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CaramelAppleStars

CaramelAppleStars

Deity Someplace Else
Oct 13, 2025
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I'm thinking about how much I'm going to miss everything creative when I go. Songs that I can hardly get enough of even after multiple listens, stories that provoke thought, art that holds such emotion with just the strokes of a brush.

God, I'm going to miss animation. I'm going to miss tv series so much, and I'm going to miss out on series and movies I've been excited waiting for. Walpurgisnacht Rising, for example (if I go out before then) which was sadly postponed, or else I would have seen it by now. I am even sad about art that I have no idea exists right now. Like a song that I could really love if I just found it. I guess that's something even people that aren't suicidal have to deal with, but if I wasn't planning on dying soon, I would be able to intake so much more.

While writing this, I listened to HOME by Christmas Tina, bermei.inazawa, and Annabel, and I really can't help but feel miserable when I think too hard about the beautiful art I won't be able to enjoy. It's definitely something I'll have to come to terms with, and it's not like I'll care when I'm gone,

But I can only hope the afterlife has a library full of this world's creations.
 
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zizzou

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Sep 25, 2025
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Why leave if you're still curious about the future and all theses things?
 
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AZRAEL600

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I imagine being in a peaceful garden surrounded by books. After I die...
 
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rayisnothereyet

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it would be nice to take every piece of media ive ever loved with me when i go
 
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CaramelAppleStars

Deity Someplace Else
Oct 13, 2025
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Why leave if you're still curious about the future and all theses things?
The pros of CTB far outweigh the pros of existing on Earth to appreciate art. For me, the latter are just fleeting moments of enjoyment, while the former is eternal peace (presumably. There isn't really a way to confirm this unless you take the chance)
 
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The pros of CTB far outweigh the pros of existing on Earth to appreciate art. For me, the latter are just fleeting moments of enjoyment, while the former is eternal peace (presumably. There isn't really a way to confirm this unless you take the chance)
Yeah, I get you. I know there's probably nothing after but I can't help but be hopeful.
 

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