How to overcome survival instinct?

[purplesky9]

I've been trying to do full suspension hanging but whenever I attempt it survival instinct kicks in and get scared. I should just kick the chair away but I'm scared it won't work and I'll just be left hanging there not being able to do anything. I'm also worried that my partner will come home and find me hanging there because I'm hanging myself at his house because it's the only place I can do it. If he found me he would take my key away. Are there any tricks you can use to help yourself get over survival instinct or is kicking the chair the only way.

 

[whaleandwasp]

Could you reconsider doing this at your partners house? I came home to find my spouse dead on the floor a few years ago (not suicide) and it traumatized me so bad and is the primary reason that I am now suicidal.

 

[timetogo00]

You can find a forest with trees, an abandoned building, a hotel room, near train tracks with trees nearby where no one goes, deep in the woods, near power lines near a highway. Don't let him find your body and scar him.

Finding his partners body like this will give him ptsd. Yes kicking the chair is the only way as it sounds like you want to live. Maybe consider trying other ways to get through your pain. Some of us are dead set on going because we're in immense pain daily.

You can also use Google maps to search near your area for a sparse area with trees or no structures.

I only have to think about my life to want to go. Best of luck.

 

[diopdawe]

I am planning to take a huge amount of benzos to ease the survival instinct.

 

[Forveleth]

You have the search unlocked. There have been many threads on this topic with a lot of advice.

 

[DoomCry]

You should never preclude yourself from interrupting the operation. I understand the fear, but if you have been through so many bad things in your life that you are thinking about committing suicide, do not use violence until the last minute by even kicking the chair. Leave a footrest, then you will decide whether to climb on it or let yourself go to death. You will feel the rope tightening around your neck with all the weight of your body and you will understand only in that moment whether you can bear this or not. It is important to have full control of the situation.

You don't overcome the survival instinct, you embrace it.

 

[purplesky9]

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I am planning to take a huge amount of benzos to ease the survival instinct.

I have some benzos. Maybe they will help.

 

[AreWeWinning]

Are there any tricks you can use to help yourself get over survival instinct or is kicking the chair the only way.

I don't think these two should be confused. Answering the second part, kicking the chair is not the only way. It is just the most certain way. Some people succeed with partial. Some others just keep trying without success, and for them, the only way is to do full suspension or to choose another method.

SI is another issue. We know that kicking the chair away means near certainty. Whether you decide to do it, and whether you are able to do it or not, are completely separate questions. If you can't but still want to do it, then you can decide to work on your SI or choose another method. But this doesn't change what will happen if you do it.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I wish I had an answer. My lame plan (at this moment, it changes from day to day) is to wait it out and run down the clock. Takes forever but is foolproof. The light at the end of the tunnel is the fact that everyone, without exception, certainly dies, eventually. The rest is just being stuck in a waiting room, killing time.

 

[ringo99]

There's no 100% foolproof plan to overcome SI on your own. Alcohol helps but overindulgence could impair your ability to ctb correctly. In my case I just replay my life's failures in my head over and over to make sure that I never forget that my past, present and future are filled with nothing but more failures and misery. It slowly chips away at my SI to realize that ctb is a merciful outcome compared to what's waiting for me in the next 10 years.

 

[Pale_Rider]

That is something each person must figure out for themself, but I also support the above that a path to return should always be there.