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PaYo

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Jul 28, 2018
225
I was an artist, when i drew i was feeling like im finding the truth behind the structure of human anatomy. When i look at art right now i can't feel anything. I can't see or feel the beauty of proportions nether a form. Paintings are flat and i can't see it message. I do want to see a depth to it. I want to be able to know that author meant. But i can't. What should i do?
 
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k75

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Jun 27, 2019
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I'm sorry you're struggling with this. I'm also an artist, and the same thing has happened to me. I can't create anymore. I just don't feel it at all. Creating brings me no joy, but it used to. I could get lost in my art. Now... It's just another thing I force myself to do sometimes.

It's extra hard, because I sold my work. I have commissions I can't complete. People are getting upset, and I'm overwhelmed. I just want to run from it all.
 
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oopswronglife

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Jun 27, 2019
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I enjoyed taking photographs....and writing some things...I do both less now for external and internal reasons. I had to sell my good camera right when I caught the bug again and the little ancient one I have now doesn't perform well so it mostly stays in a box...I miss it but don't see every being financially secure enough again to afford the gear. Writing is cheap...but now it's mostly either flippant and silly as some coping mechanism...or desperately romantically dark as an outlet...but I love some of it anyway once it's out of me. I try to see it as using what I have got. I've never been a painter or drawer (sp?) but I'm sure its the same feeling. I wasn't encouraged to be creative when young and found the desire to be so bursting out the worse things got in life. Ironically when I less had the means for space/equipment. Such is life.

I say ride it out...make what you can when you can and maybe something beautiful comes out of that which you didn't expect.
 
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Quitter

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Sep 4, 2019
77
I don't have any help to offer, but I understand.

I basically lived to draw when I was younger. I had so many ideas and I was proud to show to others what I had drawn. Everyone always told me I was incredibly talented for my age. And I was pretty good, honestly. I used to have quite a following on my blog, tons of commissions etc.

Nowadays, if I even get anything on the canvas, it all feels so meaningless, what's the point? There's so many much better artists out there, anyways. There's no purpose or inspiration, not even joy. I wish I could feel a fragment of the passion I used to have.
 
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PaYo

Experienced
Jul 28, 2018
225
Im not concern about part of it i want full of the joy i had. Niw its meaningless. I felt nothing. I want my life to be as full as it can be
 
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oopswronglife

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Jun 27, 2019
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I want my life to be as full as it can be

Maybe this is as full as it can be right now. That doesn't mean its always going to be that way.
 
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PaYo

Experienced
Jul 28, 2018
225
Yeah maybe i will wait couple months more maybe something will change
 

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