Help I want to die so bad

[s.s.scriptties]

I expressed my want to die in a more passive gradual way that took a large time period and didn't induce pain or be too obvious.

I realised this was too passive for suicide and it made people think I wasn't sure of suicide... I'am, I just thought keeping my options open would be a good idea.
I've thought about it extensively for multiple years and I want to die, no doubt about it. What methods should I use? All the easily accessible ones are too grotesque.

I'm willing now to methods that:
- induce pain
... BUT I would prefer a method that wasn't cutting into an artery and waiting to die from loss of blood, or if I tried that method I'd prefer being drugged to minimise pain.
I wanted a method that was more gradual originally to take time, and be ready. I'm ok now with faster methods, but I want it to be somewhat gradual.

I also want to know what kind of easily accessible pain minimising pharmacy drugs I can get for methods like cutting into arteries, hanging, and etc... and as for hanging, I don't even know how tight I need to make it to take an effect, can the rope not support me and fail? That happens sometimes... What do I tie it to? Would cutting into arteries near the foot rather than the wrists be less noticeable?

I saw people now use nitrite, and SN... Also been suggested lately a method using potassium cyanide. I have also been suggested multiple pills to overdose on, but most of them are prescription only or hard to get.

Egypt here is a poor country, so we usually lack the pills said in the market. It's also hard to get anything for me, since I'm a bit for a hermit. I don't know where to get anything, or how. I can't get something online cause then my parents would know, and I can't ask "friends" for help.

Most of the methods that aren't grotesque aren't accessible to me so I'm considering it... I might jus stick to cutting into an artery. (How deep do I need to dig In there?)

But I'd appreciate it if U can list gradual methods, poisons I can use, substances that with a large amount could be lethal, something I can put in my drinks, pain killers, pills, etc.

Also for gradual methods been considering starvation, it would be more long term and would be more peaceful but it's hard to have the resolve to stick with it.

What are some more accessible methods? Things I can do at home with limited equipment. Body harm, substances, etc... all is welcome.

I want suggestions what the best method would be for it in your opinion, if there is no other option then a grotesque method with no pain minimising drugs or pain killers... I'm fine with that too... But I'd prefer a gradual method like I said before.

I need methods with step by step directions, links, referrals, or anything to work with. As long as I don't need a chemistry set to be able to kill myself, or have to do a 50 steps of something complex jus to end it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be free from this existence, I wish for a painless way to just be gone, but anyway I hope that you find what you search for, best wishes.

 

[s.s.scriptties]

I understand just wanting to be free from this existence, I wish for a painless way to just be gone, but anyway I hope that you find what you search for, best wishes.

Thank you

 

[AnderDethsky]

I once read somewhere about giving up medications — the most passive and natural way to die. All that is needed is to stop taking at least some measures towards treatment. And, it turns out, it can be done given not only by a person with terminal cancer.

You need to work out physically well, so that the sweat breaks out. Ideally, if you have the opportunity to visit the gym. To drink ice water on a hot throat, if carbonated, it is even better, and in this state, for example, go for a walk without outerwear at a temperature of -20C or less. If the climate does not allow such frosts to occur, you can try to soak your feet in icy water for 15-20 minutes, although it is not so comfortable, the thermal conductivity of water is 24 times greater than that of air. This can be repeated as many times as you want.

Our target – pneumonia. In its most acute manifestation, if you do not take any treatment at all, it will take you out of your life in just a few days. As for the pain, I can only guess what it looks like, I myself have had a temperature above 40 only a few times in my life, and even then in childhood, but I can assume that the picture here is similar to SN — more discomfort than unbearable pain as such — you just feel that you not feel very well, which is probably due to the gradual creep of the disease.

+ : Passive natural death. As long as you let the disease destroy you. You will have plenty of time to do whatever you wanted for your last thoughts. And then you will be found peacefully asleep in bed. Passivity will allow you to tune into a philosophical frame of mind and minimize SI. The naturalness of the process perfectly masks your last decision under the usual set of circumstances, which is useful to minimize the suffering and guilt of those who thought they could help you in some way.

Among the -'ses : you can also get tonsillitis, which can cause asphyxia, which can be unbearable and not so peaceful. In addition, it is still desirable that there be frosts outside, and for your climate, low temperatures probably do not bother so much. It's another matter here in Russia.

I have been walking down the street for a week without outerwear in a thin sweater on my naked body, I feel great. It's not so cold yet, the temperature is still jumping in the range of +-20C day or night, but in a week they promise snowstorms, then the fun will begin. And, one day, dragging my own worthless existence from college to home will be replaced by peaceful time spent in a warm cozy bed with a temperature of 40+ and waiting for it to drop soon... up to room temperature. And before that, I will release my last insane stream of thoughts through listening to any ethereal breakcore with its cute, almost childish, sometimes surreal melodies and vocals alternating with 300 bpm inhuman drumming. — It's all so.. inspiring, at least for me.

That's how it is, sorry for such a chaotic intensity of impressions at the end.

 

[s.s.scriptties]

I once read somewhere about giving up medications — the most passive and natural way to die. All that is needed is to stop taking at least some measures towards treatment. And, it turns out, it can be done given not only by a person with terminal cancer.

You need to work out physically well, so that the sweat breaks out. Ideally, if you have the opportunity to visit the gym. To drink ice water on a hot throat, if carbonated, it is even better, and in this state, for example, go for a walk without outerwear at a temperature of -20C or less. If the climate does not allow such frosts to occur, you can try to soak your feet in icy water for 15-20 minutes, although it is not so comfortable, the thermal conductivity of water is 24 times greater than that of air. This can be repeated as many times as you want.

Our target – pneumonia. In its most acute manifestation, if you do not take any treatment at all, it will take you out of your life in just a few days. As for the pain, I can only guess what it looks like, I myself have had a temperature above 40 only a few times in my life, and even then in childhood, but I can assume that the picture here is similar to SN — more discomfort than unbearable pain as such — you just feel that you not feel very well, which is probably due to the gradual creep of the disease.

+ : Passive natural death. As long as you let the disease destroy you. You will have plenty of time to do whatever you wanted for your last thoughts. And then you will be found peacefully asleep in bed. Passivity will allow you to tune into a philosophical frame of mind and minimize SI. The naturalness of the process perfectly masks your last decision under the usual set of circumstances, which is useful to minimize the suffering and guilt of those who thought they could help you in some way.

Among the -'ses : you can also get tonsillitis, which can cause asphyxia, which can be unbearable and not so peaceful. In addition, it is still desirable that there be frosts outside, and for your climate, low temperatures probably do not bother so much. It's another matter here in Russia.

I have been walking down the street for a week without outerwear in a thin sweater on my naked body, I feel great. It's not so cold yet, the temperature is still jumping in the range of +-20C day or night, but in a week they promise snowstorms, then the fun will begin. And, one day, dragging my own worthless existence from college to home will be replaced by peaceful time spent in a warm cozy bed with a temperature of 40+ and waiting for it to drop soon... up to room temperature. And before that, I will release my last insane stream of thoughts through listening to any ethereal breakcore with its cute, almost childish, sometimes surreal melodies and vocals alternating with 300 bpm inhuman drumming. — It's all so.. inspiring, at least for me.

That's how it is, sorry for such a chaotic intensity of impressions at the end.


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Would this work with Egyptian weather tho?

 

[AnderDethsky]

Would this work with Egyptian weather tho?

Infectious/viral diseases can be acquired in any weather and season, as they are transmitted through air and contact. Low temperatures and high humidity can promote the spread of viruses and bacteria, as well as weaken immunity and increase the chances for it accordingly. As a rule, this happens at temperatures below 10 degrees Celsius, which in your case I don't think you've ever encountered this. Apparently, you have too comfortable a temperature throughout the year. And yet, hypothermia can still be caused by prolonged exposure to water/under the air conditioner.

In addition, an important role is played by contact with people, as the main carriers of all viruses/infections, In any thickness public places, as well as in general innate health data and tolerance of all these things.