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TransTaxEvader

TransTaxEvader

what's next?
Feb 22, 2025
184
Im no longer burdened by the issues of my life. I don't have to worry about paying rent, paying utilities, working, finding a partner, etc.

I can just live and be free. It's honestly nice.

I am gonna make one banger ass book shelf next week though!!

and that's kinda gonna be my final project.

im ready, I've made my peace, finished my note, and im in the process of giving things away to my friends and family.

the first time in life im not scared and depressed.
 
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encore

encore

when stars align
Nov 14, 2024
64
i relate a lot. paradoxically, making the decision to ctb and knowing this is how my life will end made me enjoy and appreciate what i have left way more. i don't understand how anyone can feel good just waiting around till something takes them out... at least most of us here know exactly how and when life will end, which is not nearly as anxiety inducing.
 
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Michelstaedter

Michelstaedter

Member
Feb 25, 2025
79
I practice running, and I imagine that the day I have my CTB ready, it will be similar to when I ran a lot, I feel agitated, exhausted, without the desire to run more, but I achieved my goal... Now to rest.
 
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Marbas

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Feb 20, 2025
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That's exactly how I feel about it. Once I've finally CTB it's no more worrying about money, working awful job, dealing with rude people, health issues, trying to find love etc. It's very freeing to think about not having to deal with life anymore. Best of luck on your final project.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,534
I imagine it must be a relief to feel at peace, I wish you the best.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
381
Partly at peace, but growing impatient. I've got a date set that I cannot see myself veering away from. It's just over three weeks away, but when I look at the calendar it looks so far away. I believe on the day I'll feel more peace, but until then I'm struggling with the desperation to be done with it.
 
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areyousafe??

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
401
I relate. I felt a sense of relief when I finally made up my mind to ctb, like a burden had been lifted off my shoulders. I felt so much happier, and at peace with my decision.
 
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heavysoul

don’t want to die, don’t want to live
Feb 5, 2025
50
I sometimes wonder whether if human lifespans were shorter, like 30 years or something, if people would feel like this, more free. And if we would set up society differently and center our lives differently because they're so short and we would just want to experience as much pleasure as possible in that time. But maybe not, maybe things would be exactly the same and not any more bearable and humans are stupid dumb creatures and fail to see the value in making the most of life
 
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Zoro1029

Member
Mar 15, 2025
36
A few months ago I was worried about so much things regarding the future it was overwhelming. Now that I dont see a reason to worry about finding a new job, renting, debt, relationships politics etc… i feel at peace.

I wont be here for much longer but I still want to enjoy my short time left as much as i can. Once my SN comes in I plan to quit my job and live off what I have left in savings until I CTB. No guarantee it will go as planned but I feel confident I will make it work.
 
TransTaxEvader

TransTaxEvader

what's next?
Feb 22, 2025
184
Im no longer burdened by the issues of my life. I don't have to worry about paying rent, paying utilities, working, finding a partner, etc.

I can just live and be free. It's honestly nice.

I am gonna make one banger ass book shelf next week though!!

and that's kinda gonna be my final project.

im ready, I've made my peace, finished my note, and im in the process of giving things away to my friends and family.

the first time in life im not scared and depressed.
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I tried lol
 
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Mar 20, 2025
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niamharina on my balls
 
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StrugglingSienna

Love you, mom. │ Expires May 31st
Mar 16, 2025
112
I literally can't fucking wait. I feel excited about something for the first time in many years. Is that how it feels for you?
 
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twilightSparriw

TwilightSparrow
Mar 6, 2025
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Im no longer burdened by the issues of my life. I don't have to worry about paying rent, paying utilities, working, finding a partner, etc.

I can just live and be free. It's honestly nice.

I am gonna make one banger ass book shelf next week though!!

and that's kinda gonna be my final project.

im ready, I've made my peace, finished my note, and im in the process of giving things away to my friends and family.

the first time in life im not scared and depressed.
That's a fantastic post…
 
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