
BabyYoda
F*ck this sh!t I'm out
- Dec 30, 2019
- 552
It was about this girl who wished to be as beautiful as her sister because her boyfriend was liking her sister's photos. Makes me wanna slap and cut myself for being such an ugly freak. I force myself to exercise until my body hurts and punish myself whenever I screw up in any way. I have suicidal thoughts once again after weeks of recovery just because of an FB post. That is how weak I am. It's too difficult to believe that anyone will think that I am worthy with the way I am. I know, I really don't want to kill myself. But I don't want to go back to my normal life after the lockdown because why continue my life if its gonna be shit anyway. I want to literally choke myself and disembowel myself because of how ugly I am. I should be executed for my ugliness. Too bad beheading is not legal anymore. I want to kill myself so bad I'm not worth anybody's time. There is absolutely nothing good about me WHY SHOULD I LOVE MYSELF? That trend is stupid as fuck. I will never love my body because IT HAS DONE NOTHING BUT BRING PAIN AMD MISERY INTO THIS EXISTENCE. I don't care if someone puts me in a blender if I'm dead this body was not meant to be here anyways.