I'm telling you right now, PLEASE, as an internet stranger/friend please don't try to overdose on a substance like this. I don't want to see you hurting more than your poor soul already is. Please

Seek help in any fashion, even here because everybody here is lovely and I truly see people looking out for each other. Stay safe and my messages are always open!
If you're hurting so badly just please don't do anything impulsive regarding pills! I don't want to see you get messed up and having the choice of your life be out of your hands :(