I am scared to have kids because we live in a broken system

[Zeir Anpin 729]

I am scared to have kids because we live in a broken system

I am not a nihilist or a pessimist or an anti-natalist or an "elif-ist" or "pro-mortalist", or anything like that at all. That's not me, I'm not a negative person. I had a rough childhood (because of my mom), but in general, I enjoyed life and going outside, and existence on the Earth was beautiful. Keyword: "WAS".

I have been beaten within inches of my life three times. All where by some dumb losers that saw me as an easy target and decided to straight up murder me. The only thing that saved me each time was intervention from a brave bystander. I never fought back myself because I grew up thinking that hitting anyone for any reason was illegal. "It doesn't matter who started it, you hit back and you are both in trouble" was the common logic used in school.

The third time I met a bloodthirsty murderer was on the street in texas. It was on the sidewalk by the side of the road in broad daylight. He came up from behind and shoved me. Then he said that I "bumped" into him and that if I kept "bumping" into him then that meant I had some "problem" with him. He punched me four times as he kept saying this dumb shit. I throw up blood because my long was perforated. The entire ordeal, I was apologizing to him, trying to just casually go about my way. He keep striking me in the chest with no hesitation. This was a grown six foot tall man who was incredibly strong and built like an ox. I doubt he was homeless but if he was then he was still hitting the gym every day.

I knew if I actually hit him back then he would have his golden alibi that he wanted. He was trying to start a fight and the fact that I was ignoring that made him super angry and he fought me anyway. His stupid excuse was that I "bumped" into him, which is not even true at all. It was a meaningless excuse and anybody could see what was really happening. One person came from the road out of their car and he turned and to attack that person. That's when I simply walked away and called the cops. He followed me but I stayed in a store with more potential witnesses. The operator told me they sent someone. They never did. They failed me. The cops where to lazy to come. They literally left me stranded next to a psychopath as I was bleeding out.

The system has failed me three fucking times but this time was extra dumb and beyond stupid. Its cleat to me that society is already broken and the cops are the problem. They allow this shit. My father actually knows the sheriff and asked him directly for my calls back from the call center. I already emailed the sheriffs office and they told me they never recorded them. The sheriff himself told me it was never the cops job to protect me. Its apparently all my fault for being weak and pathetic. I was called those exact words and it angered me more.

This stuff is newsworthy. When it happens to a minority, it gets broadcast on the news as a hate crime. But I am just a white guy who limps because of a physical disability I got from time in the ARMY. An easy target with apparently no civil rights at all.

I will never fucking have children because I can't let someone I love suffer the same things. Society is broken and has thousands of serious institutional issues and millions of stupid excuses. As a male, the average experience of having children involves losing custody of them anyway and handing them directly to the state to take care of. The state is broken. The state is worthless. I am not an incel nor do I have issues with women. This is an intentional choice. I've always liked femboys more, maybe this is yet another reason to betray God and join the church of Satan and fly the rainbow flags and date them instead. I don't want women to take that personally even though I know God will. But seriously, society is in fucking shambles and I will not be responsible for giving it more victims (my innocent children) to fuck over. I doubt I can protect any children when I can't even protect myself.

I'm tired of Gen Z being called lazy and everyone blaming me for not having children. I used to want them but I know that society would ruin their lives as it has ruined mine. Times have changed and if you truly LOVE your children then you wouldn't even have them at all. The Cathar Perfectis where always correct. Or at least ahead of their time.

I would want kids if I knew the cops would function. And if the schools would function and if bullies and criminals where punished. But instead, the victim is always punished. Whether they fight back or not, society always blames them. And the bullies are labeled as brave and strong and the cops side with them.

I've had enough. I'm at the end of my rope. I will either kill myself or st4b my father first and then kill myself. How dare he put me on this Earth and laugh about everything. He's a ch1ld r4pist and homophobe and if I can't punish all the bad guys, I can at least hurt one before I go. IDK exactly.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

As a male, the average experience of having children involves losing custody of them anyway and handing them directly to the state to take care of.

Most cases in which the father "loses" custody of their children happen because both parties agree to give the mother full custody, not because the system is against fathers. Most fathers who fight for custody get custody of their children (either full or joint custody). This whole, "the system hates fathers and makes them lose custody of their kids" bullcrap is a myth. Hell, my parents were divorced and my father ended up with joint custody of me because, in part, he actually fought for custody of me. Most fathers don't bother asking for custody, hence why the mother usually ends up with full custody.

However, studies indicate that dads simply do not ask for custody as often as mothers do, and courts generally do not award what is not asked for in that regard.
A Massachusetts study examined 2,100 fathers who asked for custody and pushed aggressively to win it. Of those 2,100, 92 percent either received full or joint custody, with mothers receiving full custody only 7 percent of the time. Another study where 8 percent of fathers asked for custody showed that of that 8 percent, 79 percent received either sole or joint custody (in other words, approximately 6.3 percent of all fathers in the study)

Fathers and Mothers: Child Custody Myths | Dad’s Divorce Law

Some beliefs about fathers’ rights in child custody and child support cases are untrue. A skilled divorce attorney can provide legal help to divorcing dads.

www.dadsdivorcelaw.com

nor do I have issues with women. This is an intentional choice. I've always liked femboys more, maybe this is yet another reason to betray God and join the church of Satan and fly the rainbow flags and date them instead

Fetishizing femboys =/= being pro-LGBTQ+. Also, the church of Satan is an atheistic organization (most satanists in general are actually atheists) that isn't that active politically. It would make more sense to join the Satanic Temple, since that organization is actually politically active and is explicitly pro-LGBTQ+.

Source: I actually joined them out of boredom a while back.

I will either kill myself or st4b my father first and then kill myself. How dare he put me on this Earth and laugh about everything. He's a ch1ld r4pist and homophobe and if I can't punish all the bad guys, I can at least hurt one before I go.

Why are you censoring yourself? This is SaSu, not TikTok.

 

[_Gollum_]

You don't have to have a "negative" view on life to be an anti-natalist. You just have to understand that if you value not causing harm or suffering to others, you cannot bring another life into existence because existence always comes with suffering. You could do everything "right" as a parent and you could live in an idyllic society, and this would still be true.