roach
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- Jun 21, 2025
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Note: almost none of this was proofread, and it is mostly my thought process guiding me through writing. If you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask.
Hi all,
I don't know if this is the appropriate section to post this thread, but I really need to put this somewhere at the very least. If I am wrong, feel free to punish me accordingly.
To introduce myself, I'm someone who has been suffering social rejection since as long as I can even remember. My main goals in life are to make other people happy with my stories, express myself how I want in my art, and break technical boundaries. However, people always told me from a young age that I couldn't draw, and technical work was essentially a compromise. Only recently have I begun truly expressing myself visually, but no matter what I do, nobody listens, and my goals seem of publishing multimedia works seem so far away. Am I too old now? People usually start in their early teens and only then do people think you're good at what your job of self-expression. People don't see programming as artistic work, even from early childhood.
Living off pills all your life so you don't get too anxious isn't fun. It hurts. People always think I'm a shit person, no matter what I do. I tried ending it all by jumping off a tall building after the bullying became too much, but my body stopped me by giving me a panic attack. Hospitalization's happened early on and recently, both for the same reason.
I want to create and publish my work pseudonymously without being called a clone of someone else, however, I don't know how much more I can suffer through life. My plan has been to keep building my fictional world and CTB when I'm done, leaving a note that the project's over. Am I wasted talent? Is there even any talent to begin with? Should I just give up?
Thank you for reading my diatribe.
Hi all,
I don't know if this is the appropriate section to post this thread, but I really need to put this somewhere at the very least. If I am wrong, feel free to punish me accordingly.
To introduce myself, I'm someone who has been suffering social rejection since as long as I can even remember. My main goals in life are to make other people happy with my stories, express myself how I want in my art, and break technical boundaries. However, people always told me from a young age that I couldn't draw, and technical work was essentially a compromise. Only recently have I begun truly expressing myself visually, but no matter what I do, nobody listens, and my goals seem of publishing multimedia works seem so far away. Am I too old now? People usually start in their early teens and only then do people think you're good at what your job of self-expression. People don't see programming as artistic work, even from early childhood.
Living off pills all your life so you don't get too anxious isn't fun. It hurts. People always think I'm a shit person, no matter what I do. I tried ending it all by jumping off a tall building after the bullying became too much, but my body stopped me by giving me a panic attack. Hospitalization's happened early on and recently, both for the same reason.
I want to create and publish my work pseudonymously without being called a clone of someone else, however, I don't know how much more I can suffer through life. My plan has been to keep building my fictional world and CTB when I'm done, leaving a note that the project's over. Am I wasted talent? Is there even any talent to begin with? Should I just give up?
Thank you for reading my diatribe.
