about the hole thing. So it's better for everybody that I keep things as "light" as possible.

 

[Gregor samsa]

Just Barry the spider. He arrived in my room in June and decided to build a web in the worst possible place for catching flies. So I have to catch him one once a week and drop it on his web. He then comes scurring across as happy as can be and spends hours wrapping it up in silk and preparing it.
Problem is summer is over and the flies will vanish soon. I'm not sure what to replace them with, I should have stocked up and put 30 away in the freezer to see him through winter.

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You can actually get like frozen insects for him via mail.I get crickets for my bearded dragon like every month pretty cheap too

 

[Negative-Nancy]

69

 

[Snee]

i had lot of friends in 2012.but then i fucked up my life.

 

[FadedMemory]

I am alone, always have been and always will be. But I don't mind it much, after recent betrayal of people who I trusted I am always uptight around others and I don't feel safe.

 

[Morning Angel]

I used to have a lot of friends irl, believe it or not. Now I have zero. I am not even friends with myself.

 

[throwaway123]

0.

I've had a few online friends but ended up ghosting them all. It was exhausting having to chat with them and pretend that I'm fairly normal.
I can't really connect with people.

shit, same here. :(

 

[throwaway123]

Just Barry the spider. He arrived in my room in June and decided to build a web in the worst possible place for catching flies. So I have to catch him one once a week and drop it on his web. He then comes scurring across as happy as can be and spends hours wrapping it up in silk and preparing it.
Problem is summer is over and the flies will vanish soon. I'm not sure what to replace them with, I should have stocked up and put 30 away in the freezer to see him through winter.

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lol,are you serious? Do small spiders like that even live that long?

 

[TengoK]

4. But two of them I haven't seen since new year 2016, nearly 2 years ago; another not since February 2017. So to be honest I'm not sure for how much longer I can consider those 3 people as 'friends' since I never see them or hear from them. And the last of these four is purely a virtual / online friend who I'm never going to meet. I used to be okay with the latter, but these days I rather think that actual company and face-to-face communication would be preferable.

 

[RacilyDank]

I have lots of friends. I just don't connect with them when I feel this way.

Actually when I'm at my most depressed I honestly think I have none. Then when I get better I have a very active social life and make new ones all the time.

I'm not going to get better this time.

 

[RacilyDank]

Just Barry the spider. He arrived in my room in June and decided to build a web in the worst possible place for catching flies. So I have to catch him one once a week and drop it on his web. He then comes scurring across as happy as can be and spends hours wrapping it up in silk and preparing it.
Problem is summer is over and the flies will vanish soon. I'm not sure what to replace them with, I should have stocked up and put 30 away in the freezer to see him through winter.

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Lol thanks for making me laugh. First time in weeks.

 

[RM5998]

I have lots of friends. I just don't connect with them when I feel this way.

Actually when I'm at my most depressed I honestly think I have none. Then when I get better I have a very active social life and make new ones all the time.

I'm not going to get better this time.

For me, it's the other way round. I'm more social when I'm depressed and lonely. It's probably a coping mechanism coupled with an involuntary cry for help. Although it's kinda pointless, since my act of being fine has itself become involuntary.

 

[RacilyDank]

For me, it's the other way round. I'm more social when I'm depressed and lonely. It's probably a coping mechanism coupled with an involuntary cry for help. Although it's kinda pointless, since my act of being fine has itself become involuntary.

I feel you. When I'm depressed my motive for socialising is just different, like you say a coping mechanism.

I couldn't have put it better myself - 'involuntary act of being fine'

 

[deflagrat]

Just Barry the spider. He arrived in my room in June and decided to build a web in the worst possible place for catching flies. So I have to catch him one once a week and drop it on his web. He then comes scurring across as happy as can be and spends hours wrapping it up in silk and preparing it.
Problem is summer is over and the flies will vanish soon. I'm not sure what to replace them with, I should have stocked up and put 30 away in the freezer to see him through winter.

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Funny stuff. I used to have a spider in my room, but I never got as intimate with the spider as you.

 

[Over n' Out]

Funny stuff. I used to have a spider in my room, but I never got as intimate with the spider as you.

I'm not sure I'm doing him any good really. I provide his shelter and food and point the tv his direction and it's stopped him finding his way in this world and standing on his own eight feet.
He's like a shut-in, just lazing about wasting the days away.
If this carries on probably it's best if I say ok, April 1st when the spring is here, you're going out the window. It'll be emotional but I don't see another option. He's wasting any potential at the moment.

 

[RM5998]

I'm not sure I'm doing him any good really. I provide his shelter and food and point the tv his direction and it's stopped him finding his way in this world and standing on his own eight feet.
He's like a shut-in, just lazing about wasting the days away.
If this carries on probably it's best if I say ok, April 1st when the spring is here, you're going out the window. It'll be emotional but I don't see another option. He's wasting any potential at the moment.

You're more invested in that spider than I am in myself.

 

[bigj75]

Define friend?!

 

[RacilyDank]

I'm not sure I'm doing him any good really. I provide his shelter and food and point the tv his direction and it's stopped him finding his way in this world and standing on his own eight feet.
He's like a shut-in, just lazing about wasting the days away.
If this carries on probably it's best if I say ok, April 1st when the spring is here, you're going out the window. It'll be emotional but I don't see another option. He's wasting any potential at the moment.

Sounds unhealthy, for both of you.

You're an enabler!!!

 

[RacilyDank]

Over n out is a funny guy, it'd be a shame to waste that by killing himself

 

[Ben]

I had fucking thousands of friends. According to Facebook anyway... let's see how many of them followed up with my deletion aaaaasand here I am on a suicide forum with strangers

 

[Circles]

I thought we were all friends here? Also does my dog count as a friend? Yes the bestest of friends.

 

[lost illusions]

3 that are not close, 0 close and 1 that could have been

 

[dwimplepeen213]

One but I don't think they care about me all that much. They're usually too busy with their boyfriend or family or other friends.

I'm too weird and disgusting and have too little energy for more friends.

^ same exactly

 

[Ben]

I feel like I have upped my numbers since I've been here :)

 

[samhelloall9]

Technically 4-5. But see, I've never really seen as "friends"...I guess I just feel like they're acquaintances I've had since high school who I still treat as a friends. But I wouldn't say they have much in common with me at all.

I'm probably so heartless sounding, but I don't think I have any real friends. It's not about that whole "close friends" versus "friends" thing.

I think I don't have any people I've ever really connected with, and I think that's a good thing for my eventual intentions. Otherwise I'd always be too busy and my friends calling or messaging me every living moment, how could I ever ctb.

Hmm. So I try to enjoy my remaining time with them, but that's also like everyday life even if I wasn't intending on ever ctb-ing

 

[Jerryman]

Got 1, he's really popular so has many other friends besides me. For some reason he's stuck by me through good and bad times.

Anyone on here fancy getting some pizzas and binge watch Netflix?

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

Two, but I am counting people I might not see for months on end in that list. I'm not a particularly likeable person. I understand why I have few friends, it's quite reasonable.

 

[throwaway777]

no one except you here ...

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

What are we defining as a friend? I have plenty of people who are nice to me, but how many would actually bother to visit me in hospital if I failed to CTB? That's the real question

 

[RM5998]

What are we defining as a friend? I have plenty of people who are nice to me, but how many would actually bother to visit me in hospital if I failed to CTB? That's the real question

Yeah... None, as far as I am concerned. And I hope it stays that way. I don't want to contaminate them with me.