Venting I want to die but afraid of failing

[yomander369]

I want to die so badly but I'm afraid my suicide attempt will fail and I'll be in an even worse situation.

My chronic injuries are so bad and no doctor can fix me. Lying down and even sitting are excruciatingly painful for me. If I fail and end up in a hospital bed I will be in massive pain and probably damage my body further. Plus my chances of a second attempt will be much lower since my mother takes care of me and will prevent me from attempting again.


just want to stop living so I won't be a burden on people and I will live without suffering.

 

[Darkover]

Life is awful shit a living misery in hell and they won't even let us leave in peace

 

[NegevChina]

I want to die so badly but I'm afraid my suicide attempt will fail and I'll be in an even worse situation.

My chronic injuries are so bad and no doctor can fix me. Lying down and even sitting are excruciatingly painful for me. If I fail and end up in a hospital bed I will be in massive pain and probably damage my body further. Plus my chances of a second attempt will be much lower since my mother takes care of me and will prevent me from attempting again.


just want to stop living so I won't be a burden on people and I will live without suffering.

Were in the same boat here. Want to die but afraid of failing.
Though I probably have the best and most peaceful method all planed and all equipment acquired.

 

[FuneralCry]

Trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering is also what I fear, I find it so horrific how such can happen, it's such a cruel horrible world where the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with the option of peaceful, guaranteed death so cruelly denied, I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably in this existence.

 

[yomander369]

Trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering is also what I fear, I find it so horrific how such can happen, it's such a cruel horrible world where the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with the option of peaceful, guaranteed death so cruelly denied, I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably in this existence.

Thank you. I want to find peace in nothingness. I've overstayed my welcome in this worth.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Im mostly afraid of whats next.

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

Thank you. I want to find peace in nothingness. I've overstayed my welcome in this worth.

the autopsy:(

 

[yomander369]

the autopsy:(

I do fantasize about my autopsy a lot. All the doctors will realize I was seriously injured after all, and how little they did to alleviate my suffering when I begged for surgeries. But it won't happen probably. I'll be written off as depressed and unstable.

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

I do fantasize about my autopsy a lot. All the doctors will realize I was seriously injured after all, and how little they did to alleviate my suffering when I begged for surgeries. But it won't happen probably. I'll be written off as depressed and unstable.

Not if they don't end up raping us to the very end, slicing us open after we die. They don't even let us rest in peace,. What a pro-life desecration! I wish I had a finger in "fuck you" mode when they slam me open like that in the morgue. that comes out of my guts jaja

 

[nyctophilia]

Life sucks, but other people just want you to stay alive when they don't have the experience of how bad life feels for some people. I am also afraid of the consequences if I fail, so I am trying to plan the best I can.

 

[yomander369]

Not if they don't end up raping us to the very end, slicing us open after we die. They don't even let us rest in peace,. What a pro-life desecration! I wish I had a finger in "fuck you" mode when they slam me open like that in the morgue. that comes out of my guts jaja

True we should be able to decline autopsies when we register for a drivers license or get a passport.

 

[yomander369]

Life sucks, but other people just want you to stay alive when they don't have the experience of how bad life feels for some people. I am also afraid of the consequences if I fail, so I am trying to plan the best I can.

Yeah people are selfish through and through. They think the pain you dying causes them outweighs the actual pain you feel from living. If they could spend a day in my body they would kill themselves too. And perhaps not as consciously as the people on this site do. Death should a peaceful choice we all get to make.

 

[nyctophilia]

Yeah people are selfish through and through. They think the pain you dying causes them outweighs the actual pain you feel from living. If they could spend a day in my body they would kill themselves too. And perhaps not as consciously as the people on this site do. Death should a peaceful choice we all get to make.

Yeah I completely agree

 

[Knoc]

I do fantasize about my autopsy a lot. All the doctors will realize I was seriously injured after all, and how little they did to alleviate my suffering when I begged for surgeries. But it won't happen probably. I'll be written off as depressed and unstable.

Honestly, most people don't blame themselves at all for almost anyrhing, it's a psychological defense mechanism.