Bootleg Astolfo
Glorious Bean Plushie
- Oct 12, 2020
- 868
Since i have a new temporary social worker and i know im gonna have to repeat for 29828523th time why im not a worthless lazy piece of shit who deserves to die alone because he literally refuses to do any effort whatsoever (which is what they think regardless of how much i do), i made a list, so they can see how comedically long it is on paper, especially since stuff like therapies (im probably at 20+ psycologists by now) are grouped into a single line. Some of them i dont know how to translate, if it sounds dumb, blame my french lol.
Meeting people:
- Team leader in a gaming team of 300+ people (I had 40 people under my charge)
- Youth Program ''Begin a new''
- The Artisans (woodworking semi-volunteer group)
-Youth Program, 6 month work contract thing
- Countless activities at a local mental health place
-Volunteering, several times a year, 4+ years by now
-Various other activities with the youth programs
-Collective cooking
-About 10+ dating sites
-Cosplay cons
- Various activities at a... weirdly communist social thing
Self Improvement:
- Countless therapies, literally 20+ psycologists/chiatrist/etc
-Lost 170lbs (and maintained the loss)
-New creative hobbies
-New practical hobbies (that could be turned into a job)
-Traditional hobbies, because im not allowed non MANLY MAN YEAHHHHHHHH *kills something* interests.
-Hanging out with various types of people (I have both transgender friends, and literal neo mid century german ones)
-Going to various new kinds of activities/event
-Attempted going back to school
-Attempted going back to work
-Countless hours spent trying to get to understand how people work (I have almost no empathy)
-So many ''emotions'' counseling and other random stuff i literally cannot understand
-Purposefully meeting people im not interested in, and sticking with it, to ''expand my horizons''
-Various attempts to adapt to people and be more ''normal''
-Constant exposure to extreme anxiety to ''get out of my zone of comfort''
-Moved out 13 hours away for my family, same-ish reason as above
Aniways, according to everyone i talked, this is literally nothing and every single person who's ever had a date ever, without exemption, did at least 50 times this, even those who first got a date at 13, yep, all perfect individuals with no flaws who constantly work on themselves and are basically paragons of virtue. What's that, I went from being a morbidly obese angry bastard with no patience whatsoever to a fairly fit man who's so calm and patient that people genuinly don't think i'm even capable of anger ? Well... Uh.... That guy over there thought about doing some of those so he's like, basically done 10000x what ive actively accomplished, shut up and eat shit, go do more useless garbage.
TLDR: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AH. (Ahhhhh).
Meeting people:
- Team leader in a gaming team of 300+ people (I had 40 people under my charge)
- Youth Program ''Begin a new''
- The Artisans (woodworking semi-volunteer group)
-Youth Program, 6 month work contract thing
- Countless activities at a local mental health place
-Volunteering, several times a year, 4+ years by now
-Various other activities with the youth programs
-Collective cooking
-About 10+ dating sites
-Cosplay cons
- Various activities at a... weirdly communist social thing
Self Improvement:
- Countless therapies, literally 20+ psycologists/chiatrist/etc
-Lost 170lbs (and maintained the loss)
-New creative hobbies
-New practical hobbies (that could be turned into a job)
-Traditional hobbies, because im not allowed non MANLY MAN YEAHHHHHHHH *kills something* interests.
-Hanging out with various types of people (I have both transgender friends, and literal neo mid century german ones)
-Going to various new kinds of activities/event
-Attempted going back to school
-Attempted going back to work
-Countless hours spent trying to get to understand how people work (I have almost no empathy)
-So many ''emotions'' counseling and other random stuff i literally cannot understand
-Purposefully meeting people im not interested in, and sticking with it, to ''expand my horizons''
-Various attempts to adapt to people and be more ''normal''
-Constant exposure to extreme anxiety to ''get out of my zone of comfort''
-Moved out 13 hours away for my family, same-ish reason as above
Aniways, according to everyone i talked, this is literally nothing and every single person who's ever had a date ever, without exemption, did at least 50 times this, even those who first got a date at 13, yep, all perfect individuals with no flaws who constantly work on themselves and are basically paragons of virtue. What's that, I went from being a morbidly obese angry bastard with no patience whatsoever to a fairly fit man who's so calm and patient that people genuinly don't think i'm even capable of anger ? Well... Uh.... That guy over there thought about doing some of those so he's like, basically done 10000x what ive actively accomplished, shut up and eat shit, go do more useless garbage.
TLDR: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AH. (Ahhhhh).
