I hate looking so pathetic to my parents. After I opened up to them about my depression, it makes me look like a helpless pathetic loser you doesn't man up and get his life together. I mean from their perspective, what else there is to do? Sitting and crying about your problems wont make the problems go away. You have to take action. This is what I thought when I was dealing with problems my whole life. I didn't just sit and do nothing. I just managed my problems. Because there was no other option. There was nothing else to do. But now, there is another option for me. The option of ctb. It's the first time were I seriously consider that option. But my parents don't know it. They don't know that I have another option. What they see is a crybaby who doesn't take care of his problems and expect them to magically go away. But when they'll realize that I don't expect them to magically go away but with a rope around my neck, its gonna be too late for them.
