Venting I don't know anything anymore

[Ilovemycats]

I seriously don't know what to do with myself, I don't even know why I feel like I do, it's horrible and I despise myself for wanting to ctb even though I don't really have a reason to do so.

I mean- I have friends, family that kinda cares and I don't exactly struggle with school. Yet I can't help but feel tired.. If I could I would switch places with someone who truly suffers to make them atleast happier.

I just can't help but feel selfish, and feel like my own struggles are invalid. It's getting worse every year and i'm not sure if I can hold on much longer..